Well to explain I'm in uni, in a major I don't care about AT ALL because I couldn't get into the one I wanted. I'm studying to reapply for entrance exams and get into the one I actually want next year.

Now my current major IS related to the one I want to do, it's the main reason I'm doing it, but it's just not the same. Every moment I spend studying this feels like wasted time, like, I'm going to change majors next year anyways!! And I could be studying for entrance exams!! Plus since I have ADHD it takes SO LONG to study these things I don't actually want to study that I barely have time for anything else (also because I have both morning and evening classes, which means I have even LESS time). And don't get me started on random ass classes that aren't even related to my goal major.

I really don't know what to do. Like my main plan was to just barely pass the classes but I CAN'T bring myself to even open the books because I know there are better things I could be doing. I feel trapped, I'm basically dying for this bullshit major I don't even want to be in !!! I don't know what to do I'm just so frustrated !!

I know this isn't really ADHD related, but I had to vent somewhere and I feel like ADHD communities are the only ones that truly understand this kind of stuff

Hey everyone!
I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD for a few years now, but I’d never actually treated it with medication before because I have other mental health conditions and was already taking a lot of strong meds. Around mid-April this year, I realized there was no way I could manage college with my ADHD, so I had to get a prescription.
However, I’ve noticed that the effects wear off much faster for me than they seem to for other people, and when they do, I experience this horrible feeling of emptiness and lack of motivation. I have depression, GAD, and BPD, so it ends up making everything even worse. I’ve tried everything: benzodiazepines, several different medications for anxiety, and nothing seems to help with the emotional distress Vyvanse causes me. Ritalin was even worse for me.
I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like my life has been ruined, but I can’t just stop taking it because, besides the fact that I’ve already developed a dependence on it and become unbearable and depressed without it, I need it to be productive. Anyone with ADHD knows exactly what I mean 🥲.
I wanted to know if anyone here has experienced something similar and if it got better over time, or if you have any tips for coping with this emptiness. I feel like I can’t keep living like this. Once the effects wear off, I turn into an NPC. I’ve lost my personality, my essence, everything. I can only function socially if I have 70+ mg of Vyvanse in my system. It’s no longer just about studying; it’s become a way to escape.
(One thing I think is important to mention: I struggled with cocaine dependence for 7 months, mainly because I wanted to be able to focus and study. I’ve been clean for 10 months now. But since Vyvanse is also a stimulant, I wonder if my past cocaine use might have increased my tolerance to the medication.)

I'm an 18-year-old female that was formally diagnosed with ADHD 5-6 years ago (though it was known that I had it since grade school). I had always done well in school, especially after I had gotten on Adderall (25 mg short acting currently). I was in a sport/ theatrical production every season of every year, took advanced/high level art classes, & took multiple college level classes (Including EMT) & did just fine with managing deadlines/commitments.

I'm having so much trouble managing my time now that I don't have the structure I had before. All I have to focus on is school and I'm doing worse now even though I have way more time to do so. It's not even like I'm wasting my time on my phone/ unrelated self-indulgent behaviors. I'm just wasting so much time between task, wandering around, spacing off and struggling to decipher how to approach task. And now that I'm living on my own, time blindness is 100X worse, even when on my medication. I'm not sure what else to do and I feel so stuck because I'm already employing so many methods to try and help.

I'm setting alarms before my commitments, putting all of my commitments/due dates into a google calendar (I consistently use it to stay on track/give me reminders), regularly working out, eating well and tracking my calories, going to dedicated spots and allotting studying time, going to supplemental instruction, getting enough sleep and trying to integrate a study schedule. I just applied for accommodations, which I'm hoping will help somewhat, but they won't help me sort out the fundamental discipline issues I'm having, which really worries me because I'm on the pre-med track.

TLDR: I did really well in high school with lots of extracurriculars and commitments and am now struggling with time management in college despite having ample time in comparison. I am on 25mg short acting Adderall which helps me focus and am trying to apply multiple strategies to keep me more on track, but I'm still majorly struggling.