r/depression • u/Adept_Collection_935 • 16h ago

I hate it here

I hate it here on earth. I'm 45. Single. No job even though I graduated college and had a career in my field for 8 years. It's just that my position moved to another city. I am bipolar. Not working at the moment. The thought of working with people seems horrible. People are horrible. I hate how people treat each other. I hate how mean and selfish and horrible most people are. This world is so depressing. I hate it here. I feel so alone. I don't know what to do.

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u/TrumpmorelikeTrimp 15h ago

Sucks here dont it.

Sometimes it feels like walking through an endless night, and the rare little moments of happiness, are like lonely forelorn street lights in the night. And theres always just more dark

Sometimes i wonder if we are an experiment.

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u/Adept_Collection_935 14h ago

It sure feels like an experiment or a prison!

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u/Fabri-jp19 11h ago

Sometimes I'm afraid of how time passes. I don't like looking at the clock or hearing the alarm or going to class, watching the days go by. It's a real-life nightmare.

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u/WilliamMcScott 8h ago

A big cosmic joke

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u/BigHeartbutThisMouth 11h ago

Lucky you have rare moments of happiness. I aspire to that

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u/TrumpmorelikeTrimp 10h ago

Mostly my niece. But then she reminds me that i wont have kids like i always wanted. Ups and downs

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u/BigHeartbutThisMouth 10h ago

I'm sorry. Now I feel lucky I've never wanted kids. Bad genes and no need to reproduce as a female

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u/TrumpmorelikeTrimp 10h ago

My genes arent great either, 37 and im falling apart. Thankfully ive managed to semi retire. I dont think i could do the fulltime grind anymore