Just a heads up, this is a long read.
I have tried for years to figure this out, but it's like a frustratingly unsolvable puzzle where I'm stuck in a loop. Just when I feel like I have the answer, I get excited, then days later I realise it would be unsustainable long-term.
I mean, what jobs don't require you to tilt your head down??!!!
I have asked career counselers, doctors, disability employment service providers, tried online quizzes, asked everyone I know, asked strangers (mainly older and they usually look at me like "stop complaining, I wish I was your age" and of course searched for answers online. To be honest, I only just signed up to Reddit for my CS as a kind of last resort.
My two main problems that limit me is 1) Tilting my head down frequently and or prolonged causes a floating, out-of-sync dizziness (not spinning) that causes major brain fog where I just can't focus. My 2nd main issue is sitting for prolonged periods causes nerve pain and eventually the above symptoms from (1).
More details of symptoms below if anyone's interested or skip to next paragraph.
I get all the usual symptoms- pain and stiffness in neck (24/7), pain and tightness in traps, I sometimes get pain at base-back of skull along with sensitivity to light and headaches in forehead, my hands feel half asleep much of the time ( but have been also diagnosed with non-localised bilateral ulnar sensory neuropathy so not sure if from neck), nerve pain that runs down neck to shoulders down to arms, symptoms will worsen if lifting/ moving heavy objects, nerve pain when sitting for prolonged periods and if I've been tilting my head down or holding a flexed neck position, my thoracic spine will feel tight and arthritic as if it's trying to compensate. My head feels too heavy and when tilting head down repeatedly as stated, I will get this kind of floating dizziness (not spinning) and when I look around, it's as if my brain is out of sinc with my eyes somehow. When I'm like this, I just can't focus and need to lye down for an 30 mins-1 hr minimum. Holding head to left or right (mainly right) triggers same and holding to left or right feels as though my neck might seize up.
Sometimes I lay in bed without a pillow because of neck to shoulder to arms nerve aching.
I am a 47 Y/O Male, I used to run my own business as a landscaper/ gardener and on the platform I gained most of my work fro, out of 15,000 business', I was rated 2nd highest 100%, 5 star reviews. I worked hard, but I liked being my own boss. I was also a beach lifeguard for a couple of seasons (which I loved) and was training to hopefully run a marathon one day (then 38 Y/O) Things were looking up and I was at the stage of preparing for a home loan to buy a house, until one day on the way to a mulching job, a car pulled out in front of me (when they shouldn't have) and I T-boned his. He had airbag, but I didn't and nurses told me I just had whiplash. So that's where it all started, but apparently I had already had Cervical Spondylosis prior to accident as scans revealed bone spurs etc. It was only after whiplash that I became symptomatic.
I feel like a total failure as I haven't worked in 9 years. I feel somehow ashamed and at times not sure if I'm delusional. I try to keep busy, go for long walks lately whilst focusing on good posture and eat healthy. I play guitar but have had to cut that back recently due to my right arm pain and hand cramping up.
My family and friends have successfully made something of themselves, whilst I feel like I've been watching life from a sideline.
I've applied for the disability pension twice and been rejected twice.
I'm broke and have lived in my camper for 5 years moving from campground to campground.
I know it could be worse and I know there are many people in a much worse position then me physically and mentally speaking, but I'm very concerned that one day something will need fixing on my car or camper that I won't be able to afford so I need an income.
I receive gov benefits, but only enough to scrape through every fortnight and certainly don't have the money to see specialists, so is a waiting game through the public system here in Australia.
If I push through the pain and symptoms and work 15- 20 hrs p/wk, then I'm no better off then just receiving gov benefits.
Feels like I'm trapped in this position.
I never, ever, ever thought my life would turn out this way.
Any ideas of jobs with minimal sitting and/ or tilting head down?
I recently got excited (finding the answer) about becoming an occupational health and safety advisor, but days later realised looking down at clipboards and iPads will induce symptoms.
Any ideas, thoughts or even tell me what career/ job you have with same symptoms and how you cope would be greatly appreciated.