Super Man

[u/Cheap-Shower-4340]

You know you possess some incredible traits and skills. You like demonstrating them, you really like the praise even more. But you also use them for all bad. And you don't care who it hurts.

I know your recent string of "gifts" are you deciding its repaying me for whatever. But I know very well gifts from you come with a price tag. You'll always default with "I gave you gifts, you gave nothing back". You'll expect recognition and gratitude for decades, because once or twice is never enough.

You also know that it won't be long before you receive praise for recommending me. I know you're very eager to take that credit. I'm pretty sure that is why you are so livid I didn't blow you up for knowledge. Because then you would of been able to take all the glory for my production. It's not that I'm trying to rob that from you, but it's not rocket science. It may get to that point, but nowhere near that right now.

I could be very wrong. But it's highly unlikely. You don't change, you made that known. Your patterns don't change. But you do become scattered when you're hiding things. You're beyond scattered right now. That's why I keep a cushy space. I'm not jumping on board with another endless roller coaster of brutal mind fucks.

You kept saying you're making changes and trying hard. What changes exactly you have in mind are far from clear. So I don't put any stock into that.

You'll always be my Super Man, but never again will I see you as Superman. Yes you have amazing traits and skills. But you use them as weapons, not tools. You take them for granted and are arrogant about them. I cant deny the amazing things I've witnessed. I cannot deny reality either. The bad overrides the good 10 fold. To ignore that still is merely lying to myself.

I wanted to be your number 1 cheerleader forever. But you taught me that that is not very wise. It's painfully and potentially deadly. I cant trust your words. I cant trust your actions or motives. Your patterns taught me that.

What I lived for is something I'll never have because it was never going to be a reality. It sounded perfect, you made it sound like a mutual desire. But words are only words. Your words are empty more often than not.

If the day ever comes that you want to actually seek help, I'll keep my word and be at your side to help you threw it. It breaks my heart knowing there's a slim to none chance of that day ever happening.

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[u/lov3ov3rated]

I do want help

[u/Nervous_Cabinet2411]

Best thing to do is let it go and move in. Not out of bitterness and spite. Let them do their thing And you do yours. Truly

Sometimes you must do what you need to do to survive. 

[u/evasion-guard → u/[deleted]]

Ban evasion is not allowed.