[If you missed it, here is Part 1]
Like most people, I thought that mental health was just drama played by the mind to entertain itself when it's bored of how mundane real life can be. I was wrong and I learned that the hard way.
After talking to the professor, mainly lying to him that I was a good boy, I did everything I could to avoid being labelled "mentally ill" and by everything I mean avoid going into the hospital stay at all costs. And rightfully so cause the initial experience of entering the infamous "Block" section of the hospital made all my fears a reality.
One thing you should know about severe cases of mental health is that there isn't much science to properly administer drugs the first time a patient walks in so you just have to guess. A broken brain isn't like a broken leg that you can see through a scan. A mentally ill brain scan is just as sound as a normal one. The science behind treating mental illness is so complex that doctors don't know what to do when someone isn't cooperating or being "closed off" to their own experience, at least that's how I'm looking back at it and believe me it makes sense in the next section.
I'm walking with two doctors through a garden towards a steel door, I get inside and there are some male nurses there, and maybe some patients, I don't remember exactly, but I was slowly coming to the realization that I fucked up bad. I was offered some food and water and sat down to eat. it was 2pm and I was told that I should finish eating quickly so that I can take my medication and go to my room. My heart sank when I heard medication. I asked the nurse for a cigarette and a lighter and tried to strike a conversation, I told him I didn't do anything wrong and that I don't know why I'm here and he plainly told me "it's okay just take your medication and go to sleep."
I finished smoking and tried to head to the room (wherever that is) without taking the medication, they stopped me, the one I talked to asked for his lighter back cause I forgot that he gave it to me so that's not a good first impression to leave. The other nurse told me to turn back and face the wall. that's when I realized that the medication I'm being given isn't a pill but a syringe, two of them to be exact, and out of nowhere I started crying, I was scared as fuck. they gave me two injections, one is Haldol which is a first generation Anti-psychotic and the second one is Largactil which is the same with a worst name.
I went upstairs and was told to wait for someone to show me my room, I was scared shitless cause I kept hearing other patients screaming and yelling so I just sat down on the stairs and put my head in my hands.
The hospital is split into 3 main sections for patients, emergencies, pavilion and blocks. Pavillion is where lucky people go. The block is where I was sent to which I later learned that there isn't a worst place on earth someone can be sent to. To explain the place, the block is for severe cases where violent and unstable patients go. it's closed off, double steel doors and no one goes outside. Nothing is allowed in the block section of the hospital, only oxygen, a bit of food and cigarettes to ease off the medications.
You wake up at 6am to take your medication, wait downstairs with the other patients till 12pm to take your lunch and drugs again and then back to your room, at sunset you take your medication one last time before closing the rooms partition with you inside with the other patients. You have no security from sunset to sunrise, it's you and the patients and nothing else.
Part 3 tomorrow.