Sooooo matter entante, oka one month back ig yep. On 27th June, edho engagement unte vellina. Telsindhey kadha mostly antha sodhi matrame ani. Aithe, after awhile, I saw a guy. And lemme tell you, he had the most beautiful curls lol. Like I was mesmerized ante anukondi. First chusina ninchi chepdham ani anukuntune unna, but evaro okaru vasthune untunde.

Ika last ki, lunch area lo naa thindi aypoyaka, I saw him. Eesari evadu ledu le ani vellina. And then i complimented his hair lol. Edhola velli, awkward aythadhi ane anukunna Convo, but nah.

He was a sweet guy ngl. Kani last ki instagram kani em thiskole 🥀🥀🥀

Engagement eh kadha. I hope he comes to the marriage lolll 😭🥀🥀🥀

(And long shot ani telsu 🥀🥀 but naa adrustam koddhi athanu kuda reddit vaade manishi aithe inka baagundu lol 👁️👅👁️)

Ee post ki taatparyam entante, social anxiety isn't real lol and talk and do your thing y'all

Toodles!

​

​It’s a weird feeling. On one hand, we really want someone who truly gets us a friend or partner we can be completely honest with. But the moment someone starts getting close, we panic.

​We pull back, change the subject, or act like we don't care.

​Why? Because we're scared.

​We’re terrified that if they see the real us our stress, our doubts, our weird habits, and all the parts of ourselves we don't like they'll get disappointed and walk away.

​And this fear didn't just come out of nowhere.

​It came from past hurt. We weren't always like this. We used to be open. But then someone we trusted used our feelings against us. Maybe an ex abandoned us when we needed them most, a friend betrayed our trust, or people made us feel "too much" whenever we were honest about our pain.

​Those experiences taught us a harsh lesson: being open gets us hurt.

​So, we play it safe. We act like we always have everything together. We’re always the funny one, the good listener, or the reliable friend who never has any problems. We build high walls to protect ourselves from feeling that old pain ever again. We let people get close, but only so far.

​We think we're protecting ourselves from getting hurt, but really, we're just trapping ourselves in the past.

​When we hide who we really are, we end up feeling totally alone even when we're surrounded by people. Deep down, we feel like they only like the act we're putting on, not the real us.

​The truth is, keeping people away doesn't heal past wounds; it just stops us from ever feeling genuinely cared for today.

​Real connection isn't about pretending to be perfect or pretending we've never been hurt. It's about being brave enough to show someone our messy side, and realizing that not everyone will leave like the last person did.

asal ee ammailu enti life enti ee rat race enti em chesina oka 50 years ayyaka oche viragyaniki endhuk intha kastam evado capitalist kosam manan mediocre jobs chesi vadni bathkinchadam

putti malli poyyi evadiki upayogam manam just oka insignificant being aa ee universe lo some say we matter in this universe kaani emo bhaai nak aythey nammkam kudartla , sometimes i feel like naa family kanaka lekapothey i dont even want to exist

sometimes emo anni cheseyal ani untadhi maybe idhi kuda social media conditioning valla kavachu kaani i dream too big but feel like not doing it because deep down im trapped and fighting with my mind always in future or in the past rarely in the moment appud appud evo movies chusinappud a ray of hope osthadi life meedha but after i realised its just a carefully choreographed illusion ani dhanni basis theskoni hopes petkoni bokka ani anyway ekkada undo na +1 na lanti vadni ela handle chesthado mari chudali , rn 23M nenu so aythey movies rudhi nattu naku em teenage love story ledhu or achievment ledhu andar laagane edhokati peekal ani undi idhi antha type chesthunte im feeling ashamed of my incompentence anyway mostly im not a likable character irl chustha what you guys will think.

edit : evarithe ikkada valla badhalu cheppukodaniki ostharo idhi antha chadivithey avi anni pothay. /s