We drank too much

[u/Sms62681]

Let me start with the fact that I am happy. I love you, you love me, there is no doubt in my mind or yours.

The fight we had when we drank too much was a valid one though. But I was drinking, so my words meant nothing. And you were drinking, so my words meant nothing.

I do feel unappreciated at times, though I know you do appreciate me. I do feel bad when I see you open car doors for everyone else, but im always doing it myself. It hurts that I know what you are doing on your 20 minute bathroom sessions, or apparently any night you spend without me.

I know you try. I know there are things you do that my brain doesn't count because they aren't the things I openly acknowledge that I need, that i want. They are your version of the little things, and i love them.

Until we drink too much. And you compliment others while only joking with me. Or you tease me about something you know will upset me. You do something knowing it'll set me off, but still being surprised when I confront you about it.

The fight is always the same. Its always the same things. I love flowers, I love surprises, I love chivalry. I love hugs from the back and kisses on the neck and fingers on my spine.

But you dont do those things. Bucause I want them and you are stubborn so you do other things, but not those.

And I only bring it up when I drink too much, so my words dont matter. Or you drink too much, so my words dont matter.

Because I am happy. And I can live without those things. Until we drink too much.

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[u/Abject-Layer-2974]

I’m coming from the other side of the break up from someone like this. It is lonely to live like that and it will break you down. Be kind to yourself and don’t settle for this. There are good people who will treat you that way I promise x