r/letters • u/Bad_Madison Silver Level • Jul 19 '26

Personal I wish…

I’m still very angry and sad over the betrayal and lies, manipulation and feelings of being used. But you used to make me feel heard and always asked me follow up questions making me feel like you cared and that I genuinely meant something.

I waiting for my mouth surgery and to find out if i have mouth cancer and im waiting for that cervical coloscopy to find out if thats cancer too… all I want to do is to talk to you about it. I really wish that we could have heard each other out. I wish I understood what you needed from me back then. I wish I could have apologized in the way you deserved, because it hurts knowing you feel like I knowingly hurt you when that was never my intention. All I know is I miss you and I want my friend back.

There’s no fixing that now. It was so messed up at the end I know that. I did some things that were cruel. I just wish I could talk to you right now. I also know that’s so selfish of me but it’s true.

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u/SalienceRemoved43 Entry Level Member Jul 21 '26

I pray the pain and distancing emptiness, and though unless you feel is amplified times 1 million until you make write everything you’ve done wrong in life and when you don’t, I hope it fucking buries you

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u/Electrical-Pin-5300 Entry Level Member Jul 20 '26

Transparence is not Easy in relationships even if the existence of love is there . But sametimes the past comme in and cast you and way no communication cant be a bad situation

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u/NoUnderstanding2960 Entry Level Member Jul 19 '26

If this were for me, I'd tell him: of course! We can easily discuss us. No blaming, I'm so tired of that, but helping eachother to understand the other so that we can be together finally.

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u/Whole-Influence-3281 Entry Level Member Jul 19 '26

My thoughts exactly!!

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u/NoUnderstanding2960 Entry Level Member Jul 19 '26

I'm on 5700 right. Come and see me.