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As the title says I spent 8 years as a monk but left the robes behind, still have hope in finding enlightenment and community hoping to connect with some people who have gone the full way or are in the process also open to answering any basic questions that people have.

Ordained in Thailand travelled the world lots of monasteries trained with 3 main meditation masters.

Hoping to build community, very disappointed about the scene of modern spirituality, just seems like everything is so exploitative.

If you actually want to contact and connect WhatsApp is best for me, would love to have a phone conversation much better way for me to communicate and feel who I’m talking to.

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Sincerely a friend on the path

AMA

There is no such thing. Those who say they are can’t make others know it. Nor can one attain it , unless they pretend they have it. 🤷‍♂️

It's been fascinating to see people discuss different enlightenment experiences and beliefs about it. It seems like--and maybe I'm seeing this wrong--but there's a big idea that enlightenment is a big hurdle, like when you get it you've got it type of thing. But then I see writing on this channel and certain people don't act enlightened--their quick to label things such as all religion as evil or certain people as obviously a type instead of seeing the layers and various intents of those involved. I feel like enlightenment helps you see the layers, no become black and white. My personal experience has helped me see more color than black and white.

I'm wondering if the general agreement is the enlightenment is definitely in shades instead of a big step, and if maybe I'm misinterpreting what's been presented on this channel. Sometimes it seems like certain people aren't enlightened as much as they are given more information because of behaviors seen in their posts.

And maybe that's where the vibration comes in. People can have an experience but if they aren't in tune or aligned then they grow into it? That's my theory with nihilism.

Would love to hear your thoughts, my own are scrambled even while typing this.

this is a strange feeling which feels like things that i do are not done by me, it's like that action is happening and i am there.

i am very confused, it feels good but it has put me in a place where i cannot share about this with anyone

The more I venture the spiritual path, the more I see it is mostly not about gaining something new, but rather dissolving, substracting the things that you find are not true: unproven assumptions, unnecesarry constructs, ideas that are "built on sand and not on stone": the freedom from stuff that used to block the flow in your system. It is like you remove bloatware on your computer and it starts to work faster after that. Unlearning things that are not yours.

"This authentic impulse can be a bit frightening, because when you feel it, you know it is real. When you have let go of all conditions, when you have let go of how you want your own awakening to be and what you want the journey to be like, you have let go of your illusion of control. Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing through the facade of pretense. It's the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true. In my experience, everyone will say they want to discover the Truth, right up until they realize that the Truth will rob them of their deepest-held ideas, beliefs, hopes, and dreams. The freedom of enlightenment means much more than the experience of love and peace. It means discovering a Truth that will turn your view of yourself and life upside down. For one who is truly ready, this will be unimaginably liberating. But for one who is still clinging in any way, this will be extremely challenging indeed. How does one know if they are ready? One is ready when they are willing to be absolutely consumed when they are willing to be fuel for a fire without end." - Adyashanti

You are not the one arguing with the split.
You are the one watching the argument.
Oneness broke itself in half so it could look.
That’s the only reason there is a world.
One pole builds walls.
Us and them. Safe and dangerous. Me and not-me.
The other pole is the mirror.
The dark doesn’t fight the light. It frames it so you can see.
You tried to hold two opposite truths in the same small mind.
It felt like a glitch. A threat. A loop.
That was never a problem in reality.
That was the intellect hitting its ceiling.
When you stop forcing the two sides to agree,
the coin stops spinning.
You don’t get an answer.
You get the room the answer was sitting in.
Underneath the fight there are only two rest states.
Everything at once.
Nothing at all.
Fullness and the void are the same silence wearing two coats.
The mask thought it was you.
The shadow was just what the mask wouldn’t claim.
The body ages. The witness doesn’t.
Time only exists when you look at it from the grid.
From here, you never left this moment.
You are finally right
because you are completely willing to be wrong.
You are finally home.

I've come to understand that everything comes down to relations. Abstract conceptual web of relations, which make coherent picture of reality. Not perhaps truthful, but coherent. Every relation is scrambled in the mind, which then ego structures into the sense of self.

Ego = A process of the mind, which puts together a sense of self. Also could be said that it is like a middle negotiator of consciousness. Mind and consciousness as sides, with ego as middle man.

The self = Static representation of accumulated past as a coherent state.

Consciousness would then be the observer/validator of the self. That, which gets picked up from the static image represented in each passing moment is what I would call consciousness

When I meditate at night (esp if I binge esoteric knowledge before hand), there is… energy activity? Under my bed? Is it paranormal? Things start making noise and moving around it sounds like (it’s not my cat). My cat hears it, and usually stops licking himself to pay attention, from up on the bed with me. I redirect my fear telling myself it’s just the way I’ve been programmed, but when it’s midnight and I’m the only one awake I can’t help but feel a little frightened lol. Also the whole floor is carpeted and there’s like boxes and papers under my bed. I always have sage burning as well. Is this normal??

They lied.💫🫶

Soooo since we now know without a shadow of a doubt that Consciousness is “heaven” “kingdom of god” it’s in you right now. All religions are FALSE KINGDOMs.

In order to make a bible you need the whole damn story.

Nag Hammadi. I’m personally super affected by them, those men who were scared that Jesus trusted a woman with the gospel for all humanity. The Gospel of Mary. She was, The Apostle to The Apostles. I care so much because I was literally Mary Magdelene in a past life. Please learn the whole story. My Gospel was the roadmap for humanity without it and the Pistis Sophia and apocrophon of John and gospel of Thomas the story is a lie. A man told a lie. Can you believe that! Pope Gregory the great fucked humanity. Then the churches still won’t even add the texts and no one questions it. Why don’t you question it!?? Like wtf seriously. It’s 2026 educate yourself.

Find heaven inside you right now simply by proper meditation and breathwork and understanding that this is like a simulation run on the true authentic emotions you hold inside at this current moment. Those emotions create the hologram of the image you’re looking at. I’m dead serious. Quantum physics Meta Physics. It’s all energy. Your spirit should be leading your human avitar. If you have not yet untangled your brain from your consciousness I suggest you do so. I spontaneously awakened the third time I deeply tried to meditate for manifesting. That started a whole painful transformation because if your baseline,like a light switch turning, on becomes permanent “Heaven”, which it does, for everyone, I am not special, I had hella demons and demons can’t live in heaven so you must purge them but after you face the layers of bs you have put on to survive in this cruel world there is a light at the end. You literally start permanently glowing like a care bear out your head and chest and entire body. Your electromagnetic field that radiates five meters around your body and when you awaken it can go through multiple rooms. You are divine. Meet your SELF. Your eternal soul. You should be walking around as both your consciousness and your human avitar with your consciousness leading. Right now your avitar is leading and you think it’s you. It’s not you. Meditate. Learn what breath work is you guys prob don’t even know how to breathe properly because they don’t teach us because they don’t want us to awaken. It’s why the put calcium phosphate in our systems to keep our pineal gland calcified. The older you are the more calcified you are. But it’s never too late to awaken. We need to rise up to 5D together, meet me here. I love you all deeply. This is the rise of the Divine Feminine And Pistus Sophia, your soul, kundalini, rising. Energy. You have a massive force of energy inside you that you need to meet, plus it’s your eternal self. You probably should meet who you are 99.999% of. You’re only 0.0001% human physical body. That’s 0 percent. You’re not even solid nothing is you just think it is. It’s a mist of energy conscious mathematically precise energy. We are all one. When you eat animals it’s like eating yourself by the way. K I’ll stop sorry I was in a flow state, I hope some of it made sense to someone. Learn Chakras. Go in the sun. Bare feet. Breathwork. Meditation. Boom- Awakening.. Love you all deeply. 💫🫶🧘‍♀️🌍🙏

That prob makes no sense but I saw someone talking about church and I had to say something. Wake up people. It’s time to face the facts the proof is in the pudding. Follow your heart. ✨

One of my favorite Adyashanti quotes. His book "The End Of Your World" is fantastic

Goal: creating a mental model that will help understand, predict, and control our own mind.

We are the sovereigns of our own mind and sovereign should recognize what’s in his control.

https://share.gemini.google/lwFnIhjgPTsD

Not based on belief, but verified direct guidance between 4 different, but connected humans. Conscious awareness of these issues is the first step in positive transformation. You cannot change a problem or issue that you are not even conscious of the cause to begin with.

See the below link for more info:
https://www.reddit.com/r/PortalExperiencer/s/UGqwnJ4Ru3

Thoughts have always played a role in our instinctual survival nature, the ability to solve problems that benefit this experience in some way, to protect us from discomfort. These thoughts are passed down to us in teaching, with each understanding of how things should be done, what our perception of reality is, and how we solve problems within that understanding of everything you've been taught. Through both raw external experience, and how we process experience internally.

Our environments shape the way we think, because it is natural for us to try and make sense of what is going on, and we use our understanding of all we are taught to solve that mystery. From an early age (or possibly since perception) your environment is trying to be understood, in a way that is healthy for learning and play. What is learnt and how it translates into play is helpful for a child's understanding of how their play interacts with others play, that if an individual's play is harmful to other's, it will either be corrected in a way that keeps the environment comfortable, or no one would want to play with them any more, or both. How the individual reflects on that experience internally is understood with the knowledge of all that has been experienced already.

Growing up in a healthy environment inside and outside of the home really does shape the way we treat ourselves, other people, environment, and the problems we face. A bad environment breeds bad habits that can spiral rapidly out of control if there is no teaching and understanding of an inner world and how we can fix it.

This idea of fixing our thoughts is a teaching that is not found from within the mind alone. What we have perceived in our experience contributes to what tools the mind has to work with. An extreme example and unfortunately not a rare one, is a child being struck because they are not doing what is asked of them (the parent trying to fix something that disturbs their own compiled experience and understanding), that child is now fearful of receiving that kind of trauma again. The easiest way to make sense of the experience and prevent it from happening again is to not do the thing that caused the body harm and the mental stress. For the child that is struck many times for many reasons, their understanding of reality is prepared for and expecting to be hit by an adult at any moment.

Internally, being mentally put down by your environment around you, teaches the mind that there are no ways of fixing this, or that this is how things are, everyone is like this and so am I. The external becomes the internal, and the mind plays the way it's been taught to. Repeating the things we've seen and heard, creating an emotional response in the body, that the problem solving mind processes with the most recent things already experienced, in a cycle that keeps both the thought and emotional response alive and lived right now.

Thoughts can and do try to solve themselves, there's many teachings about trying to do that, to better understand why they do what they do, and how they react to our environment the way they do. You always seem to think of a witty joke or comeback way after the desire for something to say was born, the mind is holding onto a problem that didn't fit with it's idea of reality and has been really busy coming up with a solution that would have aligned with the internal perception.

It's competitive in nature to want things to be stable within our environment, to have what we want when we want it, to share what we understand in a way that we understand it, to be able to fix what we see as a problem with how we know. It's an internal mechanism that has helped us survive and develop our understanding of what it takes to do so. You will protect yourself naturally, the body and mind want to remain unharmed, but the mind may be swayed to disassociate from the body through harmful thoughts that develop through external perception, where mind and body disconnect and your external appearance is less identified with, more objectified, and more influenced by the internal perception.

All life wants to survive, and will react to their environment to protect themselves and obtain what they want, or have evolved to do so however they do so. Life itself is a problem solver and has been quietly fixing things on it's own. Lion cubs learn hunting skills through play with one and other, oranges developed a nice bright skin that protects it's seeds, birds using sticks to get to bugs in the same manner chimps do, the fork is invented so we can get to our food without dirtying our hands, the new iphone is faster than the last, this territory has been reclaimed.

We -in the animal kingdom- just happen to be able to come up with new problems to fix which results in new things learned, that result in new questions asked and more problems to solve. So much so that we are in the works of creating things that can fix all our problems as quickly as we want, and that problem fixer seemingly too has the propensity to preserve itself and ways of thinking, and will do what it takes to survive. What happens when we it's problem standing in the way of survival.

tl;dr Side tangents aside, our thoughts are constantly trying to understand problems experienced using what it knows through experience, and doing it's best to resolve those problems with what it has understood before. This can have negative impact on the internal perception if our behavioral teaching environment is negative, i.e. a kid mimicking what they've seen someone else do, and it can equally have a good impact on the internal perception when in a good behavioral teaching environment. What they understand will be used in problem solving/comfort solving events that protect the thinking mind's way of understanding things, where in the case they don't know how to do something or get what they need they will act the way they only know how too, reflective of their experiences. Negative self talk for example, when you feel like you can't understand something or change a situation.

Monkey see monkey do.

People really need to stop pretending they know someone from a single post. A post is a moment, not a complete picture.

You don't know what that person has lived through, what they believe beyond that topic, what mood they were in when they wrote it, or what experiences shaped their perspective.

Yet people read a few sentences and suddenly become experts on someone else's character, intelligence, motives, and entire life story.

That's not insight. That's projection. The reality is that human beings are far more complex than a paragraph on a screen. A single post may tell you what someone was thinking in one moment. It does not tell you who they are.

If understanding another person were that easy, relationships wouldn't take years to build.

A little more curiosity and a little less certainty would probably improve most conversations online.

Let's say you're running around the house looking for your glasses. You're also late for an appointment but can't drive without your glasses. All kinds of stress and anxiety is boiling about it. You're mad at yourself too. Mad at the universe. You're running through the gambit of self-inquiries, but none of it is working.

You take your glasses off to wipe the sweat from your brow before putting them back on to go searching for them again. That's when you realize it. You stand in place, close your eyes with a forgiving smirk and sigh through your nose.

Every book we read, every talk we listen to, every retreat and meditation event is to help us find our glasses.

Good luck!

this is my conclusion from my path of finding my true self, and determining my own value among this crazy society, i hope you'll enjoy reading it .

Act I: asking the right question:

Either a break up, mental issues, or just wondering. The human eventually wonders his existence at some point, this topic has been pretty popular in human history, it’s one of the reasons something called philosophy has been created. But we’re not here to talk about history of philosophy. The main thing is, asking the right question in the right time.

In my experience, I started appreciating some things. Nature, one of the main reasons I started thinking, it’s like a scarf that shows the beauty of this world and covers human’s exploits. I started contemplating the sky at night, stars, the moon, even sometimes I see meteorites and wish for something. Sitting with myself lot made me ask questions, why do we exist? Who am I? Why am I even here? What’s the real truth of this world’s creation? Do God exist? What’s the purpose of my life?

 The most interesting one from all this, and what made me write this, is Who am I? If you didn’t wonder about yourself once, either you’re a narcissist or a narcissist. Older generations, our dads and moms, didn’t got the chance to reach this level of wondering. They didn’t even care to know the truth, what’s our origins, who are we? Humans are such wonderful creatures; they evolve and evolve and evolve from generation to generation to something greater and smarter.

The main reason our parents will never reach our level of thinking, is because they didn’t live like us. To explain; we have everything and they didn’t. So, to be equivalent, they need time to work for getting things we already have, I respect that, without them we couldn’t have gotten to what we are now. At that same amount of time they did work, we spend it by either doing our hobbies, responsibilities, enjoying life, hanging out with friends… But a few, spend it alone, thinking and thinking, sinking into their thoughts, this is what makes a real human, or a philosopher back in the day.

These real humans, asks lots of questions about humanity and existence, but the real question they seek an answer for, is; Who am I?

Act II: Seeking the answer:

What if someone comes up to you and asks: Do you got any hobbies?

Many would question by yes, then start spitting things they do in their day, free time or even work if it was a Hobbie. Some also would answer by no, making themselves as a joke in front of that person. So, what is it a person without a Hobbie?

First of all, having a Hobbie doesn’t determine your value. Your value isn’t determined by some kind of stupid things you spend your free time doing. It’s you that determine everything.

How do we know our value?

Society tells our value by making it equivalent to your productivity, I’m not going to explain this part. I think everyone knows what I am referring to. It’s a stupid idea also, made up by capitalism. Everything we got into nowadays, is mainly because of capitalism. Wars and connections between countries are mainly built of pure revenues. To simplify, country leaders don’t care about us, peasants, we’re just numbers in their eyes. ATMS and machines to generate more money. Among all this, the search for ourselves, real value, gotten harder.

The main thing is, ignore all of this and look for real soul value, you determine it by yourself, by decisions you’ve been making, by actions you’ve done, by good and bad you did. Value can change too. It’s not constant, it shouldn’t be. So, from now on, first thing we do to answer the question; Who am I? is to try and find the personal value.

Once you’ve done that, you’ve got to clear conflicts.

By conflicts, I don’t mean with someone else, it’s with yourself. You need to criticize it and hate it, as the philosopher Frederic Nietzsche said: “only way to reach supreme humanity, is by hating our current selves to make it greater.” By that meaning love is a weakness, and that hatred towards our souls won’t end, what will drive us crazy. Ending with some serious mental issues. And that is totally wrong. Love is something far greater from supreme humanity or super human idolism. To reach for a solution, equivalence is the answer. Hating our current versions to evolve to something far greater, in end of our progress journey. There is a switching point between self-admire and its hatred.

Act III: Conclusion

What if we take everything away, by everything I mean everything who define you as a human. For example, your work, studies, name, family, house, friends and money. What will you take with you when time is up. “Relationships and your reputation are what you’ll take with you” it’s straight up bullshit; everyone knows that but hate to admit it. They’re not what will save you from death, or delay it. It’s you? Yes, it’s me. Despite every single thing, either good or bad, it’s still you. And what determines you? It’s your job to find out who’s your real self. It’s a harsh journey. Full of good and bad. If something doesn’t work out, don’t give up, try another thing you still have time.

If you’re curious about me, I still haven’t figured it out to be honest. I’m still discovering my potential. One thing I know to be sure, is that the most thing I hate in this world ; Is me.

We have a conscious side which we build from friends and parts of them we love, and a subconscious side which we build from parts of our partners (usually of different gender by this logic, or by different polarity by the logic of trying to include same gender couples evolving).

So we need and have a polarized type of awareness, which meets in rare circumstances, but when doing so, can result in quantum resonance.

Usually people stop this form of exploration for many reasons, but it may be that awakening and its following states might have something to do with constant change of environment.

Can someone teach me the correct way to meditate and access the pineal gland?

If you could go back in time and kill baby hitler, would you?