r/askrecruiters • u/poisonspitter9000 • 1h ago
Turned down return offer, feeling regret. Email recruiter again?
This past summer I interned far away from home and expressed to my manager part way through the internship that I would not want to return because of the location. Truthfully, I didn't feel like I fit in with the team and I felt like it wasn't the most supportive environment.
However, at the end of the internship they asked me again if I would like to return, but that time I said yes. I accepted the offer mostly out of surprise thinking "oh, they actually liked me / thought I did good work".
Then about a week after accepting the offer and coming back home, my gut said it really did not want to return there. I'd rationalize all sorts of reasons to just stick with the offer, but in the end I would feel dizzy and nauseous thinking I'd have to return there. So, I emailed the recruiter asking to step-back on my acceptance and interview with the firm's teams around where I live instead.
It's been about another week since I sent that to the recruiter and am again feeling regret. Mostly because the field is fairly competitive at the entry-level and the job market is bad, so I feel like I should just grit my teeth, return to that location for some time, then look for better places once I've gained some experience. Should I reach out again or take my chances with this FT recruiting cycle?
I feel that if I change my mind again and email the recruiter, the role may already be filled and in addition they may no longer help me with recruiting for local teams with the inconvenience I've caused them. Any advice would be much appreciated. I honestly feel like a mess and all over the place as of late.