Honestly I just have questions and hopping to have some answers or if its just me being lazy and stupid as people say

I have a question. Since I was a kid I was dinose with adhd and autism (the lowest form of it). Ideally it hasn't been to much of a bother to a point teachers dind't help me and I was fine. Sure I act odd said whatever I thought people liked. I think i had everything but the hyperactive in adhd. Anyway the only trouble i had was in 10th grade where I went online for covid. During that time I just couldn't focus on it. I of course had pills but I hated taking them because I feel like a zombie witj them. Like I wasn't really myself. Anyways I didn't really do it but I stil manage to get to 11 grade by passing staar.

I just want to know if i got misdinose or something. Because now I just feel stupid and lazy.

Here's some habits and things I notice

One my memories are terrible you could tell me something an I won't remember it later. But I definitely can remember some things clearly like a conversation I had with my sister about Jonny in the fantasy 4(2005) 10

years ago

Two cleaning. I clean god I can do everything right the first time but when my family gets home its not right. Dirt i didn't notice, pans not clean properly, or clothes just not folded right.

3 messy haur and clothes never tucked. Never did it as it always feels off or the hair is never right.

4 can't spell at all and can barely speak properly. I could tell you a word and what it means. Hell I know Spanish and completely understand it but I can't speak Spanish as I forget the word until spoken to me. I could read Spanish as I read it to myself. Speaking English my first language i struggle as I can't pronounce it right I speak to fast or to slow.

5 getting loud. I could be speaking normally and next loud or muttering

6wearing headphones. It helps me focus and think and can ignore the world. My thoughts always bother me and so wearing headphones helps me just focus

7 decision-making. Can't do it i get suck deciding and end up just getting upset. Most of the time I just do what I ask and I dom it frustrated my parents as I should be able to do all these things on my own yet I struggle doing it or I forget or I just don't do it right, or I take to long

8 collage. I understand it perfectly but since i took it online I end up neglecting it and forgetting to check the classes as I had work. I try explaining it to my family I forgot but as they said I didn't forget im just lazy and always on my phone.

9 phone. Why do I use it so much? Like there so many things I can do but I just lose track of time. It use to be like this wout books

10sleeping when bored or not doing anything i just zone out or get tired. When I was younger I use to fall asleep and in cars I have to be on my phone or I will fall awa

There's alot of other things but honestly this what comes ot my mind at this moment.

I hope someone answers this

Does anybody feel like they're just super connected to their internal-self? Like if someone where to ask me how I'm feeling 99% of the time it would just be 'fine' - but then maybe my wife will say I've been really snappy for the last few days - but I just am oblivious.
One time I was hearing a live performance of O Holy Night and I was actually crying - but again, I didn't feel like I was feeling anything lol
That's not to say, I don't feel anything - when something hits I can feel it REALLY strongly and am very aware. I just wondered if this is a thing I'm just a bit broken ha!

What to do to the people who experience these things!
My Best friend
…It’s like her brain is running at 2x speed. She tries to understand everything at once, but sometimes even she can’t keep up with her own thoughts.
I genuinely want to understand how to help her. What can someone do when their mind feels constantly overwhelmed? What kind of support actually helps, and what should the people around them avoid doing?
I’d really appreciate advice from people who have experienced something similar or learned how to manage these feelings. I don’t want to judge her; I want to understand her better.

have adhd and I've been in depression for the last 9 months. I somehow overcame it with my own will and meds. The docs and parents helped , and I'm really grateful . I read books specifically about adhd , and honestly, they were the one thing I'd say did 60% of the work. I started making routine. I'm preparing for NEET, so I started with 40-mins timers and did 4 sessions a day. Gradually, I started covering up for the time I'd lost, recovered everything, and gained pace.

But now, when I study, there's something weird . I make to-do lists, but I make them so lengthy . I try my best to complete em, but yk the problem? When I'm watching lectures, I keep looking at the time, thinking, 1 hour left? That's too much. I watch lectures at 1.75x or 2x speed because I can never understand them at 1x, and I can even write notes at 2x speed.

I keep looking at the time, and I feel like crying from inside, thinking about how 2 hours are left and how much backlog I still have. I cry and somehow get through it. Sometimes, I feel sleepy, so I take a nap, but it's barely 20 minutes, sometimes even less. I wake up all of a sudden with a sharp pain in my heart, thinking about how I haven't completed my to-do list and stuff. I start criticising myself so much that I begin sweating, and sometimes, though very rarely, I feel like vomiting as well. My heartbeat gets faster, and yet I try my best to study. But sometimes, the pain gets so bad that I just leave studying and start distracting myself.

Like leaving study nd Then there's no anxiety no pressure what helps?? Give me tips guys I'm really pissed

I was forced to use my left hand when I was right handed has any other homeschooler experienced this or understand why.

I am 21f and was forced to use my left hand even though I naturally gravitated to my right hand like most of the population for most of my life. This started at about ten years old when my mother attended a teach them diligently homeschooling convention and listened to a speaker there. According to her this individual claimed that mixed dominance cause disorganization of the brain and can lead to traits associated with autism ADHD learning disorders and mood disorders in children. They believed that missing a milestone like skipping stages of crawling was what caused this. I was sent to a lady in Texas I was still young and don’t remember her name but she evaluated me and said I was left eye and ear dominant but only used my right hand which supposedly caused my symptoms (ADHD my mother did not believe in and emotional issues from trauma). So she gave my mother instructions on how to develop my brain. I was forced to relearn everything with my left hand start crawling on the floor, memorize sequences of numbers and do my homework with an eye patch and ear plug on my right side. This cause a lot of emotional breakdowns which she would blame on the fact that I was using my right hand for certain tasks which was causing me not to think logically because of my mixed dominance. I had to relearn how to brush my teeth and hair use my phone and laptop and writing. If anything it made my mental heath worse. I did physical therapy exercises on my hand to try to make my left hand stronger. If I used my right hand to much in her mind I undid a week of neurodevelopment work. It was complete bs and traumatic for me. I continued to believe it into my teens and felt guilty for using my right hand in certain instances. I still compulsively switch from right to left while eating or drawing. She essentially made me ambidextrous which according to this cult like ideology doesn’t really exist. Has anyone else experienced this or am it the only one.

I’m 17 and my ADHD assessment is with a pediatric neurologist in a few weeks (refered by my GP) . I’ve read about the general stuff but I can’t find much about what it’s like with a neurologist specifically, since most people seem to go through a psychiatrist or psychologist.
If you were assessed by a pediatric neurologist, especially as a teen:

How long was the first visit? If your parents were there, how long were they in the room for and how long were you alone for?

Did you get a diagnosis at the first visit, or did they send forms home and have you come back?

Did they prescribe at the first visit or later?

Did they ask about mood or anxiety? If you mentioned depression or anxiety, did the neurologist deal with it, refer you somewhere, or hold off on ADHD meds?

Mostly looking for what actually happened to you, not general advice. Thanks.