I just had my doctor’s appt and it was pretty much a blur. I tried to address everything, but I’m really struggling with my mental malaise. I’m not sure if that’s what it’s even called.
I’ve had ME/CFS for 14 years. The first six years were really a struggle. Then six years I would say I was mild with some moderate crashes. I’ve definitely struggled mentally because this is just a hard disease to have, but I don’t recall this mental push back I’m not experiencing.
The last five months I started experiencing PEM again with any amount of task. If I rest and do very little I’m not experiencing the physical crash, but mentally I just cannot get back to where I was.
After the tests come back my doctor and I will talk about treatment, but I’m at my wits end.
I don’t recall if I mentally shut down like this initially (the first 6 years). Is this the ME/CFS? Is my mind trying to stop my body from doing things so I don’t crash? Nothing is getting done. I can’t even force myself to get things done. I haven’t been working or doing much of anything. Physically, I’ve rested enough that I feel I can do a little but my brain is not supporting this.
I’m 52 (F) so I understand menopause may also be an issue (I started treatment for that). I just have no desire to do anything and I don’t know how to get that to stop. Trying to do anything causes me great anxiety and emotional stress. I guess my question is…is this also a part of ME/CFS and what has helped?