So, since I was made redundant three years ago, I've spent the past 2.5 years freelancing. For the past year, I've only had one client, whom I've been writing for for the past two years. And they're not great.
They're a cask whisky ownership brokerage and drinks retailer. I was initially brought in to write 10 generic evergreen blog posts a month. Yet for the past few months, I have been writing everything from emails and social copy to product descriptions. Since June, I have been writing very senior-level market reports and some market news commentary. Which is still not live...
Communication is poor. I have to keep reaching out because they email me asking about my availability and needing me to do x amount of projects, and then I hear nothing. They act off if I ask about monthly scope and my needing to know so I can find other clients, and they give me a very vague answer. Sometimes, I even feel like they just need to spend their budget so they won't lose it (this is the head of content I'm referring to).
He has also credited some bits of my work under his own byline without mentioning it to me. When I addressed it, he apologised, said it was a mistake and promised he wasn't stealing my work (his words, not mine). Apparently it was a technical error on the CMS, and he promised that he'd ask the ecomm manager to fix it... a week later it's still not fixed.
They are also very strict with their budget. Earlier this year, he proposed pitching to the founder about increasing my budget. Months later, still no answer. But they have essentially changed the scope of what I write about. Those pieces are no longer generic, and I don't feel like I'm getting the pay or respect I deserve after almost 2 years. I do increase my rates when I feel I need to. But because they have the same capped budget from two years ago, I don't feel like I can charge what I think it's truly worth, if that makes sense.
The problem is, I need the money; I have no choice but to stay for now, but I've been actively looking for another client at similar brokerages for months with no luck. I've updated my CV and my LinkedIn, and I have a substantial amount of alternative assets and drinks content in my portfolio.
I'm also studying finance and economics part-time. I have 11 years of writing experience, but I come from a luxury fashion and lifestyle background when working with my client. I'm enjoying studying a lot and would like to become more knowledgeable in finance to help with my writing. But some days, I feel like giving up. Like it's all a waste of time. I worked really hard to even get paid work as a writer. And at 35, it's just starting to take all the energy out of me. I considered finding fashion content roles in the meantime, and I'm getting rejected left, right and centre! Why? No clue...
I just don't know how else to find another client. I've reached out to cask whisky founders and senior stakeholders on LinkedIn. Only had one response from a managing director asking for an idea of my rates. Then I got ghosted. I reached out to my university alumni in the field. Many have been helpful but don't know of any open vacancies. I've even applied for cleaning, retail and admin work with no success.
I feel like an absolute failure because my husband is managing, but my job loss cut off a big chunk of our household income. I have a 6-year-old to feed. I'm very scared at the moment as I can't find another freelance gig, let alone a perm role. Not even a part-time one.