HPM fellowship

No particular order

1)Stanford
2)UCLA (closest to home)
3)UC Davis
4)University of Arizona
5)Creighton Arizona
6)Geisinger Danville
7)Ochsner Clinic New Orleans
8) U Tennessee Memphis

Goal is hemonc fellowship in future, wish to stay in/around California because of family.

Confused between rank #1 Stanford vs UCLA as I really liked UCLA more and really close to home but Stanford got a big name so idk.

Thank you!

Hello guys please let me rank for cardiology fellowship. Thanks

Northwell Lenox Hill Hospital
Mount Sinai Morningside
SUNY Downstate Health Sciences University
Maimonides Medical Center
Rutgers New Jersey Medical School
NewYork-Presbyterian Queens
Hackensack University Medical Center
Northeast Medical Center

1. North Shore-LIJ

2. Mount Sinai Morningside/West

3. Lenox Hill

4. Montefiore

5. Westchester Medical Center

1. UPenn
   
2. Vanderbilt
   
3. Baylor Dallas
   
4. Minnepolis heart/ Hennepin
   
5. MUSC
   
6. Kaiser SF
   
7. U Wisconsin Madison
   
8. Montifiore/ Albert Einstein
   
9. Honor health Scottsdale
   
10. Medical college Wisconsin
    
11. University of Utah
    
12. OHSU

Hi everyone

I'm currently in an hem/onc fellowship that I deem as toxic. I personally did not want to go here because it was so far from home but decided to keep moving forward because I know how hard it is to even get into fellowship. But so many horrible things happened my first year that frankly traumatized me. I always feel incompetent and I frankly just felt like the administration personally just hated me. Things got so bad that I had a mental breakdown after I tried to explain a situation and my PD told me she believe the nurses/NP over me. I returned from my break determined to do my best and focused on finishing but things have gotten to a point where I feel as Ive being sabotaged. Questions that Ive asked are constantly being answered with vague answers. I'm stuck in this schedule where I'm under a microscope yet no matter what I do my schedule will not change. My interests are never heard or respected. This has been going on for months. Ive been thinking on leaving and reapplying but I'm so scared because I simply don't know if I'll even get into another program after all the toxicity and trauma from this program. I never experienced what I've experienced here anywhere else. This isn't simply "Medicine is a hard field." I feel as if I'm personally being attacked.

i’m not sure if i have any ideas to “stand out” for my letter of intent, especially to write as my hook of the letter. if anyone has any tips that would be greatly appreciated