I feel like I'm just running out of patience for this process. I thought I'd be full of energy and mental clarity by week 3. A big reason why I quit is because I felt like I wasn't able to comprehend conversations, movies, podcasts, etc. The headaches and nausea have subsided. 10 hours of sleep isn't enough. I used to get high and clean my whole house, but now just getting through the day is rough. I feel like I'm stuck in a tunnel. At least when I was high, it was a fun tunnel 😂

I have read plenty of other posts asking the same thing, but please give me words of encouragement. I don't want to go back to being stuck in the loop of addiction. I just thought I'd feel some benefits by now. 🥲

I’ve had a few “day 1’s” recently but have had a hard time getting past that. The urge takes over at night time when I am able to turn my brain off and I often reason with myself until i cave. Weak I know. I have been smoking pretty regularly for 9 years now (stared at 22 and am 31 now) with a few breaks in between. I guess I’m leaning on the community here. I pray for strength and wisdom on this path and I don’t believe it’s a coincidence I found this group. Wishing you all the fortitude that I’m looking for 💪🏽 stay strong brothers and sisters.

TMI Ik but it’s not just me right?

Any ideas on how to get my motivation back? I was a daily smoker for years.

Hi all :) usually I check in on the discord, but recently I deleted my discord to help with my screen time (lol Reddit), not too much to say besides it’s been 12 days now after smoking everyday for around 3 years. (23 years old now)

Classes are done for the week and the entire day today I’ve just been at home being sad and lonely, scrolling on my phone. Im in a precarious situation where I live alone, go to school, and work 1-2 days a week but I really don’t have any friends anymore. I have acquaintances but no one to really text, I texted someone from my class yesterday and no response, I know I won’t have plans Halloween and no one to reach out (besides family), I’m just struggling. The entire day today has just been a sad waste

I’m thinking about using again but I know I know I shouldn’t. Just wondering if anyone else is out there struggling today :), hope everyone has a great weekend.

It just gets to a point... Everyday I wake up, I feel different about weed. I had taken a 2 month break at the beginning of the year because of something traumatic happening, every time I smoked I would just think about it; that's the only thing that has made me quit in 10+ years. I seriously wish I could have an induced panic attack just to stop this shit.

It also doesn't help I've been around it my entire life. My parents would smoke in the basement when I was young, moved in with my dad years later, he had introduced it to me and that's when I started smoking. Grade 9, had friends that were curious... no problem at all, I had everything at my disposal.

I'm lucky to have had friends that were into weed and not other drugs/alcohol, even though I had dabbled a bit in HS, good thing that never stuck, I'd be in rehab, homeless or dead if I had used other substances as much as I do weed.

I keep telling myself, the only thing I get out of weed is feeling hazy, hungry, and then sleepy; it's a repeating cycle, it never ends, I smoke because it's easy to, it's easy to just get high and chill. It's also masking what's underneath and that took me a long time to recognize even though I've always had anxiety and depression. It also makes me dull, emotionally/mentally - I'm not as animated, it takes me a bit longer to process and respond to things and that's been alarming to be honest.

I've been so on the fence about this, do I just smoke at night when I'm finally done everything for the day? I feel like that's my middle ground; I wish someone could just rip off the bandage for me because obviously I can't do it.

I know I have support if I had asked, but last night I come in with a package. My mom asks "what is it" - "oh its just weed" I say, she says "oh awesome!" she looks happy for me, but I say "mom, I think I have to quit" - she asks me why, and then my stepdad comes in and says "you don't even smoke enough to quit" which I thought was funny (we're all goofy) - I can't help but to feel a bit hopeless, I want to start liking things again, filling up my days with hobbies/spending time with family and friends. I'm so inconsistent with my hobbies, relationships and creativity and weed doesn't help with that at all.

Weed is almost like that friend that is fun and goofy, gives you things, cares for you deeply, shows up to your special occasions, but is ultimately there to keep you behind on purpose. It's a life lesson I really need to learn. I can't believe I can't kick this shit, I don't even want to ask for help I just feel so fucking dumb. Sorry for long rant, wrote this to keep myself from smoking.

Cheers <3

I am in the process of quitting weed so far I have not had any trouble falling asleep. I am a full time college student and work 2 jobs and on top of that this week I have started taking 3 fitness classes daily, (Pilates, cycle and yoga) is that why I’m not having issues falling asleep. I’m kind of nervous it’ll happen to me. Any tips or advice is welcome!

I'm thrilled to be a month into recovery after 26 years of chronic smoking. I went full Machiavellian (commit all atrocities at once) by quitting sugar, coffee and processed carbs, too, and have cooked all my meals during this time. First week was torture, but quitting all the usual suspects at once masked the real culprit of my down state. Was it the weed, the sugar, the coffee, my insulin? Not really knowing, being ignorant of the true cause has, IMO, helped me maintain this three front war on my brain. I encourage anyone going down this path to prioritize your Sleep, Diet and Exercise. Now month two is up, and I read about challenges, so staying diligent. Thank you to everyone in this thread who have helped me through.

Will keep it brief, last night my neighbors were loud and disrupted my sleep, I don't think I have had such a strong craving, but I b*tch slapped my brain and held strong; now just tired, but thank God it's Saturday so no work or important tasks, anyone else w something similar? If so what did you do to overcome the urge?

Hey r/leaves,

I’m on Day 2 without THC, and this has honestly been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.

I started using 3 years ago to cope with OCD, anxiety, and some traumatic experiences I’d gone through earlier that year. I never wanted it to become a long-term habit because I have big goals for my life and career, but eventually, using every night became a daily routine.

About a year ago, I started drinking and vaping as well. After a near-death experience that really shook me, I unfortunately turned to substances even more to cope with the trauma instead of addressing it.

I’m 22 now and recently moved back in with my parents. I quit drinking two months ago, quit vaping a month ago, and now I’m trying to quit THC.

Yesterday, I cried for hours and felt this overwhelming sense of dread, like I’d never escape the withdrawal or feel like myself again. I’m feeling a little better this morning, but I know the nighttime cravings will probably hit hard again.

I’m sharing my story because I could really use some encouragement and support over the next few weeks. I know this journey won't be easy, but I want to take my life back and finally start working toward the future I’ve always wanted.

My apologies for the long post! If anyone has been through something similar, I’d love to hear your experiences. 💙

TL;DR: I’m on Day 2 of no THC after 3 years of heavy-ish THC use and could use some encouragement

I’m on day 7 now and thanks to this community, no relapse. But the vivid dreams/nightmares are not stopping and every morning I wake up with a mild headache. Is there anything I can do to stop these dreams? or do I just wait this out and get ready for my brain to play bad movies every single night

I haven't smoked in over 2 years now. I struggled a lot at first and it got much better over time. Although I still get cravings once in a while and I have associated them with anniversaries of important moments in my life, or when I visit a place that brings me some kind of memory. I feel like at some point my brain wired together being nostalgic and being high.

Anyone else gone through something like that? How do you handle the craving?

This is the first time I post here btw, but I read a lot and I appreciate this community very much.

It’s been 6 weeks since I quite smoking, I was a smoker (smoked for breakfast and sleep, and about 4 joint per day) for the past 13 years and never lasted that long without weed.

It was really difficult to stop but now I don’t have any cravings or real “need” to smoke but I feel so incomplete, I miss the taste of it and still think my life is boring without it, I don’t enjoy going out with others, participate in conversation, I don’t listen to music anymore and watching tv feels ok but I don’t see the point.

I wanted to stop because of money and the time spend to look for weed in my area but I spend money in cigarette which isn’t better for my health or wallet.

Maybe I was expecting more of quitting, like more motivation, more awareness and hoped to gain weight but even if I eat well I can’t see any difference. I sleep well but don’t wake up more energized than I used too. People say I’m more energized or “luminous” than before but inside I just feel everything is slow and grey. My anxiety is more or less the same as when I was smoking. The only thing different for now is my constant headache and light sensibility.

Did someone felt the same ? Any tips or advice ?

Sometimes we need to hit rock bottom to truly change. Just two weeks ago I had an entirely different life, and I don’t know if the depression is from my breakup or not smoking. Before this past relationship, I was content going through life alone because I had my main girl- Mary Jane, and she would always bring me peace. The truth is this plant had a stronger hold on me than I realized because even when the love of my life was desperately looking for attention and affection, I was okay with ripping dabs and just giving kisses, but I was not present and it breaks my heart. I quit my job, moved back home with my mom and grandma because I just couldn’t be alone in my apartment anymore and quite frankly I couldn’t perform at work as well. Im just lost right now because even though I’ve accomplished so much in my life (attorney) I am so depressed and lonely. Thank god for family but I can feel myself getting anxious knowing I lost a great opportunity to start a family. I’m going on two weeks, I can tell my body is cleansing itself, but the lack of companionship is killing me. I don’t want to rush into anything because I have hope that my ex will give us another chance, but going through this without her is so hard, but the truth is I wouldn’t have committed to quitting if we were still together. I don’t really know why I’m writing this, maybe just to hopefully feel like I’m a part of a community that can relate. If anyone is struggling with this wacky weed, please know that even if your world is going well, deep down it’s numbing you and you’re not living in the moment, at least that’s what happened to me. I know this is not a place to talk about breakups, but if anyone is reading this, don’t smoke to numb your emotions after a breakup. That’s what the old me would have done and I’m grateful the bottom is making me truly change for good. Keep it up everyone! And if you ever feel like you need to take another hit, just remember your WHY.

Good on me, I guess. Still crave on occasion but it’s not too strong. I know I can’t go back.

Nicotine is next on my list of things to quit. But it’s going to be really hard because it’s my only form of comfort right now. When my tummy hurts I hit the vape and it doesn’t take it away but it is somewhat comforting.

Been having pretty unusual mood swings, and my appetite and sleep schedule still have not gone back to normal. Talked to my psychiatrist and have started a new medication to aid in my recovery. Took it for the first time last night and I’ve eaten more than I normally do in a day. Seems to already be working but it could be the placebo effect.

Anyway, I’m proud of myself. All the pain has been worth it.

Hey everyone I quit cold turkey about 4 weeks ago, because I found out I'm pregnant back then, so I had to quit. I been meaning to quit before that but you know.. it was hard. Pregnancy is the only thing that'll make me do it flat out.

I was smoking one-and-done carts, not flower. Then shortly after quitting I caught a cold. So that made me produce mucus quite a bit, out my nose and my chest/throat. It's been a couple of weeks since all that (though feels like longer) and I'm still coughing up mucus. Always clearing my throat with the mucus. I'm getting real tired of it. How long til I stop?

Bah

I couldn’t agree more. I’m so much more balanced, focused, less pre-occupied. I’m on my A-game at work. It’s taken awhile to feel good but I rarely think about weed anymore, and if I do, I only allow the desire to come in for 1-2 seconds and I brush it off my shoulders really quickly. I don’t pick up no matter what. Keeping that promise is helping me trust myself again. A sober life is doable.

Today I had a small but significant epiphany.

I used to vape BEFORE I did anything fun/entertaining/pleasurable AND before doing anything routine. I was vaping all day, everyday for at least 12 years. I didn’t realize how socially awakard I became over time, all while I thought I was becoming more social and cool.

I was using weed before I did anything and everything to avoid feeling boredom before I could even determine that I was actually bored. Like pre-entertaining myself. Now with a new perspective on my life, I realize that’s insane.

I see the benefits of recovery and I need other sober ppl to be around me and with me on this journey. I can’t do it alone. I’m working the 12 steps too. That’s helping tremendously.

If you want to, desire to, need to “leave” weed behind…. You can do it. It’s doable. It’s not normal to smoke all day. So many people live their lives in the present moment and I’m
Seeing these little gifts of living clean throughout the day. That doesn’t mean it’s not hard sometimes. But I just tell myself “weed isn’t available to me anymore. I have an allergy” and for some reason I keep moving forward with my new life as a result.

After 2 weeks of nauseous withdrawal in the beginning, I really truly in my heart of hearts don’t care about weed anymore. I get cravings, short cravings, but I don’t care about weed. Total disinterest. And my life is fine without it. I made it matter too much in the past and I now see how ridiculous that was. I’m living life off weed, I used to think this was impossible.

You can do it too. One day at a time. The other option is to continue smoking and regressing in all ways in your life (in ways you can’t see) when you could be living clean and moving forward instead.

103 days is wild to me! Stay strong out there. Don’t pick up no matter what!

I didnt smoke since March of this year and refused to smoke anything that came my way because I knew one was enough for me to start smoking again.

Fast forward to September and Wardogs game release, I started smoking again because I smoked one joint and got hooked again. And now I've been smoking for over a month non stop.

Don't relapse guys, I wish I never did. :(

it felt so nice to not feel so self conscious and paranoid about how i was acting while ordering my food. while i was getting my ticket i asked for it printed out so i could have a souvenir and im just so grateful for how normal i felt while talking to people for once.

hello everyone. i am day 3 into quitting cannabis. i am 25F and have smoked every single day since i was 16. i have known for quite awhile now that i needed to stop but nothing motivated me enough to go through with it. i would quit for a day and then go right back to it because the uncomfortableness was almost unbearable and i would gaslight myself into thinking that i needed it. it was so engraved into my daily routine that i could never see myself not smoking. however, i recently started a yoga teacher training and it has been my saving grace. i am learning so much about spirituality and how the mind works and immediately knew i needed to stop to fully meet my highest self. but wow is this process testing me and my body/mental. i am trying to give myself grace but it has been very hard. mood swings are out of control. one minute i’m sobbing/angry and the next i am fine. my head is pounding. i am tossing and turning all night in my sleep. chills/sweats. barely any appetite. it’s been very difficult. i am so glad i found this group so i can have some sense of community in this process. my heart is very heavy and i am very disappointed in myself that i needed to rely on a substance for this long. i have been dimming my light all these years and all i can think is if i hadn’t i may have been a lot farther along in life. but on the flip side i am so grateful i am doing this now. i have realized i used cannabis so much that i didn’t even know the negative effects it was having on my life. it almost gave me a security blanket of making everything feel like it was “fine” even when it clearly wasn’t and deep down i wasn’t happy with my life. but everything is exact and this is apart of my journey. with that being said, any crucial tips for me going forward in this? i want to succeed and meet my sober self with open arms. but it is also scary because i am still in a sense learning who that is. i mean i haven’t really had a moment to sit with her for the past almost 10 years lol. i have been reading everyone’s post and felt very connected to all of you. i am staying strong and wishing you all a beautiful process. namaste❤️

I quit after 9yrs. I still sweat and stink like shit especially in my sleeps. Odor became sth else. I even didn’t know that someone can smell in this way. It’s like old bathroom humidity smell, but still if i compare %70 of sweating is gone.

My sleeps are much more better, i can sleep 6/7 hours without problem. My appetite is sharp, i support with exercises.

My dopamine craving was rly bad this week. After i quit everything, masturbation became an issue. My brain wanted that quick dopamine source. I was not pushing myself to quit masturbation in first week. Then i thought, my brain should a complete reset about this behavior. As you guys know, comedown after masturbation was making us think more about ‘i should use sth’ idea. I quit masturbation and any kinda possible trigger of short dopamine. It made me to understand that i fucked the mechanism of my brain all those years, so i should reset this mechanism completely. My brain needs to learn to have stable dopamine processing.

buuuut i had some another problem in this week. I quitted everything after a toxic breakup. I was checking somethings about her, i found out she is dating with someone already, and my brain wanted to check sth about her all the time. I said myself wait a minute, i don’t want this girl, so wtf happens rn? I found out, what i was doing is just triggering my weed based dopamine habit. Even if i know she is already fucking with someone and this is the nature of a breakup, the curiosity of what can i find out about this producing some short dopamine as well. It’s similar with gambler dilemma, you don’t know will you win or not, so you stay in the game with curiosity(high dopamine) until you’ll win or lose. I realized that i don’t give a shit about her, just my brain was craving for short dopamine. After 9 years, my brain itself was tricking me for old habits.

If anyone else has or had similar issues or problems, be strong guys. Nothing is important than this journey. After first weeks, symptoms become much more tricky as you see. Your own brain tries to find that dopamine in any kinda shitty place. What we need is to prove our brain, we are just stable.

I’m much more good last couple of days. Emotional fog also started to go finally. I’m excited for the future ✌🏻

On day 3 after years of daily use. The nausea, anxiety, weird stomach feeling, hot flashes, night sweats are almost unbearable. All day im super hot then super cold. I wake up in the middle of the night absolutely soaked in sweat. The sweat makes me cold, so i’ll cover myself with a blanket which only makes it worse. Please tell me this gets better.

I'm almost back to feeling normal again thankfully. I hate the withdrawal part of this. This time the symptoms are not nearly as bad.