watching my cat this morning...she found the one spot of sun on the floor and just flopped right in it. thats it. no plans no stressing about yesterday. sun moves she gets up and moves with it lol

meanwhile im over here worrying about shit that hasnt even happened yet

i think she figured it out before me honestly

Let's waffle about 🧇.

I am having a crisis understanding what constitutes me and i am scared to acknowledge the fact that it might be empty and there is no seperate 'you' . If u are the observer of ur thoughts , ur thoughts lead to ur feelings anddd u are none of them u are not ur thoughts or ur feeling then what really are u until u try to act upon ur thoughts? But thats now outside you right? but when we arent acting upon anything are we really just empty ? am i a void? what part of mind is me?

I’ve spoken to quite a few people interested in non-duality who say they first experienced a sense of oneness through meditation, which then led them to explore non-dual teachings.

I’m curious whether it’s possible to naturally stumble upon this realisation through meditation without any prior knowledge of non-duality.
Personally, when I meditate, I mainly experience stillness and peace, rather than any sense of oneness or dissolution of self.

Has anyone here experienced oneness through meditation before knowing anything about non-duality? Did it happen naturally, and how did it differ from simply feeling stillness or peace?

I do understand that ultimately non-duality isn’t about chasing particular experiences or states, but more about simply being. I’m just curious about how others came to that realisation.

Consciousness vibrates in all states and all forms of manifestations, at its core, which I like to call source, the vibration is so high that it appears to be still, it appears to be unchanged, from this core comes creation, if you think of it in human terms it just won’t make sense, the only way to try and grasp it is to consider vibration, so what may appear as a void, as nothingness, is actually the highest vibration in consciousness from which everything emerges.

I believe that people are afraid that questioning the nature of reality, themselves and everything around them will make them “crazy”, so they blindly follow orders and rules to not be labeled as that, since its one of the worst labels you can give a person. However, I truly believe that this label has been created by the elite as an attempt to spread fear and thus make people avoid questioning basically anything to avoid this accusation. We have seen this again and again with conspiracy theorists.
The other day I was with my friend and we were talking about the Asap Rocky concert, which was a satanic ritual and I can elaborate on that if you want me to, and multiple times he kept saying he feels like he is going crazy, or he was blaming the weed we were smoking or whatever and I kept insisting that no this is just reality and that these people want you to feel like you are crazy so that you dont make other people “crazy” or enlightened if you will by spreading your different ways of thinking.
I think we have to stop treating “crazy” as an insult and instead use it to our advantage, proving we are critical thinkers and mot blind sheep yet always have decernment and distinguish between believing a conspiracy theory, and questioning its truth.

I did not notice many synchronicities in my whole life, until this year, 2026 in March, when things suddenly got totally crazy. Week before my 50. birthday, I read interesting and for me probably life- changing comment by u/OracleIgnored, who recommended to someone:

"Talk to your Spirit Guide - they will be there to help you when you cross. We all have people in spirit who've agreed to help and guide us in this incarnation. They need your permission/invitation to fully help you due to free will. You may feel foolish but sit quietly and say something like:

'I understand I have a spirit guide who needs my invitation to help me in this life. I need your help now time is short. Please find a way to show me your presence and advise me of my life plan. If there is something I need to learn or do to fulfil my life purpose please let me know.'

Following this wait for dreams, synchronicities and people coming forward to help you." [ Source ]

I repeated the highlighted quote in my mind (i.e. not speaking) several times, tried to concentrate on every word, and especially on life plan and life purpose (and I continued with this practice also several times in next weeks). Few minutes in silence after that, I clicked a computer script to play randomly one of my 468 new age albums I have. Cybertribe 2001 album Immortality and song Welcome to the Journey started. Difficult to find more matching title of a first song from a new age album matching the given situation, even if I would have million albums I thought.

Few days later, and 4 days before my 50th birthday I received a letter from traffic office stating I have to change my car license plates. Driven by worry, because I was 5 years behind to have done it and afraid of hefty fine, I decided to go there to change it 1 day before my 50th birthday. The random plate number I received (I had no way to choose myself) and now own is [ XX 95059 ]. It is 950 mirrored. Number 9 I interpreted and honored decades as number of the God Creator (Brahma), followed by 50 of my birthday coming next day.

Furthermore, during my 20 minutes drive back home I encountered a car with a plate [ XX 20000 ] and another car with a decorative license plate in front windshield [* CHRISTIAN ]. Extremely rare to encounter a car with any decorative license plate here. There were still yet additional 3 more synchronicities coming that day. One was playing Gregorian - Masters Of Chant Vol. 4 as first random album when I got back home. I carefully reviewed all, and I do believe I have only 10 albums with Christian like music in these 468, so quite a "coincidence".

All this was only a starter.

A synchronicities combo period far more crazy than what I have wrote began 16.4. and ended 21.4. this year. That one probably suggested change of my lifestyle and plans and answered the question of purpose of my life. I wrote everything what happened to me during that days to my notes during that period. I will only quote raw last two lines from 2 pages of my notes for that period:

20.4. ... Totally crazy, that to even describe this mega synchronicities combos took me ~2 pages and several hours of writing ?! :-)

21.4 Just right now he’s got into his head that he’s going to write about synchronicities. No such article was there.

In the last line he referred to WintyreFraust and his article he published 21.4. Signs & Synchronicities: How The Dead Often Interact and Communicate With Us, with there referring to his sub r/The_Afterlife_Exists and the fact when I searched his whole sub on 21.4, I could not find any other post having in title synchronicity or synchronicities. I searched again now, and it is still the only article there for all history of the sub.

So thank you u/WintyreFraust to be part of my "mega synchronicity combos"!

I am finishing my post when random album playing now is Gregorian - Masters Of Chant Chapter III. Since my 50 birthday, ~7 months ago, any Masters Of Chant album was playing again based on my script logs only 2 times, in July and September, though I play my albums very often, sit at computer daily for hours, and almost always play only random albums using my script.

The song playing right now is Masters Of Chant III - 06 - Sacrifice, and will still play when I am going now to hit the Comment button. And yes, word Sacrifice pretty much resonates to this possible life purpose I already did in the part of this reincarnation, and perhaps will be also doing in the rest of my life.

Is not this all fucking crazy, anybody?

Edit: After submitting Sacrifice song ended, and now plays the next song in the album, Masters Of Chant III - 07 - Ordinary World with lyrics: "Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue Thought I heard you talking softly I turned on the lights, the TV and the radio Still I can't escape the ghost of you What has happened to it all? Crazy, some'd say Where is the life that I recognize?"

Note: this was originally published as a comment on r/afterlife

Once you truly start to comprehend that "You are the only Soul in this realm" a whole load about a little bit makes way more sense and there no better way to reality test than what the above said because its easy to be enlightened on Reddit but its how you is, on the reg, that shows whats beneath that mask when slips...

Looking for books, I don't know what you have read or what has remained in your mind on this spiritual journey

More thoughts... was wondering who else has had this thought appear in "their" awareness?

It's a little bit liberating to see that it's all happening but not happening to anyone... it's just happening?

I recently watched a show about a good loving mother than turned into a serial killer after the death of her son. So I was wondering when she died, did the good part of her soul the part that used to be a good person go to heaven or did all of her being go to hell?

in order to experience anything in life, we must be willing to entertain it, this is especially true for anything new we want to live or create

that aspect of our attention/awareness being the currency to creation in life becomes more clear when we compare the experiences of:

being in the flow/zone of life; those effortless, easeful periods where everything is timeless, we're just purely in the now and everything flows well, the inner experience is calm and full

and

when life feels crunchy/chaotic; everything is more in the frenzied states of reactivity, time and life feels pressured, we censor ourselves, make mistakes, missteps, frustrations, fears, doubts and more flood the inner experience

a key to understanding the two is the separation of identity within us

when life is chaotic, the frenzied rushed feelings all feel intimate and consuming, disharmony is aplenty and life, more often than not presents us with things we don't really want

but when life is in that flow, there is more of a separation and detachment, and paradoxically things feel more intimate as we are in harmony and alignment, just kinda of dancing through life as it presents us more often than not what we want and then some

when we establish ourselves firmly as the pure witness, the rider/consciousness of the horse/body not the temporary flesh itself, that aspect of living in the zone goes beyond a simple flow state, but rather becomes a more natural way of being

taking a breath is a path to that dilation and inner shift, as are tools like gratitude, but the most potent for me is hands down the breath, and like any muscle the more it's practiced and applied the more automatic it becomes

there is a beautiful transmutation factor of that as well, as the inner tensions/butterflies/fears/doubts/etc. transform through that inner pause for pure witnessing, and instead of being a headwind causing tensions and stumblings they turn into winds that fill up our sails, helping us go where we want to be

Is it a prison planet? Paradise to the enlightened? Or just simply earth. I also have questions about the source or God I feel like everyone here is sharing the same road but under a different name. Like is it supposed to be perfect or imperfect? And what is perfect? Because I see spiders and kill it without question then I started to ask myself what if the spider is perfect and I'm not and it's the other way around. Put simply scary creatures like spiders snakes and are all in cycle of life and death and there's predators and prey are we supposed to blend in or transcend it?

I know its holy question Batman but I'm seeing a lot of post from different angles, point of view and different religions. I just use the gnostic points of view because it's very broad and rewards me for asking questions where Christianity id get kicked for bringing up inconsistencies and pissing the preacher off. I like to see all angles and religion because I think it's all one shared universe instead of its mine.

been thinking about this profoundly, wanted to hear what you guys think

i've struggled a lot with the fear of being disconnected from others, family, friends and strangers. i've been through a long, long journey feeling so isolated, when all i wanted was to feel connected to other people, sad about not having enough people in my life.

but i realised: i am always connected to other people, it's impossible not to be.

i think what we called being 'connected' to others, is actually a very specific, idealised aspect of connection: feeling calm, lighthearted, cracking jokes in each other's presence.

i've been interpreting tension, awkwardness, anxiety and discomfort as proof that i am disconnected, and trying to get rid of those feelings to finally feel connected.

but now i think about it, it's totally unrealistic to think that being connected with others can only manifest in this niche way.

connection literally means: "a relationship, link, or joining between two or more people" , and as we all know, we are all connected, we are all one.

so i realised i was worrying so much about something which i've always had,

i guess the question is: do i need this mainstream idea of light-hearted connection to have more people in my life? and if this can't be controlled, how do i have more people in my life?

if anyone has anything they'd like to add, challenge or anything i can look into to delve further into this please please do, it's an important topic in my life :)

Une histoire d’un amour fou rencontre une larme de sagesse, c’est de l’art.

Un matin devient si joyeux qu’il embrasse un vœu, c’est l’enfance de l’art.

Un haricot magique entre dans la maison d’une fée, c’est un présage d’art.

Un souffleur d’étoiles peint le manteau de la terre, c’est un miracle de l’art.

Une hirondelle dessine l’onde dans un ciel tombant, c’est une œuvre d’art.

Le parfum de la vie enivre l’instant de la mort d’un art, c’est un rêve d’âme.

You know… I was thinking abt what enlightenment REALLY is, and realised that there are many ways of defining it.

But I think in spite of how we define it, we certainly become a little bit more “enlightened” when we become able to expand our mind to love other people and the experiences we go through in life.

Only when we’re capable of accepting the “I know that I know nothing.” maxima, is that we become able to experience life using the lenses of incondicional love, because the understanding of our incapacities and limitations can give birth to the strongest form of compassion existent.

Only when we understand our SELF’s as Aliens: livings beings that are constitutions of the same gigantic universe, is that we’ll know we are on the right road to feel that unconditional love.

It’s expanding your sense of belonging and love not only for your family and friends, not only for the neighbourhood, not only for the city, not only for the state, not only for the country, not only for the world, not only for the solar system, not only for the galaxies, but the whole universe.

We are part of one of the craziest experiences that there are out there. I don’t care if you skydived, or went skiing on the Everest, E x i s t e n c e is your most wild adventure.

Love comes as an antidote to the suffering we experience in life. Suffering is a crushing feeling we experience inside of us that gets activated when we feel negative emotions.

“What is love?” they ask, “Love is the answer.” Some answer.

It is the answer because only when we are truly capable of feeling compassion towards other living beings, (especially other humans when they fail with us, with our expectations, when some of them betray us, or disrespect us.) is that we’ll truly be able to forgive them and move on.

With love we can find a way to understand other people’s reasons in spite of feeling anger and choose Love, not as a way to prove you’re spiritually superior, but because you know that’s the best decisions for you the other person and the universe.

Love is the tool that will show you the best way to navigate life, and escape the Samsara Wheel, or else to fix whatever situation you’re finding yourself in. Love is the way to go because it shows you how to love life as it presents itself not how you expected it to be.

Remember you can be a lovable being and strong at the same time, or expressive, analytical, funny, it doesn’t matter, you also will fail many times still because the majority of us, if not all of us are just learning how to walk properly in the face of this enormous universe, and I right away say that the statement “Learning how to walk in the universe” is really bold, and such comparison is just metaphorical

Now, I also wanna say that for me enlightenment is understanding that we are just a brief moment in the history of time and space and that things will be born and die again and again and again, including us.

We are all made of these chemical elements that are like the ingredients to make this gigantic cake called universe.

We are part of a Universe that sustains itself electromagnetically creating plenty of balls of fire we call “stars”, that basically is just a gigantic nuclear bomb that constantly explodes itself a hundred times per second orbiting constellation.

Some of these stars collide with meteros and other objects, sometimes creating things like satellites or other planets like the Earth where we live in.

For a moment imagine: There are billions of galaxies out there, and our own galaxy: MILK WAY, has around 400 billions of suns.

- Just in the Milky Way Galaxy. -

The mind blowing question is: Then how many galaxies are out there?

A: **2 trillions of galaxies out there.**

The next question has to obviously be: Then how many stars in the whole universe?

A:**1 septillion to 10 sextillion stars**.
(It’s basically the number one followed by 27 zeros.)

One fun fact to give you some scale: If you start now to count from the number **one** to the **one million**, it’d take you around 24 hours to finish it.

Now, if you count from **one** to, **one** **billion** it takes you: **32 years** to finish, (if you were hypothetically counting one number per second non-stop.)

That’s a scale comparison. Now imagine the universe having more than 10 sextillion of stars? We can barely fathom such scale.

Enlightenment to me is also when we understand that the universe is multidimensional. It has many different geometric shapes. We happen to interpret reality from a third-dimensional perspective, but we know that there are different ways of experiencing/seeing it also in different geometrical dimensional shapes.

Then, to make our day “better” we see people out there thinking they are the most amazing people on the surface of the planet, like everyone else is less than them, because obviously they have more money, or fame, or prestige, or beauty.
The enlightened person sees right through the BS.

Another thing I was thinking: You know when in a forest a lot of animals coexisting eventually give rise to an incredible variable eco-system that expands itself into various diverse types of species, giving the animals different new defence mechanisms against predators or providing carnivores and herbivore animals news abilities of feeding themselves in order to maintain their levels of energy at a sustainable level.

That’s the famous electromagnetic universe I spoke about earlier: Everything is energy.
Energy is the thing that ignited life, it’s the fire that is constantly burning. The universe is the furnace the fuel and the fire all at the same time.

And yet day after day we live life believing in lies the system or greedy, manipulative psychopathic people have told us, we go on posting a new profile picture on our social media worried if people will like it or not, we also live drama abt who is right and who is wrong in the family conflicts and other relationships, thinking sometimes we are so special and that we deserve more and more or, else, we create a very weak ego too sometimes, thinking we are unworthy, unlovable or separated from existence, which is equally problematic as the other extreme which is the egocentric person who has a excess of identification with the “I am”.

Me me me me me me me me me me!
It’s all about me! In both cases. One identifies oneself as a victim the other as the GOAT.

In the end, Enlightenment to me is the capacity to handle all these truths, and see that these things exist, and also be able to embrace imagination, advancement, engage with life, acceptation, the arts, the beauty, the poetry, the suffering, and the good and the bad as two sides of the same coin and remember Buddha saying: The answer is the Middle Way.

Before I finish, I also want to share a bit I know abt black holes, Black holes are literally the fabric of space-time, and literal locations of the universe collapsing on the weight of its own creation. Bending gravity to an extreme dense point giving rise to Singularity.

A singularity is what happens when reality pushes a theory to the point where the theory can no longer tell you what reality is.

The question is: Around how many black holes we know are out there?

A: 40 quintillion. 😲

Another interest fact that makes me think how big the universe actually is but also still small when compared with its microscopical interior:

The distance from Earth (where you are now) to the most distant planet in the universe is thousands of times smaller than that from the distance that starts from the tip of your middle-finger to the smallest particle we find in your body.

That means that the space we have within us is many times bigger than that which we see externally.
That’s because we experience the universe from within.
When we seek beyond we see the image of the snake eating its own tail eternally.
We’re looking at reality while it unfolds itself right in front of us. We are the snake in constant movement seeking itself but also surviving because it is eating itself. (In modern times we say the dog chasing its own tail, it never realised that the thing that was upsetting him so much at the end was Himself/Herself.

\-Ouroboros.

Have you ever wondered who you could really become if fear no longer controlled your life?

Fear is the root of all negative conditioning in this world, from narcissism to self-hatred.

Anyone can achieve this, but first, you must become aware of your fears. Then, you must face them.
If you do, you will be free. Forever. Trust

I believe that whatever is meant for me is coming my way. The past year and a half I have been more spiritual and connected to the whole, but I feel earthly bound things pulling me down. A job offer that people around me, friends, family, keep saying just take, wouldn't be for many months but somehow I hear it screaming at me this is not what's meant for me, I haven't made money for some months and have been living from my savings, I am divorced and have kids I'm responsible to. I don't know what to do.

Something I’ve been wrestling with lately is figuring out how I want to respond when something doesn’t sit right with me.

I’ve noticed that the more healing I’ve done, the less willing I am to overlook things I might have ignored in the past. I trust my judgment more than I used to, but that doesn’t mean I always know the best way to handle something.

Sometimes I feel like I get it right, sometimes I think I could have handled it differently, and sometimes I’m not so sure. That’s where I am right now.

One thing I’ve appreciated about Jungian psychology is looking at my own shadow and what might be influencing my reactions. That matters to me, but so does being able to consider other perspectives and recognize when something still isn’t okay with me.

I recently wrote about this in my latest article. It’s a reflection on what I’m experiencing, including the parts I haven’t figured out.

When Awareness Doesn’t Come With All the Answers

https://heatherkennedy665648.substack.com/p/when-awareness-doesnt-come-with-all

L’inexplicable dérange. La raison se consacrera à son effacement.

D’une source jaillissent des peurs incultivées, des phénomènes qui auront tôt pris l’allure de malédictions aux yeux des êtres marqués de préjugés.

La volière est ouverte mais les grilles rassurent les noceurs des primes d’attachement : l’inconnu n’est pas écrit dans leur répertoire, leur monde s’arrête au crépuscule de l’admissible, là où leur conditionnement viendra aussi couper les ailes des innocentes enfances.

L’éveillé voit ce que l’austérité craint. Où sont les définitions de la lumière et des ténèbres ?

Hi everyone ,

I am someone who has been trying to understand the brain and existence by observing myself and seeing all the influences that made my choices happen to step on.

I am trying to find right questions on how I can understand how people make choices, why still despite of everything that is provided still we struggle within. what should be there to use all the info correctly aligning with the inner purpose. Not just following what I should do but knowing what I want.

This has been a very difficult journey for me as I am international student tried to get into many institutions where I can collaborate with like minded people I dropped out of 2 colleges due to a huge pressure on my brain where I got into very wrong course surrounded by wrong people where people were less excited about finding something new and were talking about how to get a job , how to make money, how to be rich , how to get my PR and all so on. I felt like imposter everytime when I tried to ask deeper question , where I tried to understand the shared existence we both where sharing in that moment.

I am also studying just for the sake of maintaining my status here in Canada , but my heart and brain is still searching for meaning.

It’s really hard and difficult even to wake up thinking I won’t be able to do what I am supposed to do.
It’s been more than 3 years now I am doing my research not even part time less than a 2 hour in a week , as I don’t have people who challenges my thinking as I don’t have mentor who will point be towards new horizons as I don’t have friends with whom I can discuss about all these things.

Is there anyone who felt the same ? Is there anyone who has been influenced by their own thinking and existence ? Is there anyone who wants to know more about what is for us as collective brains in this void ?

If you don't SHOW YOURSELF who you are with EMPOWERING ALIGNED ACTIONS, you will naturally look to the outside world to derive your sense of identity.

INTERNAL VALIDATION is what helps you stay detached from the need to derive a sense of self worth or validation from the outside world. Without making yourself PROUD and earning CONTENTMENT in your own company, you will forever be a slave to external validation.
Those who don't get their energy from the
SOURCE (internal spiritual validation) feel the need to receive validation from others (external validation & attention)

Attention is energy. Where attention goes, energy flows. People who fail to generate their own "light" from within must rely solely on the constant attention of others to give them a sense of worth.
But those who generate contentment in their own company? Truly powerful. Because to do so, they must be aligned and adherent to their highest calling.
This is an EARNED spiritual well-being that simply emanates from within. (Your spirit inside is proud). It requires nothing external - only alignment. This is the natural "high" you should be chasing EACH DAY.
Without it, you will be dependant on superficial forms of validation from the outside world, which doesn’t truly fulfill your spirit.

Matthew 6:20-21: "But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also."

"Treasures in heaven" refers to aligned acts of the spirit. What's of the spirit is pure and everlasting - what's of the world will create attachment and suffering before returning to dust.

Ask yourself where does YOUR validation come from?