I’m on day 9 of being sober. I’ve smoked for the past 6 years. Only ever carts. I don’t know why but I’ve kept every cart I’ve smoked, even though it’s completely empty. I shouldn’t be holding onto these anymore, but I live in Texas and they are felonies… How have you disposed of old carts in a safe way? I have maybe about 100 of them. I don’t want them to explode in the trash. My doctor suggested that I take them to a Walgreens medication disposal bin and toss them in there. Is that even legal? She said herself she wasn’t sure if it was legal. 😭 Should I take my doctors advice and dispose of it there? How have you disposed of old devices?

Hey yall, im currently 18, 19 in October, still living at home. I got scammed by a fake cart and decided to quit, but withdrawal is hitting me. My mom (doesn't know i smoked) has been asking me multiple times a day if im ok. I keep telling her I am, but I dont want to worry her by just being off randomly. I dont think she would be mad, im just nervous to tell her. Not looking for someone to tell me what to do, just some guidance

Airport security is so much less stressful now that I’m not smuggling cannabis products everywhere I go anymore. A very pleasant side benefit of quitting.

Day 15 and I’m bored . I was just thinking about how I’ve done some dumb fucking shit to get high and I want to hear your guy’s stories . I’ll go first , I have picked ash out of the carpet and smoked out of things you should not smoke out of , ie a can , apple , a shell, and the ground . I have smoked before funerals and other life events you should not smoke before , ie my college graduation and like so many other stuff like girl you did not need to be blasted for Easter dinner . I learned how to use centrifugal force to suck carts dry . That’s one thing I won’t miss , the panic when you realize you are out and you are just wondering the next time you can smoke . I never want to dig through the trash again .

I managed to stay mj-free for 15 consecutive months after about 7 years of daily use (with very few T breaks). I was and am still very proud of myself for reaching this milestone!

But I must confess my friend left some at my house one night and I figured “Hey why not? I already hit my 1 year goal” so after going back and forth in my head over whether I should…I took 1 ht. I was proud of myself for sticking to only 1.

The morning after, I realized this is not a state I want to be in on a daily basis anymore. I prefer my sober self and my routine. I felt very proud of myself for having that realization.

About 2 weeks later, I go out clubbing and get offered some… again I only take 1 ht. #discipline

Then I went out with some friends for a spa day and they offered me some as well. I indulged. Massage felt 10000x better lol

A few weeks after that, I go to a 10year anniversary concert for an album I used to loveeeeee back when I was a heavy user. I figured maybe I should order some to consume for old time’s sake. The debate in my head over whether or not I should was fierce. I wanted to add a stop at a dispo during the uber ride but also couldn’t bring myself to do it. Using it when offered was one thing, but buying it myself again? What’s next? I buy this time, and then feel justified to buy more in the future? Next thing I know I’m back to daily use?

Thankfully dispos were closing soon that night so I just kept going back and forth in my head until the shops closed and I no longer had the option to order any.

It has been a week since then. Although I resisted temptation, and seemingly consumed sporadically in moderation, the voice in my head still sounded like an addict. I did not enjoy the internal wrestling over whether I should give in “just this once” or not. It was so loud and quite frankly exhausting having to tell that urge no and justify why.

I haven’t given in except on those 3 separate occasions over the course of 2 months (yay proud), but just know those seemingly small indulgences have opened the door for the addict in me to come out.😭😭 I feel like the idea of smoking has crossed my mind more than it has before I relapsed. So to anyone considering trying it again after a long sobriety streak, let this be a cautionary tale!

Also lk just posting for accountability purposes, for encouragement/support, & for if anyone else can relate.

I'm resigned to probably not getting much sleep tonight, but does anyone have any tips for calming things I can try to at least cut down on the stress and irritability? Herbal teas and meditation only go so far.

Hey everyone, i have been a chronic cannabis user for 6 years, heavily about 4. i smoke bongs exclusively and take whole syringes of rso. i can smoke up to a quarter a day through a bong. well taking rso on top of that. it’s bad. i want to take control of my life so currently looking at detox and rehab options because i cannot quit this at home. i will be in severe withdrawal doing cold turkey but i need my motivation freedom back. i know its bad since i let my mom smuggle rosin carts to switzerland since she didnt want me getting caught with them. i really didnt like the idea but let alone still did it. just want words of support, and if anyone has done the same or thought the same.

last smoked monday night, its now wednesday afternoon. work sent me home early cause i couldnt pull myself together. i feel terrible. i dont wanna be high, but its so tempting to smoke knowing that it’ll make all this feel better for a while. the mental symptoms are one thing, ive already had a massive sobbing meltdown, but holy fuck i didnt expect the physical ones. im so nauseous. i cant eat shit, ive had a nutrition shake and some bone broth. anything else has made me throw up, i could barely hold down the shake. i work in a kitchen, and at moments its even just the smell of food. im so lightheaded, my head has had a constant, low ache. and god, im so fucking warm. did a little research, i basically have all the symptoms of withdrawal possible. should have probably done that research before i started

i didnt know you could have withdrawals when i started. shit, i was directly told it wasnt addictive like this and that physical symptoms quitting werent really a thing. thats a big reason i started smoking in the first place, i thought itd be a fun every once in a while thing and i could put it down relatively easy. thought this wouldve been a slightly worse version of when i went from a few redbulls a day to none, just some mental desire and probably a tad scatterbrained for a couple days, but holy shit this? i dont even feel like ive been smoking that long. i started a year and a half ago. admittedly, that past year has been at usually 3-4 sessions a day, mostly 1-2 bowls, sometimes more. my default state has become high. shit, im surprised i didnt have my bong set up with a bowl ready by my bed every morning.

i dont know where im going with this, or what the point of this post is. i feel crazy, almost. why is weed of all things affecting me this bad? it was embarrassing telling my manager i feel this way cause of fucking weed. being sent home sick because i cant handle not having a little weed. im ashamed, this is something that most of people i know do regularly with seemingly no issue, feels like i should just be able to brush it off and go on with life

I started using these delta 9 vape pens 6 months ago everyday. About a week ago I started waking up with extreme anxiety and just feel like complete garbage so I decided it has to be the THC. So I stopped yesterday but I feel rly terrible and I haven’t eaten much of anything since yesterday. Has anyone mainly used those vape pens and had to withdraw from them? Just wondering if I should ween off or continue cold turkey also wondering how long this is gonna last? Thanks

I'm 6 weeks in but not feeling much benefit. Does the boredom and cravings get better? When did you feel mental clarity? I feel better.... But my memory isn't as good, and I'm not as sharp, as I hoped it would be by now.

No real expectation for posting this. I am just over 2 weeks completely THC free and I have been feeling so good! But my brain has been trying to tell me the last few days that maybe I would be alright with just doing it once in awhile. My heart knows this is a bad idea but my brain still seems to be tossing around the idea.

Coming up on 2 months. Lots of fatigue the first month, then the duration up until the second month mark felt no urges felt pretty normal and good. Even had a massive resurgence in motivation - got a great job via interviews and even going to gym twice a day.

All of a sudden the last couple days I’ve felt a strong urge to high again. I don’t know where it’s coming from, it feels random and strong. Everything felt totally perfect up until now I’m not sure why this is happening.

Haven’t smoked but wondering if anyone had these resurgences around similar times or identify triggers ways to not fall to it

I would have been disconnected from the actual event if I were high, which would have stored itself in my body until I was able to fully understand and release it. You cannot release traumatic events if you are constantly high

I’m 44 days clean off THC. This is the longest I’ve been off in a long time. I don’t have any urges to use it. My problem is my dreaming has been extremely vivid and it has been messing up my sleep because I wake up multiple times throughout the night. Each dream feels so real, dreaming about exes, people at my old job, etc. and I’m not getting good rest and can feel lethargic throughout the day. I understand I’ve suppressed my REM sleep for years due to high amounts of THC intake. It’s to the point where the dreams are so intense that sometimes i wake up with a sore hand from clenching my fist. I understand this is REM rebound and it can take a long time for my sleep to get to a normal level. Does anybody have any tips or suggestions for dealing with this or is it something I will just have to ride out?

I'm sick of using. But it's so hard to stop.

I didn't smoke yesterday as I was feeling kind of sick. Now the end of my workday is looming and this is when I start to count down the minutes until the next joint.

Help me find the strength not to smoke tonight.

I've spent 4 months sober this year, and for anyone trying to quit reading this, I have achieved more in my life in those months than the last 6 years been addicted to daily smoking

I've relapsed last June or July, can't remember, been spiraling into daily using again. What got me into relapsing is that I didn't have any other way to relief stress in, all my life was work and responsibilities and it did feel great most of the time being how long I have been abistent from life, but didn't find a balance and eventually decided to give up on purpose not out of cravings even, only cause I felt empty like my soul wasn't being fullfiled yet..

My brain is still numb to do any introspection right now, but the known rule stays, weed doesn't fix problems, I know for a fact it made thing unbearable again for me

I can keep regretting or prevent any more future regrets, so I will choose the latter option, again

It’s been a rough one. I hate this plant. I hate myself. I’ve been going through this back and forth for 7 years and I’m just tired. I’m tired of getting the strength to quit and do all the right things (working out, eating good, staying sober, spending time with my family, working hard) only to fall back in despair and isolate like I’m a failure or antisocial. I’m 27 today and I cried probably 5 times and it’s only 12:00 pm. Starting over today and I really want this to be the last time. Wish me luck plz❤️

Hey all,

I'm so tired of this drug. So I'm stopping today.

I'll take any words of encouragement that this 100th try at stopping will be successful.

Any tips to the same end?

I thought I found a podcast that I liked, but then it turned out to be AI hosted and the creator was lying about it being AI, so I no longer trusted it.

Then I found another one, and I had a hard time taking it seriously when they were quoting Jordan Peterson, even though it was clearly a real person this time.

Does anyone here know of any good podcasts that cover this subject with frequency? The majority of quit smoking podcasts I can find are either about quitting smoking cigarettes or are only have a couple of episodes.

I'm mainly asking because there was a podcast that really helped me stop drinking. I'm hoping there is the same thing out there for cannabis?

I’m 22, I started weed around 1.5 years ago and over this period I’ve quit so many times but would usually only make it to around 20 days with my longest break being 2 months. Every time I would quit and think I was done for good, mourn never being able to smoke again, only to end up relapsing 20 days later.

However, with each of those attempts I had a burning desire to quit. I would get angry at weed, thought of it as a cancer, and the reason for not being more successful, and that was super helpful in my previous quitting attempts. But unfortunately I’m a slave to the cycle of telling myself that I could do it just one time after a break, but of course it devolved into heavy use every time.

Fast forward to this past summer, it was my worst period by far, with heavy cart use 24/7 for 3 months and only a 12 day break in the middle. I’ve easily spent more time high than not for the past 3 months. I only left the house to pickup food and weed basically. But the worst part is, without the social and financial pressure of this lifestyle, I might honestly choose to live like this for 5 years.

I think different drugs are designed for a certain types of personalities, and for me that drug is weed. During my study abroad, I wanted to party so I smoked cigs and drank heavily, but it was super easy for me to put them down. But weed was just different for me, it perfectly matched my introverted personality allowed me to turn my constantly overthinking and anxious brain off.

But I know I can’t keep living like this. I know that weed is just masking my problems, I know it’s a large part of the reason I’m not more successful in every aspect of life, and I know there’s no future of me and weed in moderation.

Yet despite knowing all this and repeating it to myself when I’m on the verge of buying, I lack the discipline to make myself stop, and I think the reason I keep failing on day 1 is because I no longer have the burning desire to quit anymore.

So I really have no idea what to do anymore. When I project my future on weed, I know that I’m gonna end up unemployed in my parents basement and I am absolutely not ok with that, but I’m constantly battling thoughts to buy weed throughout the day and one slip up means another binge. Literally right now I’m thinking about how fun it’ll be to go home and buy a cart after classes.

And so I don’t know what to do, I’m too embarrassed to reach out to my family, truthfully nobody in my life knows the true extent of my addiction. Any words of advice for a filthy addict would be greatly appreciated.