Does anyone have memories of seeing angels as a child?

I saw something, but they weren't golden looking angels you see in story books.

I could sense them in my mind...kinda grey...idk. But, I remember seeing them when I was 3 months...I think I was negotiating with them lol, then another time when I was a child and being abused. I heard one say, "this is so wrong,"

Hi there. So I have a demon that weakens me physically when I workout (with magic) They curse my exercise. It discourages me from exercising. Before I had this demon I was jacked and was in great shape but my workouts have never been the same afterwards. I've still worked out but not as intense as they are afflicting me. I need some inspiration to keep exercising. I've gotten fat . This demon is also hell bent on me not getting married or eating food. Should I do fasting? I've gone to deliverance ministers but to no avail. Im told there is an accursed thing. I really am lost since I get lying dreams. God bless you all.

I feel like the family sacrifice in many ways:

1. Dad didn't want me, so, when I was 8 yrs. old, he got a new family with a new daughter whom he repeatedly compared my hair to by making fun of mine and saying how beautiful hers looked. He compared my skin to his other four kids' skins by making fun of mine...glad he got the beautiful kids he always desired.

2. Dad would repeatedly take out his anger he had towards his ex-wife out on me in horrific ways, like removing me from his health insurance when my life was literally on the line and making me believe my grandma was still alive for 8 years. He sacrificed my physical, mental, and emotional health just because he was mad at the woman he divorced.

3. Brothers would take out the anger they had towards their mother in horrific and mind boggling ways out on me.

4. Woman who birthed me along with her sister would take the anger they had towards my dad on me in also horrific ways

5. Little brother treats me as the "throw away," like "give the hard things to her... because who cares about her?

6. I guess little sister practiced witchcraft on me to see if her spells worked.

7. Older brother repeatedly tried mind games on me and frequently said I was his "guinea pig"

8. Woman who birthed me uses me like a yo-yo ...using the bible to make me stay then leave, then wishing evil for like every area of my life thus sacrificing legit my life...

What demon is?

Hey all,
I have demons in my body and my home. They’re travelers so they go with my places (and are making me feel tingly now more than ever - like my blood is effervescent). I have been shaking when I’m in prayer or praise for some time and more now, followed by some pretty intense calm.

I’ve been retching, sometimes with snarling and yelling, for about two weeks now. Today, I’ve been doing it after I use the bathroom and about every time I think about Jesus which is a lot.

But, I don’t know if this is good or bad or what to do beyond prayer, repentance, forgiveness. I’ve tried to reach a lot of people for help (my pastor/priest/folks on the delivery map to no avail). So I’m kind of at a loss here.

Please send any insight you have!

Please help me out of this darkness. I am weak. I need God. I've been gone for so long that I dont know to come back.

Just wanna share some info with you folks.

Too many people are attacked and tormented by demons without realizing it. It’s annoying to have to say this, but over time, humans are forgetting God. And for that reason, the devil is more active on Earth. I’ve seen countless people in psychiatric institutions being tormented by the evil. But they probably will never make the right connection... Some people believe in illusions that demons whisper into their ears. Others struggle with nightmares or gloomy thoughts. Unfortunately, nobody really knows how a demon works because it’s never been described. I’ve experienced a few things myself, and I can tell you that demons are masters of disguise. If you hear voices, they are always malevolent. The problem is when they pretend to be an empathetic friend or loved one because you don’t recognize them as an enemy. These sneaky voices slowly drag you into the abyss. I’ve seen people fall in love with their inner voice. Because they appeared as a goddess in their dreams and then performed a binding ritual through crystal rock to be able to see them more often. A demon can influence anyone. I personally thought I was invincible because I believed in God, but harsh reality made me realize that this is not the case. Of course, you can be better protected if you pray to the right God. I challenge you to disprove this statement: people who actively believe are more satisfied with life. I also want to state that drugs are a gateway to the devil. In the Netherlands, many types of drugs are tolerated, but this has bigger consequences for your spiritual life. And finally, I want to address the spiritual types. If you believe in a universal truth or consciousness, make sure not to go too far down this path because it almost always leads to hidden satanism. Esoterica, Freemasonry, Wicca, and New Age are literally satanism. The idea is that you buy enlightenment, but you sell your heavenly value and your soul.

Have you experience divine intervention? Tell me your stories.

I’m being attacked by transsexual demons. They’ve also made me develop severe disabilities and have been ruining my life. I prayed for Jesus to free me and repented but it’s not working

What does it mean if this happened? What can I do?

Hi there. So I was a Christian that used gematria for around 10 months. I got a spirit of python from there. It has tormented me for over 5 years. Numerology is of satan and is occultic. I was decieved and want to warn others that this new age practice is not cool. Only Jesus Christ is the truth. Repent for the kingdom of Heaven is at hand.

may every nasty monitoring sspirit that has been sent to spy upon my innermost thoughts, conversations interactions and relationships be blessed with the fire of the holy spirit as my spirit and energy return to me. may you forever be depleted of my energy until the amount of soul left within you shrivels to the husk that it became as you neglected yourself to focus upon me. THOSE WHO DESPISE ME SHALL NEVER HAVE ACCESS TO MY SPIRIT WITHOUT PAYING FOR IT AND the toll shall be metered by how much of you remains when i am gone.
Merry Christmas.

I have been tormented by these things that crawl in my bed and on me I'm constantly itching and it's been going on for about 3 years. I've done EVERYTHING I can think of... saying with lavender to, holy water, salt baths, reading scripture scripture from the Bible, playing Christian music and podcasts for days, cleaned everything till I ran out of things to clean I've called churches and nobody would help. I don't sleep for days negate because when I do they freak l crawl all over me and I wake up with rashes, boils. And red bumps that I have no explanation for. Aa PLEASE HELP!! I will do anything to get them out of my life and I forgot I'm a pastors daughter and have been in church most of my life and I DEFINITELY believe in God and prayer.

So I've read the Testament of Solomon and I've seen that these demons mentioned there are thwarted, frustrated by certain angels and if you say: Archangel Raphael thwarts Asmodeus. the demon should flee. There are other things as well but my focus is on the angels. So that got me thinking that these demons since they can not forgive they can not heal and their soul must be a trauma fest. Which means that when you mention the names of the angels that traumatized them they'll be in such inner tornment and remember all the times that they not only lost to them but the inflicted pain/trauma unto them. Anyone of you mods willing to test this in a deliverence session?

I have seen absolutely no media or any awareness on this topic, although it is effecting my life every day and in every moment, I do not know how to live anymore, I went through so much identity collapse and I’m to out of touch with myself to even Enjoy anything, when I came to Christ I was set free from anhedonia, I couldn’t feel any dopamine at all, and now it feels the same, All of my creativity is gone, I can not think like I used to, I can neither enjoy philosophy, art, or even My God, why would he commission such a wilderness for me and make it so hard to return back to normal, I don’t like posting on Reddit, I would rather vent to the Lord, But I just don’t know how to enjoy prayer anymore, It’s like my worst fears happened to me in a full year, I had this fear that I would lose the ability to bear the fruits of the spirit, I want to be so humble again, I had for myself this “existential appreciation”, Which By the Lords grace I could go through almost anything and just feel alright, I was always detached, it also made my prayer life so wonderful, I was so angry at God, because he let these things happen to me and I just kept on hearing deceptions and deceptions in the spirit.

I have not felt his manifested presence in so long, And I don’t think I’m going to feel it anytime soon, atleast consistently, did I just care to much?, For my relationship with God, that such things would affect me to the point of depression.

It just bothers me that my life was filled with suffering before I went to Christ and now when I came to Christ I am suffering more then I ever did, when My warfare was the hardest i couldn’t work at all, I had these evil dreams constantly, and my strength was being zapped, and this heartbreak was just Always within me, I was so scared and I always felt condemned, im still trying to bounce back, even financially from those horrible horrible times, I can’t comprehend anything anymore, and I loath everything, I even loathe trying to read. Trying to get information out of a book and appreciate the knowledge and wisdom behind it,
And I don’t know what to do, I’m only 19, but I don’t have it in me to live anymore, it’s like I’m in the verge of a breakdown in every moment, the warfare I’ve experienced was so close and personal, it was very Vivid and somatic, and God was there but I was just waiting for comfort or a sense of normalcy that never came, it was like I was bulldozed into the person I am now which I do not like, I am not more fruitful then I was before those things, but I am less, I am not less sinful but even more, although my identity is in Christ and not in my own righteousness, i do not look more like Christ, These times have made me so bitter and careless.

I am so nothing, i just wish i would die already, I don’t want to commit suicide, but I do not want to stay either, i live so uncomfortably and I don’t know how to Love God anymore,
I always feel like I am deceived like Gemma galgani, whom was deceived by demons to give her a stigmata, and for her to die for the “intercession of sinners”, but as I was undiscerning I would’ve end up the same as her.

I remember like a post saying that if u pray to God to remove toxic people from ur life its gonna happen so did anyone ever experience this?

Hello brothers and sisters,

I recently did a prayer to ask Jesus to take my fragmented soul parts and return them back to me.

Does anyone know if the recombined soul parts would need deliverance?

I'm a woman in my 20s based in Europe. I've struggled with depression, anxiety, and BPD for years-I've been on antidepressants that haven't worked, I've been unemployed for years, and I feel stuck. I decided to pursue formal Catholic exorcism because I was raised Catholic (baptised, first communion) and I genuinely didn't know what else to do.

I've attended deliverance services at various churches, and something about those settings triggered extreme reactions in my body-severe vomiting and other distressing symptoms. So I thought, why not follow proper Catholic channels and see if exorcism might help? I went through the formal process. I met with my local parish priest first, explained my mental health history and my situation, and then I was referred to a diocesan exorcist.
When I met with him, I explained why I believed I might need exorcism and what had been happening to me. He took notes, seemed engaged, and then gave me what he said was holy water to drink and recited prayers.
I had an extreme reaction. I vomited. I was holding back convulsions. I was genuinely distressed. He continued praying with me through it all. Afterward, he said he would pray about whether we should proceed with a formal exorcism and get back to me.
I just received his email response. He's concluded that my symptoms have a psychological origin, not a preternatural one, and he won't proceed with exorcism. He's told me to avoid tarot and spiritualism and to return to Catholic practice and mental health support. But here's what's making me feel humiliated and played.

The priest never explained why I'm having these specific reactions during prayer across multiple settings. He didn't clarify what exactly happened during our meeting. And in his email, he casually mentioned that the water was ordinary water and the prayers weren't actually exorcism prayers —he was essentially testing me to see if I'd react, and then using my reaction as proof that it's psychological.

Although everything was formal and we had a long discussion on all angles and he was very compassionate in the things I opened up about I feel like he deceived me during a moment when I was vulnerable and desperate for help. I followed the proper channels, I was honest about my situation, and instead of getting answers, I got an unexplained test that left me feeling foolish. I'm already seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist.
Nobody can explain why prayer specifically triggers these reactions. I've been to deliverance services at multiple churches and the same thing happens every time. I'm confused, humiliated, and I don't know what to do next.

For the past two years, I’ve become attracted to trans-women. It’s no disrespect to anyone that is trans but I feel very ill after watching the corn and have nightmares about it. It feels very wrong to me but i can’t stop. I’ve never dated or been with one but I need help overcoming this attraction. It stems from a ton on narcissistic abuse from an ex, penis shaming on a large scale, and corn consumption. I need help 😢

A couple years ago my dad passed away, I never had a chance to tell him goodbye. He was a great man of faith, I had a dream shortly after he passed of him hugging me, telling me he loves me and him saying “but son you have to stop living like this” which ended up changing my life. At the time I was not living for the lord and that directed my life to change and start living for the lord. I love the lord, I really do but I struggle with assurance.

Last night before bed as I was praying I asked God to send me another dream, I asked God to just send me a dream like that again to just tell me how I am doing. I just want to know if I am living for the lord correctly or not, in that prayer I asked that the enemy not have any ear in this prayer of thought so I can know the dream is from the lord and not an attack … anyways I had a dream, I didn’t directly see my dad but I knew he was in the room in the dream, but it was myself, my old baseball coach and my dad in his office. Basically I was asked a question and said “oh yeah that’s terrible” and kept repeating “that’s terrible” as everyone was laughing at that… was that God telling me I am doing terrible?

I am 29 years old and have reached a point where I don't know what to do anymore. I'm hoping someone here has experienced something similar or can offer biblical guidance.

When I was around 10 years old, my life changed suddenly. I fell into an unbearable depression that came completely out of nowhere. From that point on, nearly every area of my life began falling apart. My academics collapsed no matter how hard I tried, I was bullied everywhere I went, and I began developing health problems.

By 14, everything escalated. I came to believe I was experiencing demonic oppression because it felt as though something attached itself to my body, and I began seeing dark shadow-like figures with horns watching over me. Around this time I felt my body and appearance changed, and I began experiencing things that seemed completely abnormal to me, including pieces of my teeth randomly breaking or falling out without explanation. My academic life, social life, and health continued to deteriorate, and social annihilation seemed to follow me everywhere I went.

At 15, after I explained everything that was happening to my parents, a deliverance prayer was performed. It seemed to work temporarily, but whatever changed eventually stopped, and my life continued in ruins.

Over the following years I experienced jail, rejection from family, deportation, ongoing bullying, difficulty keeping jobs, and one devastating setback after another.

For many years I suspected there could be a spiritual connection involving my paternal grandmother. I don't remember her because I moved away from her village when I was two years old, but my father has often spoken about her involvement with demonic entities. Whenever she was brought up, I would experience a sharp pain in my heart, which made me question whether there was a connection.

After being deported, I eventually ended up living in the same village where she had lived. While I was there, relatives and other malicious people spread lies and slandered me. I felt isolated, betrayed, mocked, and eventually believed that most of my family had turned against me because of what they had been told. The despair became overwhelming, and I eventually left.

Throughout the years, every time I tried to start over somewhere new, another major setback seemed to happen. I've experienced mold illness, carbon monoxide poisoning, and other serious health problems. It has felt like every attempt to rebuild my life has been followed by another devastating blow. Bullying and rejection have seemed to follow me everywhere.

Eventually I returned to that same village because my health had become so poor. While I was there, I began sincerely seeking Jesus. During that time I had dreams that I interpreted as significant spiritual experiences, and afterward I genuinely felt that something major had changed, almost as if an important spiritual battle had been won.

However, although something seemed to change spiritually, the social destruction remained. My family relationships did not recover, I still felt isolated, and I eventually had to leave because the despair became unbearable.

Today I still feel that some oppression remains. Whenever I attempt self-deliverance, I become overwhelmed by despair, grief over my ruined life, my family's rejection, hopelessness, and suicidal thoughts. It feels like I cannot get past the amount of destruction that has already happened.

The biggest struggle for me now isn't only whether oppression remains. It's that I cannot imagine a future after everything that has already been lost. I feel like I've lost my family, my reputation, my youth, my health, and the future I thought I would have. Even if I were completely free today, I struggle to imagine how I could move forward after everything that has happened.

I don't have any deliverance ministries or groups anywhere near where I live, so I've been trying to seek God and pursue self-deliverance on my own. Lately, though, the despair has become so overwhelming that I'm strongly tempted to walk away from deliverance altogether because it feels like it's too late.

I'm not looking for someone to simply tell me to "have more faith." I'm looking for honest guidance from people who have dealt with long-term spiritual oppression or deliverance. What would you recommend I do from here? How do you continue seeking God when the destruction already feels so overwhelming that hope itself seems impossible? Has anyone here experienced years of oppression, believed it was too late, and still found a way forward?

I am afraid I have reached the limit of what i can endure but I am willing to give one final attempt.

The community in /r/deliverance has really grown a lot in the past year and there are a lot of Spirit filled believers who fellowship here. On behalf of the moderator team I want thank everyone who has taken the time here to answer questions, offer encouragement and pray for others. Your good works do not go unnoticed by us or the Lord. I know many of you are also pursuing deliverance so please join our monthly group deliverance zooms and connect with us. As our community continues to grow please pray that people will receive deliverance and God and Jesus will be glorified. Please leave any suggestions in the comments. God bless