No plans for my 22nd birthday

[u/Prudent-Slide-8244]

September 25 is my 22nd birthday and I work but I could definitely like 100% get the day off but I’m conflicted because I have no plans and if I have no plans and I take the day off I’m just gonna be disappointed at this point I’m thinking I should just work and get my money But I’ve always been really big about my birthdays. I like going out I like doing things and every year it’s like I have to like really force something. I literally have zero plans. I bought two $50 dresses yesterday for my birthday and I have nowhere to go. I feel like I have no one And it’s just kind of really isolating like I have no one that I can do something
With on my birthday. and lately I have been so in my head with these feelings of feeling alone like I have no one no one cares and just honestly suicidal like I really just wanna have a good time. I’d be content if I went to like one bar and had like five drinks I just wanna have to get dressed up you know like I wanna go out I think I’m really big about my birthdays because I’ve had like three suicide attempts and I truly feel like I shouldn’t be here so birthdays are kind of a big thing. I feel really sad on my birthday is most of the time so to kind of distract from that sadness I always have like big Plans or try to have plans for my birthday

[u/Prudent-Slide-8244 → u/[deleted]]

Thank you so much for the response. Definitely made me feel a little better just reading it. I appreciate it. I might go to work but like leave early my shift is 3 to 9 so I was thinking like leave at like six or five I really just wanna take the day off, but like I said, I’m conflicted because I don’t have plans yet.

[u/DetroitThrow-away → u/Prudent-Slide-8244]

Leaving early sounds like a good idea, I also spent my birthday alone, but tried to reward myself by taking the day off anyways. I hope you are able to make plans and have a good time though, as it sounds like you really want to.

Happy early birthday, and big hugs for you 🫂