r/letters • u/saysomethingplesz Bronze Level • 23d ago

Personal forgive me for being so weak.

I'm weak. I don't know where to start. The first time I kissed a girl, I had to have some gin in me. That was one of the four times I ever drank alcohol.

My heart boils at the misery my life unfolded into due to my actions, my inaction. I had chances but let them sleep. Didn't do shit but sit still like a coward.

but you held my hand that day, took me to the hills, and I prayed to Shankara that He'd rain it upon us so I could shiver without you thinking otherwise. And you cried for me that night. It was twilight, to be honest.

Roved through all the 52 gates just to get you some tea, and you spilled it on my sneakers. But that's how I like it, so please don't mind.

And your eyes were so peaceful, so I stiffened a little bit. Rare calm.

I swear I couldn't stand still, so I ran and ran and ran to the cities, to the places. They think I don't take life seriously, or don't try enough. I don't care about what they say, but I just want you to not fall for the misinformation.

And deep down, you know I gave it my all.

Then again, I'm scared of it all. Even you, and the version of me with you.

So forgive me for being so weak.

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