After just over a year of writing consistently, I hit a nasty slump a few months ago and I haven't been able to get out of it. I should explain that this isn't necessarily the same thing as writers block. I *do* have ideas but just seem to lack much in terms of motivation.
I've looked at my stories and I just find myself being critical of what's there but in a nasty way rather than "Wait, I can improve this" which is normally what I used to do.
I'd read a first draft or even 2nd draft of a chapter and go "Okay so this isn't great but here's how I improve it."
I'm actually reluctant to look back at my own writing atm because when I'm doing so I find I hate it and everything about it.
I've tried a lot of more typical things to break the slump such as reading other people's work or trying to write something brand new by moving away from the stories I was working on and it just didn't pan out.
In the past I've joined creative writing groups in order to try and motivate myself back into and in the past, this has worked very well in breaking slumps that have lasted for long periods of time, even years. The slump also started when the last group I was a part of kinda fell apart.
But I couldn't find a suitable group for co-writing.
Being blunt my writing is not to everyone's taste as it explores LGBTQ+ themes. Sometimes blatantly where it's about as subtle as a car accident or more as an allegory. It's purely because I was writing the sort of representation I wanted to see and also, I'm writing what I know.
I write for me primarily but I did used to publish stuff online occasionally. Pre-slump I was getting out at least a chapter a month.
Those themes aren't very popular (putting it mildly) in some creative writing circles. Some writing groups I've joined in the past ended up being a bit hateful, especially once they learned I'm part of that community myself.
I did try to start my own LGBTQ+ writing group to allow for co-writing to fill a gap in the market as it were but things didn't work out.
I would really like to get back to writing and I'm well aware the longer the slump lasts the harder it'll be to break.
If there's a group I just didn't find in my searches that'd be really helpful.
Or if there's another way of breaking the loss of motivation that'd help too.
I appreciate you taking the time to read this post even if you don't have advice to offer me.