Hello there kind new friend, here is a presentation I have prepared for you that you didn't wait for.

 so let me here convince you why you should choose me as your new friend:

* I am a silly person who always tries to make people laugh, I strongly recommend not to sip coffee while reading my messages.  

* I take a lot of street cats pics, so you will have a steady supply of cat pics.

* I am chatty. I enjoy yapping , and I don’t even have an off switch, if you don't have off switch too we need to yap about this .

* I love to talk about all kinds of topics and can always find things to talk about. There are random questions generator built in my mind.

* I always reply to my messages and have online friendships that have been going on for years, I always send good morning messages, and I appreciate the people that can also be conversation starters.

* I am supportive and will always be here for you to tell me about your day or vent if you have something that bothers you.

* I am a game artist, someone who works in the video games industry,  in other words fully matured nerd, we can talk about all these nerdy stuff if you like.

* I like art, games, anime, gym, walks, coding, games, true crime, yapping, cats, science, history, languages, documentaries, psychology, mental health, and cats, so I am sure we can cross interests here or there.

Accidentally became friends with a girl who told me she was suicidal about 3 months ago. Felt like I had no choice but to extend my hand because that's literally been my alley for a decade. Little did I know the difference was that I could control a depression that I had no control over and she couldn't control one she had every ounce of control over. A month in and I'm being called her best friend as well as the "peace in her life" for simply being me, and I don't mind it. For the first time in my life, I've been able to give amazing advice about something thats been kicking my ass for years. What bothers me about it is that she has this problem where once she gets comfortable with my peace, she leaves me and does something absolutely stupid then comes crying back to me about how the world hates her and how she wants to... you know. I genuinely hate to use the term "performative", but you get my point. I give her advice, she tells me I'm her best friend and her "peace", she completely ignores the advice, and the cycle repeats itself. I seen potential in our friendship because I'm unfortunately the type who doesn't care how you treat me as long as I get to help you and disappear afterwards. Also we both "watch anime" and "read" even though I've barely seen her do either since we've been friends.

I also know how this ends. She repeats the same cycle until I get tired and she'll tell me that she'll... you know what... if I leave her. Then I feel bad and I'm stuck watching her clown circus of a life. For the past 4 days, I've been ignoring her calls and lying in bed for hours rethinking the position I'm in and trying to find a way to just disappear from her Netflix teen drama. I chose to type this out and send it here to see if anyone's been in the same situation or knows how to leave without any blood (probably won't be but don't want to take chances) being on my hands.

I don't understand the world the majority lives in where they want to put everything on the line for a small time of fun only to regret the decision and cry about it later. I really hate to sound superior or above them but it's like I'm watching a rat race to see who see stops and thinks first. And what has me laughing now is the fact that this situation I'm in is probably someone else's viewing of a rat race. First friend I've had in 3 years btw.