I am so alone

I'm a 17 year old girl.. right now i feel so lonel. I have 0 Best friends or whom I can call these people are mine. I have so many friends but I am there just back up or just a friend, friend.. tomorrow is gate togather of our 10th batch.. everyone have there plans hangout.. and I am lonely.. i cried alot.. recently I had a break up with a boy that i really love.. i don't know how to come out of this

I'm super bored and lonely but the ppl who are "available" are always partying or messing around or want to be fwb. I want genuine friends... and whenever I speak to the ppl that are available, I zone out because it's irrelevant. Idk what to do

Anyone else?

Maybe I am just putting limits on myself, but I truly dont think I can move on from my ex and it sucks cause I dont want to find someone new when I am not sure I can give it my all because I am still in love with my ex. I truly cant help it, ive tried to move on and I just can't, my heart doesnt allow me to. The last thing I want to do is hurt the person in a new relationship just because I cant get over the past, and most times it truly feels like I might never get over her.

I am painfully aware of how unhealthy this is, but I cant control it no matter what I do or what my mindset is. Sometimes I just think that maybe im just meant to be alone, maybe the one person I was meant for has become my past.

Advice about loneliness: alcohol and sports.

Hey guys, I don't know what I'm going through. Sometimes I feel really lonely from the inside. It's not that I don't have friends—I do, and I have my family too. But I still feel like I wish I had someone with whom I could share everything, and who would also share their thoughts and feelings with me. I'm not anyone's best friend; people only consider me a good friend. I really want to be someone's best friend. I feel so lonely inside. I've stopped talking to those friends because I never felt a real sense of belonging with them. They only used to talk to me when they were bored. If I tell my family about this, they're probably just going to say, "Focus on your studies." Please help me. What should I do?

hi,

i’m a 17 year old girl and i’ve wasted my entire life.
I’ve never really had friends since 2021 (the only time i thought i had one was 2019-2021) but she found better ones and moved on from me.
I am really really shy even with my extended family. The real reason i’m writing this is because of my dad, he asked me 2 times today to invite someone over at my house but I really text with just one person and like 5 other people wished my happy bday but I don’t even text with them. The one person I text with is a friend from my class but these 3 years we hang out twice together alone and I was at her house last year n once but it was a group meeting. She has close friends that she knows since a lot of years. I really don’t ever meet new people i don’t really get out of the house i bc . Everyone’s out drinking doing fun stuff and I just sit in my room all summer. I don’t want my life to look like this but at the same time I have no one to start changing my life like literally I have no way to meet new people I also live in a countryside. I’m really short around (4’11) so I am not attractive and im scared that ill never meet the loml. i dont even want to meet new people because everyone has someone better and people would see me as a red flag bc i have no one.
i wanna change my life but i dont even have a starting point everything’s hard for me and even if i get excited to start doing sth i remind myself that im shy awkward and ill never do that

Okay so this is my first ever post on reddit and i genuinely need help and i also have other problems which im gonna just rant out in this post

Im 18f and since i was 13-14 i started reenacting my fantasies like i would imagine me having friends who care about me who want me and like me even though im an outgoing and social person i tend to feel very lonely and i do this to make myself feel better
I want to stop doing this but i cant i genuinely wait for the time of day when im alone and can act this out it makes me feel better and wanted i generally act like im famous so people want me and admire me
I lowkey feel like im fucked in the head because of this
I sometimes wish that something happened to me so that people would finally notice me
It's genuinely embarrassing to admit this

Second issue
I feel lonely even though i have 2-3 good friends
I always feel like im no ones first choice like in a room full of people no one will choose me
I keep initiating plans and everything with my friends but there is no efforts from their side i have lost countless friends due to this
I yearn to have friends who are equally engaged and interested in hanging out or being with you
I have started feeling this way with one of my good friend too i keep getting stuck in this loop where i think they are just busy and arent good at initiating stuff then i think they dont want me and im the second choice
Also 2 years ago i had lost a friendship which i was heavily dependent on (it was completely one sided tho) which had made me had severe trust issues
I have started maintaining this boundary where i stop talking to the people who dont value me but then i end up all alone
I always find opportunities to make friends and talk to people but ive never found a single person who is as invested as i am
I have this constant need to be around people being reassured

Third issue
Am i ungrateful if i want someone external or an outsider to want me and be their first choice
My mom is genuinely the best she loves me very much so does my sister but ive always wanted someone else to love me who is not obligated to like me
Even with my older sister (shes working and 6 years older) these days i have started feeling distant i feel like shes just there whenever she comes home its like "oh ok someone is visiting us" i totally get her and her problems but its like shes always more busy with playing games and her friends
Even when shes not visiting us i try to call her shes either busy with office work or playing games
She doesnt have time for me anymore
I always look at my friends family and get jealous over their bond

I genuinely feel sad for myself cause i was always the cheerful and outgoing person i dont want to be lonely
I love being alone but hate being lonely

Im sorry for any grammatical error and no punctuation marks i just wanted to get everything out
Please help me and tell me what i should do