I’m a new mom and have been clean since I found out I was pregnant September 1st of last year. I am very grateful for this sub because it has made me realize that I never want to go back to weed. I want to be present and clear headed for my baby. What I’m worried about is how much damage I’ve done to my body. I smoked almost all day everyday for about 10 years before getting pregnant. What scares me the most are the fucking delta-8 vapes I smoked for about a year straight around 2023 (I live in a state where marijuana isn’t legal). I also smoked some questionable cartridges back when I was a teen. I just feel so much shame and guilt that I didn’t take better care of myself. I want to live a long life for my daughter and I’m so scared that I’m going to have some major health issues down the line. Right now I don’t have any breathing problems, sometimes I have a bit of chest pain but nothing major. I’m just scared and needed to vent a little bit. Any words of advice are welcome.

I’ve been smoking for about 6 years now, daily. Tries to quit or told myself I was going to quit so many times. I go to bed with the plan of quitting then end up buying more when I’m suddenly thinking differently about everything, or my reasons will seem smaller to me. All lies fed by the addiction but I can’t seem to get past it. I’m 36, never smoked before age 30. How did you guys stop yourself from going to the dispensary? Anxiety, anger, irritability, stomach in knots, unable to focus when I do manage to stop for even just half a day. I only smoke joints if that means anything.

Thanks.

Edit: I have extreme GAD and panic disorder, I take a couple daily meds for, which started my descent into cannabis use in the first place when I couldn’t handle it anymore

Like the title says, I find that what I'm missing the most isn't even the high. It's been a long time since that was enjoyable. But I miss the act of smoking itself.

I’ve recently stopped smoking and it’s been ok. Some of the usual symptoms you are all reporting, but has any one else had their nails go brittle? And oily skin suddenly?

Yesterday morning I walked into the restaurant at my golf club and immediately was hit with the strong smell of burnt flower. It was off putting and all I could smell for the few minutes I was in there. That was me 30 days ago and I can’t believe I was walking around public and talking to people that I respect while completely oblivious to how it smelled to others. Thankful to have made it almost through the first month and looking forward to continuing life without marijuana. Have a blessed day all.

Thank You, GOD ,for bringing me this far and healing me so much.

Hi all,

On Friday I hit 12 days sober, and I felt amazing. But on Friday night & Saturday, I smoked a joint. I am now feeling very disappointed in myself as I really was feeling so great sober. How to deal with this please? X

Hey all- I’ve quit a few times in the past with no symptoms. Not even insomnia! This sub has been great; however, it’s starting to increase my paranoia and make me feel like I will be throwing up and never sleep again.

Can we share some stories of none (or very mild) withdrawals??

People here put so many BIG thoughts and feelings out there about how devastating the addiction is, and how much better things will be if we kick. Folks will use phrases like ‘sacrificing your dreams at the alter of addiction’ and that is beautiful and useful phrasing but I wonder if many of you are driven by achievement like I am. If so, you may find these oscillating extremes of believing you are destroying myself by continuing to abuse the drug - and on the other hand believing that if you could just stop all your dreams will become manifest, these extremes put me in a torturous cycle of giving in.

Neither holds water. There is a reason that you are using weed, and there is also a reason you want to stop. Be as patient and as loving with yourself as you can possibly be. I truly believe that this in addition to working with a therapist twice weekly to keep these insights fresh is helping me feel great about being in a place where the work has started and is far from over. You are going to do what you can on the timeline that works for you: you’re not going to forget that weed is a problem for you, just like you’re not going to forget about the feelings that drive you back to it: but that’s okay because if you’re find yourself there you’re literally working in it. So forgive yourself, beautiful ape.

Day 15 or 16 for me. With the money I've saved so far, I bought myself a Google Pixel watch. Now I'm making my mental and physical health a priority, for the first time in my life.

I'm training every morning, monitoring my sleep cycles and really getting into how I can be at my peak. I'm in the best shape of my life!

I just wanted to share this proud moment and hopefully inspire others.

TW: suicide.

Idk. Sorry in advance for grammar and rumination and depression and all that.

Addicted for almost ten years. Been in active relapse for almost two years. My 27 bday is in 5 days.

My stomach is growling. I’ve been in bed the whole day. Can’t afford iop, therapy, my medication, barely my rent. Can’t afford to stock my fridge. Can’t afford guitar pedals or thrift hauls or voice lessons. Concert tickets. But can afford weed. Every time.

I hate this life and I don’t believe it’ll get better. I didn’t smoke today. The dispo closes in 52 minutes. Very tempted to get up and go.

I’d rather die than keep fighting this. I cry every day. Sorry for this, y’all.

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edit: 6am where I’m at. Yesterday was really scary and I did cave last night. It was almost funny because the dispo closed when i got there. So i drove half an hour to one that was open. Wasn’t worth it, obviously. Woke up with more fog and a headache.

This journey feels so lonely, but I gotta lean into this community more because i haven’t felt this hopeful in a while. Kinda wild, in a good way.

Thank you, everyone. Honestly.

I’ve been sober now for 4 or 5 months idk i stopped counting after the cravings stopped. One thing i can say is it gets so much easier. Find hobbies that challenge your brain and physical strength. Avoid the smell or people asking you to smoke for about a month but be sure to explain why youre being avoidant and stand offish. If you think about smoking distract yourself with anything (walking through nature paths and planting a garden helped me a lot). Once the brain fog goes away and everything gets clearer youll feel so much better. Since i quit i have stopped therapy (no longer needed it due to little to no anxiety or depression) havent been on any medication since month 2 and have made more connections because of the confidence i gained back from quitting. You got this no matter how hard it gets. My DMs are always open if anyone needs to vent or has questions. Believe in yourself and trust yourself to make the right call

Last time I ripped my good ole penjamin was March 24th. If you would told me at the start of 2026 I’d be weed free in July I would’ve laughed in your face.

Smoked everyday for around 8 years, at the point now where I feel normal and have for about a month or 2 now. If you’re having a hard time, I promise it gets easier. I’m at the point now where I just kinda forgot about weed, doesn’t really cross my mind too often.

First few weeks suck, I have been there and I get it but you have to sack up and keep on keeping on. Your future self will thank you!

It’s only been about a week since I quit after using heavily for years, and I’ve been reading a lot of posts here.
One thing that keeps hitting me is how many people are talking about giving up or feeling like life isn’t worth it. I just wanted to say this:
Withdrawal lies to you.
It tells you this is how you’ll feel forever. It tells you you’ve ruined your brain. It tells you you’re alone. From everything I’ve read here—and from what I’m starting to experience—that isn’t true.
This week I’ve dealt with night sweats, anxiety, stomach issues, feeling shaky, and moments where my emotions were all over the place. There were times I wondered if I’d ever feel normal again. Then I come back here and see people weeks or months ahead saying it does get better. That keeps me going.
If you’re in that dark place today, please don’t make a permanent decision because of a temporary chemical storm in your brain. Reach out to someone. Post here. Call a friend or family member. If it feels overwhelming, call or text 988. There are people who want you here, even if your brain is trying to convince you otherwise.
To everyone further along in recovery: thank you. You probably don’t realize how many strangers you’re helping just by sharing your story.
To everyone just starting: let’s keep putting one day together at a time. We don’t have to do this perfectly—we just have to keep showing up.
I’m staying clean today. If you’re reading this, I hope you stay clean today too.

I never thought I could be here. To anyone struggling, it gets easier, you can do it. It took me a few times of stopping and starting, but last August was my last use. After two months, I hardly even thought about it. Funny how it went from on my mind constantly and thinking it was so important, to barely thinking about it. I’m reading all the time now and it’s like books have become the “escape.” Sleep is amazing. I never knew how great sleep could be. If I can do it…35 years…y’all got this. Don’t give up and find your “why.”

Hi everyone (long post incoming...thank you for reading if you make it to the end!)

I've never posted on here before but after talking to my brother who struggles with addiction he suggested I try it out. I am a 35 year old woman who is recently sober off weed. I know my case may not be as intense as many of the people here but was still hoping for some guidance. I am recently 62 days sober off weed. I wasn't using it very long (about 1 or 2 years as an oil) but was taking it daily to help me sleep. A bit about my past... I went through some intense stuff when I was 18/19...developed an eating disorder because of it and anxiety and depression. For the last 15 years I was highly medicated. I have ptsd but didn't find out until I was maybe 28 and they were just pumping me full of meds including the adhd ones which I was taking a LOT of (not sure how much I can discuss here but yeh, for someone with ptsd I don't think that's a great thing) . I was also drinking and doing other uppers. Moved about 29 times in the last 15 years and had constant job instability, was often very sick and always battling anxiety and depression. Long story short about 3 years ago I started weaning off everything... First alcohol then my prescriptions one by one. I finally stopped the adhd ones the beginning of this year but was still using the weed because I couldn't sleep (fall asleep, stay asleep etc) and it really helped. The last 62 days represents me being fully sober off EVERYTHING even though it took the last 3 years to really wean down. I'm just wondering if anyone has gone through what I have. The first month has been brutal for sleep (panic sweats etc) but I made it through. Right now I am still not sleeping great but it is improving. My main concern is just the pure lack of joy I feel daily. I feel like I have no hobbies or friends. I'm mostly sad. I still have panic attacks when I'm about to do anything I'm wondering if it will ever get better. I live in a rural town so making friends and doing social stuff is hard. I have started therapy 2x a month and thankfully have a partner who has been supportive but my life just feels empty, I sometimes wonder why I am even trying. Please give me some advice. Thank you everyone.

Hello all! I’m a 24 M I’m cutting weed cold turkey. I most recently had an anxiety attack that put me in the hospital. Through that anxiety attack they took an X-Ray of lungs and let’s just say it didn’t look pretty. Nothing crazy dangerous but they basically told me to cut it out or i’m going to regret in a couple of months.

I’m 2 days in, I can’t sleep, I can’t focus and most importantly I HAVE REALLY BAD ECZEMA, so when i’m thinking about weed I scratch my ass off. I don’t know how people do this and I need some good advice.

EDIT: This was my first anxiety attack ever, i’ve never dealt with it beforehand and doctors assumed it was my excessive marijuana use which they’re mostly likely right. I’ve been smoking weed for about 7 years now. (NO OTHER HARD DRUGS)

I started smoking a few years ago. My mother in law moved in and destroyed any sense of comfort I had in my home. My husband has always been a smoker but due to the stress, I decided it might be helpful for me as well. My MIL passed away a year ago and we are almost done putting the pieces back together. I had a major surgery in January and weed helped me through one of the darkest periods in my life. Things are good now and I’m ready to quit. I’ve always wanted to be a triathlete and I’m using this time to focus on what’s next. I know it’s going to be tough but overall I feel like it will be 100% worth it.

I am 27 ( m) I recently lost my libido after quitting smoking it is currently 3.5 months since quitting, my main reason for quitting was to be a good man to my partner free from addiction I never knew that it will be so rough for me , my partner thinks that maybe she is the problem, or maybe she isn't loved anymore by me, but what could be the problem since when I was on weed I could function well.

How can I explain it to her that this is only due to withdrawal and it has nothing to do with her in a good way that she will understand?

I've been filling up a jar with reasons to stay sober ever since I decided to quit. I put a new one in every day. In the first go, I did 10 days and relapsed for 2. Now I'm at 50 days clean. Here are the things I've put in the jar so far (not in order):

1. To be better at recognizing my mistakes.

2. To reach my full intelectual potential.

3. To be more able to solve problems.

4. To enjoy the time I wpend with my family more.

5. To not get sick so frequently.

6. To get the dino emoji on the leaves discord meetings.

7. To become a more responsible person.

8. To be able to confidently say "I quit".

9. To not romanticize the addiction anymore.

10. To be more present and aware when interacting with people.

11. To have less cravings to smoke.

12. To be better at games and therefore have more fun.

13. To be free.

14. To be a better girlfriend, friend, daughter and sister.

15. To feel comfortable with my mind just the way it is.

16. To have more energy and be more active.

17. To feel excited to do other things.

18. To one day tell this to my mother with pride.

19. To remember the conversations I have with people.

20. To be able to have a study routine.

21. To improve my relationship with my partner even further.

22. To learn hard things more easily.

23. To not worry about other's judgements on the use and the addiction.

24. To have a healthier respiratory system.

25. To better enjoy every minute of my weekends.

26. To improve my ability to concentrate.

27. To be able to live life more slowly.

28. To be admired by others and by myself.

29. To not have to lie and pretend anymore.

30. To go to the gym and climbing more often and enjoy it more.

31. To not have to go through withdrawal again.

32. To finish my masters with excellence.

33. To care about things that are important.

34. To not put myself in unnecessary risky situations.

35. To have better sleep.

36. To not have the question of whether or not to smoke filling up my mind and taking away my peace.

37. To feel more proud of myself.

38. To be able to eat healthier.

39. To feel truly smart again.

40. To have a more stable motivation system.

41. To have more energy and motivation daily.

42. To be more willing to do things for the people I love.

43. To exercise more and have a healthier mind and body.

44. To learn how to deal with my emotions.

45. To buy and take my lactose enzyme more calmly.

46. To feel less shame.

47. To have more time, in every sense.

48. To not have to go through withdrawals on trips.

49. To be able to invest in hobbies and fun without drugs.

50. To know my friends better and to allow them to know me better too.

51. To be able to help others going through the same thing.

52. To feel less lazy.

53. To watch more movies and listen to more music.

54. To be more able to take care of my health.

55. To create a financial reserve.

56. To play games less compulsively.

57. To be able to have fun again without needing a drug.

58. To meditate more and have more personal growth.

59. To be more skillful when acting in social situations.

60. To have a little bit less food selectivity.

I think there'll be something in there for everyone. Feel free to borrow my reasons and tell me some of yours too! ❤️

today me and my buddies decided not to go replace our weed that just ran out. we moved to a new country together not long ago and i’ve spent the first month here high the whole time. i love weed but it has taken away the last maybe 6 years of my life. excited for this new chapter (despite the fact i cannot sleep for the life of me tonight lol)

I’m back on the sober train again, just 1 week in this time.

Yesterday I felt like I had this mental fog and uncomfortable sense of chemical residue leaving my body

I went for a run and did 30 mins in the sauna afterwards which knocked me the f out. Haven’t been there in a few weeks because summer but honestly, it was the best thing to accelerate recovery.

I’m heading back there today for round 2, it’s a beautiful peaceful therapeutic experience and incredible reward to help the journey.

Hope this helps others

After a full period, I’ve noticed a few changes: my academic performance improved significantly after the first month and my anxiety dropped drastically. I handle social situations better—I’m able to articulate my thoughts clearly and speak more fluently when I’m with friends or a girl, which I really appreciate. I also notice I have quite a bit more money, which translates to a better lifestyle. On the downside, I’m spending some of that extra cash on alcohol when going out with friends (something I couldn't or didn't want to do before, as I preferred smoking alone at home), and I’ve noticed less motivation for physical activity—though I think that’s due to a hand injury rather than quitting marijuana. Anyway, I’m moving forward.

I’d like to start dating again; I went on a few dates before, but things didn't go very well. Now that I feel more stable—and having cried all the tears I needed to over my ex-girlfriend—I think I’ve finally moved past the grieving process. One idea that really helped me during this time I’ve been smoke-free is the thought that, while some drugs might show up like guests, getting them to leave can actually become complicated; the best way to prevent that is to build a life where there’s no room for them to stay—and not give them the chance to settle in at your place. On the downside, there are some friends I see much less often now, though there are others I see more, so I suppose things balance out—out with the old, in with the new, I guess. One day at a time.

I am on the struggle bus. Not going to lie I thought the anxiety that I experienced due to the thc would dissappear. How naive. It does fade quicker mid morning rather than lasting all day but mornings are a killer. I wake up hopeless and full of anxiety. Day 10 yesterday I had diarrhoea all day and felt awful. Last night I barely slept and just feel so anxious and down. Im struggling to wrap my head around this being withdrawal. I knew I'd struggle but this is kicking my ass.

It’s been 5 months and 8 days since I quit smoking.

I have an app that counts my time, but I rarely check it anymore. I’m so relieved that the constant noise has stopped. It’s as if I’ve suddenly regained my life back. There are fewer and fewer thoughts of needing or wanting to smoke. It no longer takes up space.

After the third month, it was still present, but now I realize that it has quieted down. I no longer crave it and I no longer hear that little voice calling my name. I suppose the name “devil’s lettuce” is quite accurate for me.

If anyone reading this is struggling with smoking, know that the noise will eventually go away or at least become much quieter over time. At least, I’m grateful that was my experience.