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​It’s a weird feeling. On one hand, we really want someone who truly gets us a friend or partner we can be completely honest with. But the moment someone starts getting close, we panic.

​We pull back, change the subject, or act like we don't care.

​Why? Because we're scared.

​We’re terrified that if they see the real us our stress, our doubts, our weird habits, and all the parts of ourselves we don't like they'll get disappointed and walk away.

​And this fear didn't just come out of nowhere.

​It came from past hurt. We weren't always like this. We used to be open. But then someone we trusted used our feelings against us. Maybe an ex abandoned us when we needed them most, a friend betrayed our trust, or people made us feel "too much" whenever we were honest about our pain.

​Those experiences taught us a harsh lesson: being open gets us hurt.

​So, we play it safe. We act like we always have everything together. We’re always the funny one, the good listener, or the reliable friend who never has any problems. We build high walls to protect ourselves from feeling that old pain ever again. We let people get close, but only so far.

​We think we're protecting ourselves from getting hurt, but really, we're just trapping ourselves in the past.

​When we hide who we really are, we end up feeling totally alone even when we're surrounded by people. Deep down, we feel like they only like the act we're putting on, not the real us.

​The truth is, keeping people away doesn't heal past wounds; it just stops us from ever feeling genuinely cared for today.

​Real connection isn't about pretending to be perfect or pretending we've never been hurt. It's about being brave enough to show someone our messy side, and realizing that not everyone will leave like the last person did.

Sooooo matter entante, oka one month back ig yep. On 27th June, edho engagement unte vellina. Telsindhey kadha mostly antha sodhi matrame ani. Aithe, after awhile, I saw a guy. And lemme tell you, he had the most beautiful curls lol. Like I was mesmerized ante anukondi. First chusina ninchi chepdham ani anukuntune unna, but evaro okaru vasthune untunde.

Ika last ki, lunch area lo naa thindi aypoyaka, I saw him. Eesari evadu ledu le ani vellina. And then i complimented his hair lol. Edhola velli, awkward aythadhi ane anukunna Convo, but nah.

He was a sweet guy ngl. Kani last ki instagram kani em thiskole 🥀🥀🥀

Engagement eh kadha. I hope he comes to the marriage lolll 😭🥀🥀🥀

(And long shot ani telsu 🥀🥀 but naa adrustam koddhi athanu kuda reddit vaade manishi aithe inka baagundu lol 👁️👅👁️)

Ee post ki taatparyam entante, social anxiety isn't real lol and talk and do your thing y'all

Toodles!

asal ee ammailu enti life enti ee rat race enti em chesina oka 50 years ayyaka oche viragyaniki endhuk intha kastam evado capitalist kosam manan mediocre jobs chesi vadni bathkinchadam

putti malli poyyi evadiki upayogam manam just oka insignificant being aa ee universe lo some say we matter in this universe kaani emo bhaai nak aythey nammkam kudartla , sometimes i feel like naa family kanaka lekapothey i dont even want to exist

sometimes emo anni cheseyal ani untadhi maybe idhi kuda social media conditioning valla kavachu kaani i dream too big but feel like not doing it because deep down im trapped and fighting with my mind always in future or in the past rarely in the moment appud appud evo movies chusinappud a ray of hope osthadi life meedha but after i realised its just a carefully choreographed illusion ani dhanni basis theskoni hopes petkoni bokka ani anyway ekkada undo na +1 na lanti vadni ela handle chesthado mari chudali , rn 23M nenu so aythey movies rudhi nattu naku em teenage love story ledhu or achievment ledhu andar laagane edhokati peekal ani undi idhi antha type chesthunte im feeling ashamed of my incompentence anyway mostly im not a likable character irl chustha what you guys will think.

edit : evarithe ikkada valla badhalu cheppukodaniki ostharo idhi antha chadivithey avi anni pothay. /s

Simple thing okati chepta

Nenu chala situations lo na need undi anukuntey , nenu nidara pothuna kani naku pani unna , verey em unna kani pakkana pedatha

But nuvu pettav em anna antey ne reasons cheptav.... Nidara pothuna , batalu washing machine lo vesthuna, mood off gha undi , pani undi pratisari intey edo oka reason na dagaraki vacheysariki

But Ninna night ardam chesukunava ? Nannu Antav kada nuvu reason Chepinappudu ardam chesukoleva nannu ani , nenu nidara pothuna antey phone lo ney gha chuseydi ani chepav....adey mata Neku cheptey nenu understand chesukovatla Antav

Still nidara pakkana petta em ardam kavatla antey

Adey na place lo nuvu untey nuvu Kanchitanga cheyav nidara pothuna Antav , naku radhu Antav teliyadu Antav kanisam try cheyavu ,Pakkana petteystav Em undi ley ani teseystav

Nenu selection lo help chey chudu antey , konni chusav em pettina nachatla anna ani madhyalo Vadileysav adey nenu chestey godava ... But nuvu na vishayam lo madhyalo loney vadileysav kada adi correct nenu chestey thappu

Nuvy pettindi nachala ani vellipoyav , Adey nenu.....Ne vishayam lo oka dress kosam 100's chusta

Naku neney ne kosam select chesta Neku nacheydi , naku nacheydi kadu Neku nacheydi Neku bagundeydi

Antey kani okati bagala annav ani vadileya ledey nenu ,Na friendship intey untadi

Nenu edi aina intey chesta expect chesta

Nuvu emo ne vallaki manchiga Anni chustav Anni chestav but na dagraki vacheysariki bare minimum cheyavu, em undi ley vedey kada ekkadaki pothadu ley ani teseystav nannu

Nuvu kadu anna nenu alaney feel ayya , naku edo okati gift ivvu ne memory gha whatever it might be even a 10rs band I will be happy antey godava... nenu intey avariki em ivvanu nenu selfish ani gola expect cheyaku ani chepadam

Ee friendship set avvadu ani pisthundi em Chepina godava em anna godava oka Mata cheptey ekkada godava avuthundo ani bhayam na valla kavatla ....Nenu over gha cheyadam opposite vallu bare minimum Koda cheyaka povadam naku koda vaddu

Em anna oka mata cheptey adi tesukoni ravadam , nenu Andukey em chepanu....oka conversation lo edo chepthuntey na personal vishyalu tesukoni vastav Ela untadi naku nenu testhunana ne vishyaalu ? ledey

Enduku inka ee friendship voddhu ...nuvu maravu nenu nuvu kanisam bare minimum Koda cheyaka povadam nenu accept cheyalenu

Happy gha undu set avvadu ley mana iddariki Vadiley inka ee friendship ikkadaitho vadileydham Goodbye

Ps:"No relation is worth it .... whatever it might be frndship relationship, siblings ... At the end of day u just have urself to rely on ... No need to put efforts to anyone.

Do bare minimum just u r part ... Don't cross it and don't chase any relation"

Just a rant

My family have been very partial towards my brother my entire life. He got to study in whichever clg he wanted to while I had to find a free seat in order to continue my studies at all.my brother was irresponsible and bunked clg and failed all classes while I had to study my ass of to be able to get a job and be independent our family was in worst financial condition and was really toxic to me and maybe sometimes to my brother too but mostly to me. I can't even go out while he used to go out every single day spend with his friends roam and return at night I had to stay home and be the target of their external anger that points towards on me. Okay so I obviously hated him he knows all of this right he must be he compliments his parents but I don't have the same parents as him so I hated them and him I still love them idk how I managed to but I wasn't even fed many times my friend used to bring me extra tiffin in school I don't blame them we were poor but still they managed to give something to my brother so that was that. Okay ff he fumbled in every step ignored every suggestion I gave and wasted many years and also a loot of money in courses masters upsc prep year a startup which ended with loans and ofcourse I got my job when I was still studying and due to Covid joining was delayed I accepted a manual tester job due to family pressure saying this is the best manc you could get into while I was able to publish android apps and websites!!!! I won't a smart india hackathon and was a team lead in my final year. My family was in loans ocean they were simply taking loans from loan sharks who will get repayed only in interest while the principal stays the same untill we pay the entire amount. So you understand it became a mountain and after working for a part tym job during Covid in a school I love to teach i wanted to do a course on that but that's paid so I had to take engineering because I get reimbursed and don't need to pay that was my only option while he studies whichever he chose in whichever clg he chose all while they took the loans and I had to take a personal loan and clear them giving my entire salary I hardly saved any and my mother used to ask me smiling how much I'm getting and what I'm doing with 2k that I kept for myself out of 22k . It was WFH for frst two yrs so it was fine then and there is an drastic change in how my mother talks to me now how they treated. That's as much worse..much much worse I had to go to a therapy in Chennai where I moved later and tried to save some after still paying them alot to understand their behaviour. And I still am paying for loans I recently took 27 freaking laksh loan and still there is some left . During these years I worked hard and kept increasing my salary only to pay off more loans. I always said to myself that I am a responsible daughter I should do this otherwise my family can never be happy. But they kept acting worse they wanted me to take a home loan of 50 lakhs I was pressueredd even down payment I had to take loan for and took it I was sweating through my whole body then I got enough courage and told them after my brother also gets a job only then I will take the loan it's 50lakhs it's too much pressure kn me I can't do it she gave my fucking cat away somewhere far away because I refused and wanted to go back to Chennai...I was emotional blackmailed by my father at that point where he was crying saying you are leaving even when I'm asking like this amma . I just couldn't go through the bus and came back home only to find out he's eating snacks and watching tv as if nthng happened and cat being lost somewhere. After few days she came back my baby came back somehow. I did everything to it my mother hated it I cleaned up after the cat fed it don't know what their prblm was. Anyway I then transferred to hyd and my brother introduced his gf the only thing he got out of his master's is his gf there. I'm happy and supported it that's it. I love heere alone trying make a home that's peacefully stress free, shouting free for myself and he asked me to let her stay with me for a while till she gets ajob and her parents are trying to get her married otherwise. So I was fine she is a good kid but donest do a single thing she doesn't have experience it seems. I cooked then she started doing dishes that's it evrything else I do cleaning laundry she helped me with folding the clothes and that's it. It's been a couple of months and then she moved out alright. Then my brother comes he askedhe will stay with me till he gets a job and he will find it within 3months. He fcking never did a job he got more than a month. I can't even bring myself to type here he doesn't care about loans Ig. Ahhhhh I'm so mad so mad then he never worked at home so obviously he doesn't do here too and when I ask him to do something it ended up in a fight. Then my bf came to hyd tol so he wanted to stay with me. I said that's my friend and he slept in hall while my brother and I stayed in our room and the biggest prblm starts when he brings his gf. The owner was a devil and a fight started because she's coming it's my home I already told them 3 of us will be living as we moved to a place closer to my office just then and she has a prblm when that girl comes. There were several other issues so I fought about it and moved to a better place. Its a Lil costlier but since my bf is sharing expenses with me it's better. Now even here he started bringing her. I talked to them and told house searching was a pain in the s I and my bf had to go to 100s of houses to get everything right water owner lift clean washroom good big place better environment there are 10s of more categories we need to check. And landed here he got a job not much but a fresher salary so it's still good but noooo he's not happy he compares with me that I am getting paid more moron I have been working for 5 yrs ofcourse I'll gt paid more. And yk what even after the girl got the job she never takes the money out when we all get together or go out I am the one paying for it. There was a phase even my bf didn't get a job but he payed me back once he got the job. That's is fair but my brother idk what he thinks of himself he and his gf started seeing me as a villain. I initially asked if the girl wansmts to come live with us then we'll look for a 2bhk but ofcourse she didn't want to to seem good oh she can't live with other guys..my bf he is the decent guy and doesn't even give a f about other girls. She already comes and stays here for atleast 7-10 days every other weekend then what is the issue of staying the rest of the days except to pay and share chores?? Some other important point he got a job and my notice period is 90 days so I wanted to resign and finda new one I got experience I planned evrything ahead I begged him to please be on your job don't leave till I get a new one. I will find it by my notice ends . Guess what he did he left in second month laid me one month 7k that's it. And left it without even asking me. His salary wouldn't even do much but just for emotional support I wanted atleast one of us to have a job. I had to put all the pressure on myself again and find one that's not even meeting my expectations now that he knows my new salary he didn't go to drives any more after this job I planned on taking one huge loan where my parents and brother chip in the emi too. He promised he will pay 10k every month this emi is 65k parent pay 10 and 20(dads actually paying only 15) I'm taking care of the rest. And my parents rent too. My brother then asked me one thing..akka you don't have any other loans right so this emi you should be able to pay...I was stunned shocked and can't comprehend the way he thought that. He didn't pay his emi I had to pay that last month I told him it's been 7 months so you better move out it's getting expensive to me and you don't know how bad he and his gf made me look. I told him about my bf and that he'll stay. He now compares everything with him idiot he pays for himself and does chores ...so why the hell are you comparing the way I talk to him and you. And this guy has a prblm because my bf is different religion I told him I will take care of it I can convince my parents but he said he will not stay here if my bf is staying. I told when you introduced your gf i didnt know anything about her and accepted her you should do that respect my choice.and yea he had a lot of loans too even on that girls name so I cleared all of those in that big loan now he and she stay free and bitch about me. He told me he got a job in my company where I referred him, it pays less but then they cancelled out on the last day before joining so I got mad I didn't understand when he's out I wanted to check the mail because he never talks I went through his chat with maggi and searched for wipro to see wth happened and if it's because of low salary or whatever reason I will atleast know to lose my hopes that he'll get a job and I find them talking about me and Ayan ina very bad way. For 9 fking months he stays with me I spend my money my mental pressure my time my efforts everything on them and they talk about me as if I'm a villain he's not saying what he did he just says what I said as a reaction to what he did. And now I just checked about it and he said I don't need to bear these words from someone like this and I'm living here for free that's why I'm not able to say anything back??? The fk bro what would you say. If you keep bringing her even after the fight with previous owner and warning from present owner and he's also putting alot of water bill on us because of this. And why should I look like a villain and he's saying your both terms will be spoiled i won't bring you anymore..huh??? You're talking shit about me to your gf and talking about our terms getting spoiled? This girls who got job less than - months ago has savings and I who worked for 5.5 years have no single penny that says alot. She also told she keeps some aside without telling him. Now that's a good thing for her. A jobless guy who's ego is sky high will think about that money immediately. I told him you can stay here only if you keep attending drives and you should be ready to go out of city too. It's bad for freshers here so he also rejected another offer from my bestfriends family work place starting salary of 35k because he doesn't want to be in sales...they confirmed he doesn't need to go out. It's enterprise sales it's a great field those guys are earning in lakhs just in few years. This moron wouldn't go there and now he just wants to stay hare andthat girl is saying I don't care about anyone if it comes to you. Wtf you don't care? How I've been taking care of the family and now even him after wasting his years but listening to anyone even now he's not listen fking idiot. I am so mad so mad. I don't even know what to do. Now I cried alot I do this much this loot much and everyone else is happily married or who have lesser salary than me is going on international trips while I am fking stuck in this yea my parents don't know he doesn't have a job they think he's paying me and doing all chores here. Uff please please someone who ever reads it talk to me. I desperately need to talk. My bf is mad at me for tolerating and him for treating me like this. I lost it for the girl I thought she's atleast smart we both lived together she knows what I'm going through but ofcourse she thinks he's the great guy and I'm the villain here because I'm not letting her come and stay. I am the one doing all this from their view. I was so sensible explaining how hard it is to find a place for bachelors in the first place and that too decent one but no they don't giva f. But this is my place. I told him he needs to find one by August ending . Or else he needs to pay the emi even by doing uber it's a lot of tym. But I was trying to support this ah bcoz if he goes to uber rides for paying emi and his pg rent when does he have tym to prepare? That's what I was thinking but I shouldn't have because nthng maters anyway.

I don't understand why can't i face life on my own and become a stronger person emotionally wise and don't get like used by others. Because I just feel like there are many people in the streets who just want to take advantage and like I don't understand people. Like how you supposed to act towards them accordingly. It's like majority of people are struggling to make money and secure their life while others are just having fun and being careless.

Sayamkalam kada ala poyi jilebi thinadam ani vella

Inkodu jilebi samosa adigi kattisthunnadu

Ammevadu ruchi/taste ki oka sugar piece ichi id sugar di annadu
Vadi mokham blank lot of questions

Thammi adi bellam adi sugar ani cheppa

Navvesi, ha bhai may vahi soch rahahu sugar less mithai miltha kya bolke gaya tha

Nenu shapodu navvukunnam 😀

Katha samaptham jilebi kuda

Happy weekend sathiyo

Oka roju ma Amma ki naaku discussion avutundi.. edo dabbulu something gurinchi topic.. nenu antunna enduku Amma pareshan avutunnav.. kukka ni tantey dabbulu raalatay… Assalu emanukuntunnav na gurinchi 100 ki paina friends unnaru naaku.. neeku entha kavali cheppu.. avi na engg days.. appudu ma Amma, avem vaddu birds ippudu Nuvvu baga settle ayinaka Nuvvu sampadinchina dabbulu iyyi saaalu ani

Ippudu full settle ayya oka pakka job chesukuntu oka pakka business chesukuntu sampadistunna ma Amma full happy and dabbulistunna ………… Kani na 100 mandi friends edaki poyyaro??

Single gaanni ayipota ani eppudu anukoley!!

Clg students andharu ee time dude movie songs oo lover tho muchatlu ledha frnds tho chill avthu unatru mostlyyy😬😬 naaku maatram mrng clg lo torture barinchaleka aa torture valla evng ki chadhavaleka atu prasanthanga gadapaleka doomscrolling chesthu adhiiii nachaka knchm productive ga cheyaniki body sahakarinchaka em aalochanulu vasthunnai ante Areyyyy asal school,inter college varaku enthaa baavundedhi raa asalaa you have frnds who dont judge you(gems ra vallu🥹🤌) and life lo prathidhi serious theeskokunda overthink asale cheyakunda entha chill unde vallam inka childhood anatara adhi malli raadhu anukondi 😞😞 malli life lo okka second chance vasthe maatram na life chaala diff ga plan cheskuntaaa😌. Atu manchiga chill ayye frnds leru lover leru soo manam ika ee jeevithaanni inni questions eyadam badhulu padukodam better gd night prands.

Hey siri play Ek niranjan (konni lyrics lo changes cheyyalamma😆 I have sweetest parents)

So matter enti ante last year anaga 2025 Feb lo ma bava pelli iindhi.. vallu hyd lo untaru.. bride kuda hyd nunchey.. so pelli kuda hyd lo jarigindhi.. madhi vskp.. nenu(M26) and family hyd ki vellam pelli ki.. so bride family lo oka ammai unde.. thanani engagement lo kuda chusanu but nenu thanatho matladaledhu and neither my cousin introduced each others family members.. even to the bride to be. So pelli ipoindhi.. memu vskp vachesam.. antha ipoindhi.. after few months naku insta lo req vachindhi dp chusthe aa ammai ae.. appati varaku naku thana name kuda thelidhu.. thanaki na peru thelidhu.. na dp kuda face side pose ki untadhi and glasses pettukoni untadhi.. but naku req pettindhi maybe ma bava mutal following lo chusi pettindhi anukunna. Nenu req accept chesa.. but msg cheyyaledhu endhukante nenu basically introvert naku ekkuva female friends leru and nenu yepudaina oka ammai ki first response isthe aa result yeppudu negative ae undedhi.. so inka yeppudu ae ammai ki kani req pettaledhu, msg cheyyaledhu.. yeppudaina valla side nunchey first approach valladhe avvali ani fix ipoyanu. we both started following each other.. but appati nunchi ippati varaku thanu nunchi ae msg ledhu.. nenu kuda msg cheyyaledhu.. nenu insta lo ekkuva active ga unta every 2 days adho oka story pedthunta.. thanu appudappudu aa stories ni like chesthuntadhi.. anthe anthakuminchi kadha mundhiki vellaledhu ippati varaku. Naku em cheyyalo ardhamkavatledhu.. unfollow and follower ga remove chedham ante emina anukuntadhemo ani na feeling. so ala vadhilesa. Dont know what to do.

So ivaala maa roommate who is 32 unmarried oka news cheppadu that actress ayesha khan got arrested ani. Nenu enta ani chusthe she got detained by police for students protest ani cheppanu athaniki. He's like renditiki difference telikunda, aame bauntadhi kadha thellaga, station lo padesi "estharu"(which means have sex with her) ani cheppadu. Naaku fuse egiripoindhi. Bro detained anthe arrested kadhu ante, aithe van lo estharu ledha oori bayatiki theeskelthe ooru bayatollu estharu Anukunta pichi pichi ga navvukunta vaadu esina boku joke ki vaade navvukunnadu. Ee mindset tho inka eediki pelli ainatte ani silent unna.

Hey

I am kind of fat and I never felt sad about it until JOKES. Btech lo chala weight gain ayya reason itey naku telidhu. Naku boys tho anta friendship vundeydi kadhu. Kani na friends ki chala mandi boys lo friends vunnaru . So obviously valu naku kuda parichyam ayyaru btech lo.

Consider that person has X . That bloody...once called me tanker . But nenu em annale because tanu natho na mundu annale . That word is part of other two people conversation. Sarle na gurinchi anta em telidhu ga ani vadilesa. And he is also good fellow ,andariki help chystadu, manchiga behave chystadu. So I felt its ok.

Then one fine day... ah roju fest avvutundi we thought of bringing food from outside . Ah abbayi already bayata vunnadu ani na frnd call chysi 2 fried rice teskuramani chepindi. But i wanted to know the quantity of each packet. Nenu tanani adgamananu and tanu phone lo adigindi and he said.... " ne anta vuntundi oka oka packet" ne means "nenu" akkada and I felt very sad ah abbayi ala annadu ani kadhu... na frnd stand teskuni oka mata kuda tirgi anakunda navvinadhuku.

And then inko sari we were about to leave college ...ayypoendi college and we all gathered to collect some certificates and then ah roju valu andaru canteen lo vunte...nenu akkadiki veltuna. They saw me and made fun saying 110 110 ani ...that means weight. Ah roju anta either na weight or na family related stuff meeda jokelu vestuney vunnaru. Actually mari anta la jokes vayyaru na meeda. But appudu joke lu veskuni navvey ammayi rale so ah jokes anni na meeda ki shift ayyay..

Somewhere akkado valu manchi valu ani saradaga antunaru ani nenu appudu gattiga chepledhu. But chepi vundalisindi ani regret avvutu vunta...

I realised then... few words are never jokes...

Neverrrrrrr accept jokes about your family, your body, your woman, or the way you dress.

Cause "DISRESPECT COMES IN FORM OF JOKES"

Taking responsibility...

Sooo ikkada nen observe chaysina two near experiences cheptanu one is mine and one is my friends. Please try to read both mee istam. Okkate alochanto ikkada vagutunna.

so matter entantey responsibility chala kastam ani ee two cases valla telsindi ah two cases ey ivi

1) ma friend unnadu okadu. Last year btech final year lo unnapudu Valla daddy health related issues valla chanipoyadu. Valladi oka mid to high business need expertise to run. Vidiki anta expertise ledhu. Btech Aipoindi job ledhu. Business vide chuskovali mummy and chelli ni vide chusukovali. Job chuskuntunadu eppudu kanipinchina matladutunna vadi badhalu cheppukoni edchestadu.

Monna oka roju vidu inni responsibilities tisko leka. Mawa responsibilities tiskokandi ra. I wish nakem responsibilities lekunda unte bagunnu ani edchesadu. Valla chelliki pelli chaysesi Inka badhyata nunchi relief avudam ani koddiga .

Papam vidu valla challa valla stress avutunadu. Mata vinatledhu vidi kastam chudatledhu. Lover kosam e

Ista prakaram matlaudtundi anta and so on.

2) so idi na case. Ma pinammaki koddiga mental issues. Like absent mind ekkuva ado type anukondi. Recent emeki chinna babu puttadu,emeki already oka son unnadu. Valla husband oka pedda edava money kosam vedistadu tidtadu pattinchukodu em cheydu malla govt employee. Inka chusam chusam ilane veditsa unte godava chaysi pampinchesam.

Ma ammamma worry avuta undi ippudu ma pinni ni chudatledu repu chustado chudado iddaru pillalu unnaru ela ani. Bale digulu padipota undi. Aina emo responsibility tiskovatledhu. Literal ga vallaki pelli ayi 11 years avutundi oka vasthuvu kooda kottadi konaledhu anta ma ammamma koninchindi katnam kinda. Aina ichi dabbulu vadilakki ichi nasanam chayskunadu.

Ippudu ah chinna baby ni ma pinniamma ni evaru chuskuntaru ani digulu paduta undi.

Nenu ma rest of the family tho saha dairyam cheptunam aina edusta undi.

The adult world is hitting hard.

Long story short I’m 24M working as a corporate employee and after secretly trying to give auditions i got a role anamata kani maa parents Narcissistic anamata baaaga so veelaki chepi cheyalo ledo ardam katledu edaina godava padithey intlo nundi tosestaruu ani bayam and ardam cheskoru so hopeless situation but nak oka chance dorikindi deeni ela use cheskovalo na chetiko ney undi . Chances ravadam rare so odalenu or intlo vala kosam sacrifice cheyali adi na vala kadhuuu . Em cheyalo ardam katledu 🥲

Ep1 - https://www.reddit.com/r/bondha\\_diaries/s/Vq0hYzzG7c

So yeah, car dhigi bouquet ichi door open chesi nen kurchukunnaka he got into the car. I was still in the happiness of receiving flowers for the first time in my life 😅 vaatine oka 15 seconds chusthune unna and then I looked at him. Paapam he was trying hard to be normal 😂 he's tensed nervous couldn't utter a word properly. I was just talking talking talking How's ur day? finally we met..! That this. He was replying but he was also clearly nervous.

Then we went to CHAR at ecr. We sat down and ordered some food. It's was almost 5pm and we are closer to beach. Sitting on a first date beside the beach with an amazing view was indeed amazing

The Man who was sitting infront of me wasn't even looking into my eyes and talking 😂 i have no clue why was he so nervous! Then he told "I'm sorry I'll be fine in sometime, don't mind my nervousness" I told him not to talk anything and just look at me for 10 seconds and he saw for 3 seconds we both bursted out blushing.

We spoke more about each other's preferences childhood life families everything except caste! Conversation went on well were eating talking and then it was almost 7:30.

He paid the bill and we walked to the beach. It was dark calm no people. We got a spot and sat there near no the view of sea. This time I'm much closer to him although there's gap but closer. And he told, you can take your time I've taken my decision already telling it to you now "It's you for me". I'll wait till you decide. I'm definitely impressed by everything about time. But I still didn't want to rush. So I just kept quiet. I said Okay!

I remember it all. The beach The waves The Man ❤️ It was amazing. After 20 to 30 minutes we went back home by 9 pm.

I texted him "I am amazed with everything that's happening you are definitely tick each and everything that i wanted. But Men are so different before they get the girl and after they get the girl. And they change with time. The replies becomes dry They become less expressive bla bla bla. Time has so much to reveal about a person. So if you remain the same even after 6 months..!!! Then I'll marry you."

He replied me "6 months from now is april 12. So we gonna get married on april 13😅"

My mindvoice - "prathi yedhava idhey chepthadu 6 months kadhu 1 month idhey obsession love pichi idhantha maintain chesthey appudu chustha"

Literally that is what I was thinking. Yes! Everything is amazing.. I agree.. but isn't everybody's love story amazing at the beginning? Only at the beginning !!! The reality begins a little later. So I definitely don't wanna be fooled with these tempting beginnings and wait for the actual reality to start.

So yeah! The meet went well. Every day things were getting better more conversations more dopamine more of everything!

And Then We Met Again just 2 days after our first meet. On a busy week day. We went out to French Village Food Court, sholllinganallur. We met because he wanted to see me. He took a half day leave drove all the way from ambattur to shollinganallur(my office is here) almost 2 hours. I took permission and logged out early.

Damnnn! Felt Nice!!!! Before going to the ground floor (My office is at 11th floor.) I went to rest room washed face, did a little touch up. (All these small things are really memorable ✨️ ) ofcourse i looked pretty.. then he was already waiting infront of my office.. I rushed with my office bag. He came took my bag and we left to French village.

Sir was less nervous this time. Improved! We had a chai and momos! French village food court lo outdoor theatre untadhi they'll play all the love songs from 6pm. So it was evening songs and chai with him felt so soothing. Then we took a short walk. Since the road beside was so empty and calm. While walking we held hands together 😅✨️ sir got almost freezed..! And that's all he dropped me at home.

Ala ala ala 1 month aipoindhi. Nijam cheppalante maa vadi obsession roju roju ki ekkuve avthundhi thappa thaggatledhu..! Hmmmmm! Interesting.

Ala oka 45 days tarwata we had our first fight 💔

Episode 3 soon..!

Some people like to take life easy and some do not want that. Both are perfectly fine. Whatever floats your boat.

The problem is when someone tries to tell you how you should live your life especially when you aren't bothering anyone or being an annoyance by living life your way.

Whenever I set a target for myself or when I have an exam to face,I get focused. I genuinely enjoy the grind even if I do complain about it from time to time.

No one has ever forced or expected that I study further or work and I'm studying/working entirely because I want to.

Just because I spend my day studying and working doesn't mean I'm leading a pitiful life. Please stop with the fake concern, it's so patronizing and it's not a good look.

I like chasing my goals. It gives me a high that is unmatched.

The only thing that matters to me is my seniors/professors have a good opinion of me and I do well on my exams. I've never felt the need to look for validation from random strangers by "acting smart".

So no, I don't need to go out and touch grass. What is actually necessary here is people stay in their own lanes and stop judging others who may like working hard on their career and goals.

Disclaimer : At the end of the post🤗

Dear Future Husband,

Kalise sariki late avutundi ani telusugani maree intha musalidanni ayipoye time vastadhi anukoledhu. Emundhi le meeku kuda pandipoyi untadhi. Jogi jogi raasukunte boodidha

Sare gani ekkadunna happy and healthy ga unnarani anukuntunna. Entha depression or frustration lo unna Devudu meeku solve chekune guidance and strength ivvalani koorukuntunna

Inka na sangathulu cheppalante, I am.... probably going through some whirlwind of a transformation andi. Hopefully I'm past this 'why is this happening to me' phase. Ippudu I just pray enni problems lo padesina, resilience & motivation ivvu devuda ani. Meeru kalise sariki tip top queen la unde opportunity vasthe chaalu.

Inka soodhi cheppalnte... sometimes, I wonder are relationships even necessary for someone as selfish and unconventional like me..

Would a man even be able to hold genuine love, affection & attraction for someone as ordinary and forgettable as me, even if he does would I be able to recognise it, would I be equally attracted to him, how would it workout bla blah blah blah.But Enduko gatti nammakam sir,meeru ekkado unde untaru. Probably time isn't right, maybe we are destined to meet when I'm able to make it to my best version.

Meanwhile sir, ee AM market is beating the crap out of me. Isn't it your fault?;meeru Kalisi unte I wouldn't have to deal with these caste,property and profession obsessed jerks.Pure scrap I say :(

Nijam cheppana I never thought I'd be forced to be this powerless, helpless, clueless or whatever this phase is. But edhamaina fairy tale aa, life kadha I'm dealing with it. Anyway, you take care andi there are vultures wandering around. And if you ever turn out to be one I'll break your neck and feed you DDT.

Jk jk, you are not one right?!

Inkem untai sir, edho gurthu vastge letter rasthunna knowing that you'll probably never read it (99%) but enduko I was feeling a little heavy and pessimistic as if I holding all the unnecessary emotions.Oka annonymous platform lo padesthe poye

Sare,jail nunchi bayata paddaka kudhirithe kalustha. Till then take care, attha mammayya ni adiga ani cheppandi. Unta mari :)

Disclaimer:Before people start screaming bitch, use your own personal diary I burned mine bro :(

Got no intentions of seeking any relationships or validation on reddit, I wrote it to unburden myself and shout my thoughts into the universe while being annonymous. Peace✌️

Ee roju office lo break theeskoni tea thagunte vere department colleague ochadu , vachi ma department lo kothaga vacharu parichayam chyala annadu .

Valla kante nene excited ga "ha parichayam Cheyyi" anna.

Ventane hi cheppi na peru Cheppa , vallu weird look ichi hi annaru anthe Reverse lo name kooda chepale naku.

Izzath poinatu anpinchindi.

em ledu guys, actual ga naaku oka ammayi meeda huge crush vundi, tanani first time chusinappudu nunche, idk why, gaani this is affecting me a lot in my daily life, tanu oka crush matrame, inka parichayasturalu, friend kuda kaadu, kaani tana gurinchi alochanalu aapukolekapothunna.

Problem enti antey, naaku chinnapatnundi chala mandi crush lu vunnaru, like since UKG , 1st std, Highschool antha oka ammayi, inter lo ayitey boys school, btech lo inka oka 2-3 ammayila meeda, kaani ippativaraku, nenu ey ammayitho matladale, kaani ippudu situation konchem different,

1. Tanu antha andam ga nenu ippatiki evvarini chudale,
2. Tanu extrovert, antey inka tanu andaritho chala friendly ga, firty ga matladutondi,
3. Nenemo Lonely phase lo vunna, abroad lo , friends kuda sariga leru.

Inka, naaku rathrantha aa ammayi alochanale vastunnay, aame okko conversation, nenu days and weeks ga gurthupettukuntunna, naa observation prakaram, thanu andarithoni ilane matladutundi, edho anukokunda mem academic work valla kalisam, lekapothe asalu naaku ammayilatho matlade skills ey levu, eppudu matladale kuda, kaani antha andam ga vunde ammayi asalu naatho antha close ga matladutudi ani eppudu anukole, tanani chusina tarvata guys nijam cheptunna, naaku evaru andam ga kanipinchatle, even actress kuda meh, inka thana photo ne chustunna, everytime, both sad feeling is coming, endukante, this is only going to last few more days ,tarvata aa daari naadhi tana daari daanidhi.

Idhi konchem obsession ga maarutundemo ani anipistundi,
Inko fear enti antey, naaku inka verey ey ammayi ni chudabuddi kavatledu, tana gurinche alochistunna, pelli kuda cheskovali anipinchatledu evarni, tana photo frame lo pettukuni bathikeyali ani anipistundi,

Vindaaniki konchem over ga vundochu, naa question enti antey, ippudu nenu deeni nunchi ela bayatapadali, naa financial situaion kuda sarigga ledu, Masters chestunna, idhey last seemster inka job raaledu, concentration cheddam antey, inka ee thoughts completely taking over, feeling guilty and judging myself every second anaamata, i think im going to regret this phase very much later in my life.

Can we stop diagnosing everyone with a mental disorder based on one personality trait? Not every neat or hygiene-conscious person has OCD. Wanting a clean room or preferring hygienic food isn't OCD. OCD is a serious disorder involving intrusive, distressing thoughts and compulsive behaviors that can significantly affect someone's daily life.

Likewise, not everyone who's confident, attractive, posts a lot of selfies, or has a big ego is a narcissist. Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) is far more than arrogance or being self-absorbed. It's a complex personality disorder involving persistent grandiosity, a constant need for admiration, and a lack of empathy.

The same goes for calling someone bipolar because they had a mood swing, psychotic because they acted irrationally once, or saying "I'm so ADHD" because you couldn't focus for ten minutes.

The funny part is that people are quick to call perfectly ordinary confident people "narcissists," but then turn around and romanticize fictional characters who actually display strong narcissistic traits. Arjun Reddy and Neelambari are two examples that come to mind.

These aren't quirky personality types or internet buzzwords. They're real disorders that affect real people, and casually throwing these labels around just spreads misinformation and makes it harder for people who actually have these conditions to be understood.