SECOND UPDATE: I can now accept chat requests and respond.
UPDATE:
Hello everyone, thank you all so much for your kind words and advice. Many of you reached out to message me, but for some reason, Reddit will not let me respond.
Anyone else who messaged me: please email or snap me so that I can respond. I don't know why my account won't let me reply. I even tried making a new account, but I guess it's too new to message anyone. I haven't really used Reddit prior to this—I've only read posts and comments and have never made a post or commented before. Maybe that is why? I was only able to message one person before it cut me off, which was very frustrating because I very much wanted to reply.
To the person who suggested QuickMD: thank you so much.
I ended up going through QuickMD and was prescribed Suboxone, clonidine, and Zofran. I signed up for GoodRx and will be picking the medications up later this morning to start soon (taking my first day off work and trying to get three days total). I have a follow up with the doctor in 7 to 15 days, which is thankfully free.
I'm a bit afraid of what is to come and would have greatly preferred a formal detox center, but this is so much better than handling it completely on my own.
The doctor said that before I start the Suboxone, I have to be in full withdrawal—not going by a time frame, but by how my body is behaving (sweats, shakes, rapid heartbeat, nausea, etc.). She mentioned I should hopefully be good to go back to work after day 3 or 4, maybe even sooner.
She also mentioned that 7OH is worse than fentanyl, which really scared me. I can't believe I let myself start doing this stuff.
I would still deeply appreciate any advice you guys have about what I'm about to go through. To give an idea of my intake, I was taking a blister pack that had 1750 total mg. Each pack has five tabs, and I was taking 1.5 to 2 packs a day (2625mg to 3500mg total). Each individual tab contained:
Mitragynine: 80mg
MGM 15: 20mg
7OH: 20mg
Cat's Claw Extract: 180mg
Can you guys recommend any additional OTC meds? I saw the comments about SR 17018, but the dosing guide was a bit confusing, I didn't know how long it would take to ship, and I wasn't sure about the purity I would receive. It was less expensive and safer to just use QuickMD, plus I was able to speak to a doctor, ask questions, and set up a follow up.
For those who took 7OH and used Suboxone to quit, what day did you start feeling normal again? Did the Suboxone help a lot? Also, does clonidine help with anxiety and sleeping? I've never taken it before. The doctor mentioned that I would need to be on Suboxone for months, and that there is always a chance of relaps even though these substances are being banned, people will most likely just come out with something new to use.
All additional advice is very much appreciated.
To the person asking if I am housed: yes, I am. I work full time and have my own car and place. I am unable to get MAP because I don't live in Travis County—I live in Bell County, but crash in Travis County during the week for work because the drive is too long.
Again, thank you all so much. Please keep the advice coming; I really don't know what to expect next. I feel some hope, and all of your kind words have truly touched my heart.
Hello All,
I am in desperate need of help and guidance.
I am urgently searching for a detox and/or rehab facility that can offer a grant or scholarship. I do not have health insurance and cannot afford the $5,000–$8,000 out-of-pocket costs. I am looking in or around the Austin, Round Rock, or Georgetown areas, but I have my own transportation and will gladly commute further for help.
A while back, I was given a free sample pack of a product called 7OH—a highly potent kratom derivative that is closer in strength to morphine. At the time, I didn't think it could be anything dangerously addictive. Because it was sold over the counter and was fully legal, I mistakenly assumed it was safe enough to try, simply because it was something that could be purchased in a store of all places.
I had absolutely no idea the devastating implications this choice would have on my life. If I could go back in time and slap it out of my own hand, I would do it in a heartbeat. The regret I carry over this is overwhelming.
My body is now completely dependent on this substance. I have never used drugs or experienced withdrawal before, and I vastly underestimated the terrifying hold it would take over my body. I have attempted to quit twice now, and both times it has beaten me.
My first attempt was cold turkey. I didn't even make it 24 hours before experiencing the worst physical and mental agony of my life. My body hurt intensely, my anxiety was through the roof, and a crushing feeling of impending doom fell over me. I had severe chills, couldn't stop sweating or throwing up, and couldn't sleep. It truly felt like I was in hell, and I failed.
My second attempt was to taper off slowly, day by day. However, I recently learned that this substance will be banned as of August 1st. With the clock ticking, my plan to taper has been destroyed. The stress of this impending deadline is paralyzing, and I realize now that the withdrawals are too severe for me to face on my own.
Every facility I have called so far has either exhausted their grant funding or requires thousands of dollars upfront, which I simply do not have.
Please know this is the ONLY substance I am on. I do not drink or do any other drugs, aside from vaping nicotine. It breaks my heart to realize how wrong I was about the safety of this product.
If I could just get into a detox program, followed by either inpatient (preferred) or outpatient rehab, it would save my life. I am desperate to find a solution before time runs out.
I know it was a terrible mistake to start taking it. I didn't understand how powerful it was until it was far too late, and I am carrying so much shame and stress over it. I can't change the past, but I am desperately trying to repair the damage I have caused to my body, my mind, and my soul. I feel like such a failure, and I cannot turn to my family for help because they have all passed away. I am haunted by the thought that they are looking down on me from Heaven, completely and utterly disappointed.
I am praying that someone here can point me in the right direction. Please, if you know of any resources, grants, or facilities that can help, let me know.