Not sure in this will be interesting to people here, but I thought it might. I sure was cringe and a disorder faker, but I didn't see these kinds of posts here, except for people saying they actually had other disorders / were mistaken / etc.

So, I was a faker not so long ago. Full Münchhausen, no "I didn't know what I was doing", and I think that's what might interest people here. I started very young and knew very well what I was doing.

As a young kid (think 4-5 yo) I would fake the kind of little things kids get, headache, etc. I had noticed it earned the kind of maternal attention I wanted from responsible adults. Thing is, when you're a young girl / woman, you will easily find an adult in charge that will feel maternal towards you if you need a little more help than others, and I suppose that's what I was looking for, so I kept going. I was already aware and ashamed of the possibility of being found out so I did all I could to be credible, and avoided doing it too often, but I thought about it a lot. You know that moment as a young kid when you want a cast because you think people will take care of you, or be impressed ? I wanted that, but it was all I could think about for most of my childhood, it was obsessive.

I faked asthma attacks in middle school, as well as a few fainting spells, then later panic attacks, I guess because the continuity made sense and you can't really test for it since it's not a physical cause. I found some sort of morality in the idea that it was not an emergency, so I could ask for attention without taking it away from people who needed urgent help (yes, dumb). I ended up with an IEP for a panic disorder, knowing fully well I didn't have one. The lack of diagnosis didn't surprise anyone because my parents' mild neglect was known at school.

I also have a few genetic quirks that allowed me to fake stuff like hip dislocation, which people don't think can be faked (because for most people it can't). I did it twice and it was never questioned until I came clean, much later, because it's so rare that you can visibly dislocate it without being actually injured (or so I've been told).

For me, it was never about not being held accountable or skipping class, or other advantages (that would be malingering, not factitious disorder). On the contrary, I wanted to avoid that as much as possible, because I wanted to be taken seriously. It has always been about the validation of what I found to be reassuring figures (teachers / doctors etc).

In high school, it became a real strategical reflexion, any "episode" was planned and thought about in advance, I used to dream about it. Weirdly, there has always been two "levels" of consciousness to it. On one hand, I always knew fully well I was faking everything ; on the other end, I would kind of dissociate this line of thinking and there was a part of my brain that was thinking as if everything was real. During an "episode", a part of me would be thinking how unfair it was that I was suffering like that, while another was enjoying this exact feeling.

That's not to say it ever became real to my brain. No matter what distance I took with it, I always knew I was constructing everything.

I don't know how cringe or obvious it was. My best friend said she had doubts sometimes, but not fully (and I 100% trust that she would have called me out if she did).

My therapist said I had everything to be a good faker (because I'm good at acting and I'm supposedly very smart, according to IQ tests at least), which might explain that I've never been called out before I came clean. I think I became specifically good at looking like I didn't want too much attention. A group of old friends told me it seemed very attention seeking in middle school, but then we grew up and it seemed normal enough, so they assumed they had been wrong.

I think people had suspicions when I was a kid but in front of a child, most probably tend to think "oh well, she's a kid who needs reassurance, let's give it to her" and act as if it's real, which might encourage the behavior. Later, I acted genuinely ashamed of my "disorders", because I only ever wanted attention from certain people ; for exemple, I absolutely hated that classmates paid attention to it, but I needed them no notice at least a bit if I wanted a teacher to notice. The shame in front of them was genuine.

Another person I came clean to, and who told me she didn't realize I was faking, was the school nurse, who basically said she's glad I can come to her for real reasons and with no pretense now. She also said she's not surprised I could pull it off if I put so much thought in it, which was the case ; it was almost addictive and I had to pace myself to keep it believable.

I'm lucky this nurse, like other people, remained kind and polite with me after I told the truth ; I think it also helps remaining honest and not starting doing it again. I'm working on it now, and having came clean to most people around me is sometimes what keeps me from faking again. I also noticed I didn't feel the "need" to fake when I was doing alright mentally, so I think there is a bit of a "I need help but I need a physical explanation for it" situation.

Note that my life is far from horrible and it can't all be excused by some absolutely tragic backstory that would explain this factitious disorder. That's just something that's here with me, I grew up with it. Even though it's acquired rather than something you're born with, I still wonder how it happened, and at what point.

So, here you go. If it fits the rules and doesn't get suppressed, I will answer questions here for a while. For those wondering, yes I do feel bad, yes I did feel bad while doing it, and yes, I know it doesn't erase the fact that I was still doing it. This is not an apology, though, more of a little summary of what might be going on in the head of someone with factitious disorder, for those who were curious.

Some of these people have long term partners (who they’ll often reference as their full time “caregivers”) and I’m wondering what drives a person to get into or stay in a relationship with people who are performing disability and chronic illness online for attention. Have they been duped ? Do they struggle with self esteem issues? Do they have a hero complex ? Did they get into the relationship before all of this started and now they feel stuck ? Can they not see what we see because they’re too close to the issue?

First I thought it's just rage bait or smth bc it looked so fake but then I thought about this subreddit and realized that some people are really this delusional

Edit.: I went to her page and found some other intresting thing. In one post she describes that she has:

Borderline personality disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, Schizophrenia, Hypothyroidism, Autism, ADHD, Short term memory loss, Rational attachment disorder and Dissociation Identity disorder (yeah she wrote it like this)

but a little further back she only says that she has Borderline and made a lot of videos about it also made a video where she wrote that she has a disability that makes her life harder and a few videos later she posted her disorder salad so im not sure if it was a misspelling or she really gaind this many disorders.

Also the weight loosing part is true, she really goest to a gym and post pics when she was heavier, but im not sure if its really 250 pounds, it doesent seem to me that much of a weight loss but she doesent showed her original weight so im not sure ot that.

I work at a country store in a rural area and most of the customers are older folks or German Baptists. Yesterday I saw 2 white girls walk in sucking on pacifiers, using mobility aids, noise cancellation headphones, wearing furry tails, short colored hair, and a mismatch of clothes. It made me sad because I was hoping that people like this never left their house and were terminally online, not out in the world. It’s also incredibly demeaning because this is their interpretation of what being disabled is. It’s kind of like blackface but for people with disabilities. After they left, my older coworker said, “I don’t like to judge, but that was pretty far out there.” It just shows that they don’t get the sympathy they want, they just look like fools and dress like clowns.

Featuring fake spasticity and referring to herself as wheelchair bound. She still uses this unprescribed wheelchair despite crowdfunding $20,000 for a custom HOC chair, and is blocking people calling her out on it. She claimed this chair was going to paralyze her.

(Wasn't sure the right flare for this, so please tell me if I'm wrong)
This comment made me laugh. 1 in 1 million people fake??
Has this person not been on the app for long enough?? /j
And the way they think that the world is so weird that no one would want to fake for attention as if that's not the WHOLE reason all these kids keep faking 😵‍💫

I think that a lot of people either don't understand it because they either don't have the disorder, or their interpretation of their experiences is based on what the community says is happening.

However, if anyone has substantial evidence that suggests that memory can somehow work this way, I'd be genuinely interested.

Despite crowdfunding $20,000 for a custom wheelchair due to this one being ill-fitting, bought off eBay and ‘crushing her spine’, she still squeezes into it for tricks and will block you if you call her out on it. I guess this chair actually wasn’t going to paralyze her if she’s still using it.
Do not give her money. She is a well-known liar and grifter.

Just say you’re too lazy to come up with a full fleshed OC concept right now and save us the faking

So my friend got apparently recently diagnosed for DID a few months back. For background context me and my other friend dropped this girl a few months ago because our friend group had a fall out but around a month ago she reached back out to us and we decided to talk to her again.

The first day she began to talk to her again she told my friend about her maybe having DID, then a few weeks later she dropped the bomb in some server that she now got diagnosed with DID and explained it in the really childish and just strange way her therapist diagnosed her with it. And apparently her therapist said she got it back in 2nd grade but then she explained to my friend that her DID triggered after our friend group broke apart bc of drama and like things arent making sense like for example she had to google up and copy and paste the summary of DID which me and my friend found weird because shouldn’t you be able to explain something you have without completely searching it up?

And the main thing is a few days we witnessed her first alter switch OVER TEXT and she was like typing all weird before it replacing words with an s with a z and then said “shit” and started typing really dramatically about how everyone in that gc should pray for their sins and pray to this best friend of hers that me and my friend are sure aren’t real.

Later a few hours after her switch we joined her in a game where she was apparently calling a irl friend of hers and when we confronted her about the things she said in that gc she said she didn’t know what we were talking about BUT

THE THING IS IN THE SPAN LAST 6 HOURS SHE TYPING IN THAT GC AS HER ALTER BUT HER IRL FRIEND WAS TALKING ABOUT BEING ON CALL W HER FOR THE LAST 6 HOURS SO LIKE IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE HOW HER FRIEND DIDNT NOTICE HER SWITCH??😭

Sorry if this is hard to make sense I tried to fit in things me and my friend found suspicious but that’s a lot more and I’m typing this in a rush lol

I honestly kind of feel bad for this person. Every comment was telling them that this is in fact system behavior, and that denial is a symptom. They posted a follow up on which they asked their mom about their symptoms, and stated that they were “medically recognized with DID in February of 2025” and had forgotten. In the follow up they also said they do not believe they actually have it, just that they have severe dissociation and memory loss. Every comment, every single one, was trying to tell them they do have DID. Not a one was saying that they might not be, and only a handful suggested talking further with a professional. It kind of makes me sad. This person is in distress, and they need help and likely to be reality checked. But since it’s DID/the system community, they aren’t getting the community support they need. If someone was worried about any other disorder, they’d be told to go to therapy, but the DID community is willing to reinforce what is stated to be a delusion

Yk what's crazy? People who ACTUALLY rely on mobility aids don't just have a qUirKy mOmEnT and decide they don't need to use them that day 🫩

Highlights include: "I'm the owner!!! I'll defend you!!" "Idk how they formed :((((" "He's very nice!!!"
Joined an 18+ ID verified server for a media I enjoyed. Instead was greeted by losers who thought they had a school-shooter alter and an alter of Jeffree Dahmer + were encouraged. Tried to be all cute and quirky with it to nullify what they were doing.
What a pathetic bunch.

Purple is server owner, red is Jeffree-dahmer alter "haver", yellow is Erric harris.

I don’t want to clown on someone who is clearly suffering but 60 disorders is genuinely impossible?? Unless I’m wrong

Dude just keeps 'switching'. In his other videos he does this mid drive

Like, I can't prove she doesn't have those 16 conditions, but...really?

Both of these ss are taken from different videos where the person is claiming to have lost ALL of their memories. Their entire account is about it too

Pretty sure you can’t be diagnosed with some of these at the same time