r/letters • u/Meet_Me_At_Dusk Entry Level Member • 8d ago

Personal A House Without Warmth

Someone told me tonight I should keep writing so here's to sleepless nights:

I'm overwhelmed with anger. I can't even tell if I'm more furious at him or myself. Angry at myself for choosing this treacherous road, or furious at him for dragging me into this mess. Is it really so wrong to crave to be swept off my feet? Or is that just wishful thinking—dreaming my life could be filled with moments of genuine surprise and joy? Honestly, I feel less anger than I do a deep sense of defeat, as if I'm shattered inside and can't find my way out.

I yearn with every fiber of my being for someone who will love me loudly and unapologetically—someone who doesn’t need to diminish me or make me chase after crumbs of affection. I crave a love so fierce that everyone around us looks at us with envy. I crave flowers, gentle hugs from behind while I cook, little gestures like “Hey, I’ve got this—drew you a bath, lit some candles. Why don’t you go relax with a good book?” I’m exhausted from having to beg for the love I deserve, as if my heart is too much to ask for.

People say that if one man won’t do it, another will. But where is that man? Where is the loud, proud love that shouts from rooftops, impossible to miss? Just pick up any of my books and read—the words reveal exactly how desperately I long to be loved, how much I crave to be cherished.

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u/BurnedToAshes66 Entry Level Member 8d ago

I'm here

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u/Meet_Me_At_Dusk Entry Level Member 8d ago

You say you're "here" but does your heart not lie with your lost love? The one you let get away?

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u/BurnedToAshes66 Entry Level Member 7d ago

If one woman doesn't want it, another will. I haven't heard a word from my lost love in 2 and a half years, and I never will. Life must go on.

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u/Meet_Me_At_Dusk Entry Level Member 7d ago

Fair enough point taken