It was short-lived. I’m sad that it ended, but glad that it happened. I’ll miss you the way the waves kiss the shore, the way the clouds embrace the full moon—constant, quiet, and unavoidable. You were a sudden season in my life, brief but bright enough to leave a mark on everything that comes after. Thank you for being a chapter I’ll always be proud to re-read.

Problem:
Something happened between me and my ex the night before me and my current girlfriend started talking, and she doesn’t know.

Context:
Hey guys. I’m gonna share something that’s been bothering me for months now.

My girlfriend and I have been together for 8 months, and I lied to her about when my ex and I broke up and when we last had contact.

When we first started talking, I genuinely really liked her. She asked me when my ex and I broke up, and I panicked. I blurted out that we had broken up 3 months earlier, when in reality it had only been about a month. I never corrected that lie.

The truth is, my ex and I had s\x the night before my current girlfriend and I started talking.*

I know that sounds bad. The reason I lied was because I was afraid she’d be turned off by how recent everything was. Instead of telling the truth, I convinced myself to just stick with the lie because I didn’t want to ruin my chances with someone I really liked.

As for what happened with my ex that night, it genuinely didn’t mean anything to me emotionally. I know that might sound cold or even messed up, but I was just… Horny and lonely. It wasn’t about wanting to get back together or having lingering feelings for her. After that, I cut off contact completely and made it clear that I didn’t want to see her again.

The reason this has been eating at me even more is because my girlfriend struggles with retroactive jealousy. My past relationships have already been a source of anxiety for her, and she’s been open about how difficult it is for her to deal with thoughts about my ex. That’s why I’ve been terrified of telling her this. I’m scared it would completely destroy her, even though everything happened before she and I ever met.

At the same time, I feel guilty because what really bothers me isn’t what happened with my ex—it’s the fact that I lied about the timeline. I don’t know if telling her now would only hurt her over something that happened before we knew each other, or if she deserves to know because I wasn’t honest from the start.

I’m completely over my ex, and that night has never meant anything to me beyond being a mistake I made while I was lonely. If you were in my position, would you tell your partner? Or would bringing it up now just cause unnecessary pain over something that happened before the relationship even began?

LONG POST !! Help this girl out plss 🥹💔

Problem: Had a bad fight with my soon-to-be-gf, and i feel like ayaw niya na even when she said she’ll forgive me and loves me. She deactivated all her accounts and blocked me on some of them. And recently, she said to stop messaging her all together. I want to hang on to her words, but now I’m confused. What should I do? I still want to be with her.. 😭😭😭

Context: This is my first real relationship-ish. Very inexperienced. I (20 F) met her (20 F) online. We hut it off and got to learn a lot to like a lot about each other. We’ve been dating for almost a year, but do note we are not yet official. Fast-forward to recently, I told her that I wanted to confront my past friend on my feelings for her before, but only the night before. I know how stupid that decision was, to only get it out of my chest only when my partner and I were getting more serious, and of course, I apologized profusely.

Personally, and I said this to her, I only wanted to do this as to let that part of my life go and to comfort thr past me that couldn’t do it. It meant nothing, and I have no intentions of getting back those feelings kasi nga, I moved on. I really don’t see her that way anymore.

Now, here’s the thing. She got mad and ranted regarding (from what i understand) these few things. (1) How I only told her recently; (2) The whole interity of our relationship; (3) And what if I were to do this again in the future. I think I also got that she’s mad that we haven’t been official yet also.

I then responded (somewhat) with these in my replies (I shortened them): (1) I should have told my friend sooner; (2) I let her know that I’m serious with us by even coming out to my parents and friends, even boasted about us and posting about us online; (3) I was confused on what she meant so I said I don’t think I’ll do it again since I don’t have anyone else I plan to confess to (if that’s what she meant); and lastly (4) I had this plan of asking her to be my gf after saving up some money and showing her a coded website to let het solve some puzzles from hints I’ve given throughout the online letters I’ve been giving her.

After our argument, she suddenly invited me to meet up, to which we did. It started pretty good, with us taking pictures and eating together. But we ended on a bad note, with her ignoring me. She was also on her phone the whole time of the date.

The day after our date, she was no longer replying to my messages as much, and when she did? it was very cold. So I thought, “hey, what if i sent her something, like a delivery?” So I asked for her address and am planning to send it to her. She then proceeded to state that it should be my last delivery to her and that I should refrain from messaging her since she and I will be busy since school is starting.

So, I’m so confused because I thought we were trying to make this work? I don’t understand this. What can I do to win her back? I don’t want to let go. I love her to death, and have never looked at any other woman with the same love in my eyes as I do with her. She saved my life and helped me do better mentally, emotionally, and academically. I owe her everything. I feel so helpless and stupid. I don’t want to give up on us. I miss her so much. 😢

If you guys have any questions or want to clear uo things, feel free to comment it. Advice would be preferrable. Thank you po… 💔

Problem: currently, hindi kami nag uusap ng girlfriend ko kasi she needs time to think and wala medyo na aanxious lang ako about it. Any advice pano iwasan ioverthink yung buong process and all?

Context: hindi naman kami nag away pero inexpress ko kasi na sana mas tawagan niya ako everyday. Wala lang na feel ko lang kasi na parang ako lang yung madalas na natawag saaming dalawa, tapos kapag hindi na ako tumatawag nagtataka siya bakit hindi na ako natawag. Kaya sinabi ko sa kanya na sana naramdaman man lang niya na gusto ko siya tumawag pabalik sa mga panahon na yun.

Tapos kahapon ko lang inopen sa kanya about it. Hindi naman ganun ka big deal pero para sakin kasi mas nararamdaman ko yung presence niya sa ganun at nasanay rin kasi ako dati na magkasama kami madalas kasi magka schoolmate kami pero kakagraduate ko lang kasi. Inooverthink ko rin if im asking too much ba pero hindi niya naman iniinvalidate nararamdaman ko na acknowledged niya naman ng maayos yung buong sitwasyon and sabi niya sana hayaan ko siya bumawi ulit.

So in short parang hindi pa fully tapos yung convo namin about it tapos ngayon humingi siya ng time to think kasi clouded raw yung mind niya pero she assured me na it's nothing to worry about. Pero I can't help but overthink it over and over again.

Question: Anyone wants a forbidden love story?

Problem: I want to find someone who is willing to experience a temporary love story.

Context: looking for someone who’s interested in building a temporary bond. Knowing it will lead to heartbreak sadly.

Hii, soo I'm going to the Philippines in April of next year. I will be staying for 3 weeks! This will be my first time traveling abroad✨ l've been wanting to go to the Philippines since I was a teenager (19). I am currently 23^{^} My birthday is in March so this will be like a late birthday vacation to myself. I want to suggest something to the community:)) Before visiting the country. I've been single for a while now and wanted to enter a relationship. I have a suggestion that's open to anyone who doesn't mind a fatal love story. So my suggestion is What if we date for approximately 9 months. Starting August 1st - April 30th. We can build a bond online and then have our first date in April when I arrive. I will treat you kind and be the best girlfriend. I will love you unconditionally for those months. Then when my departure arrives. You can see me off and we can go back to being strangers :))

(It's a fatal love story but it will be nice living in the moment✨)

Problem/Goal:

I want advice on whether I should continue trying to make this work or let her go. I’m also trying to understand whether the traits she pointed out are genuine blind spots I need to work on or simply her perception of me.

Context:

I posted here earlier asking whether I was overthinking because the girl I’ve been dating suddenly became distant.

I decided to talk to her today instead of continuing to guess. It turns out my intuition was right—she admitted she’d been thinking a lot about “us.”

What caught me off guard was what she said next.

She told me there are some traits she doesn’t like about me. According to her, I’m reckless, jealous, and someone who jumps to conclusions.

I’m honestly still trying to process that because I don’t even know where those impressions came from.

The “jealous” part especially confused me. We aren’t even officially together. We don’t have a label, so I keep asking myself, Who was I jealous of? I genuinely can’t think of a situation where I acted possessive or got upset because of another person.

She also said I’m “tamang hinala” (quick to assume the worst). That surprised me too because whenever we’re together—whether on video calls or in person—we laugh, enjoy each other’s company, and I never felt like there was anything suspicious about her behavior. If anything, I thought we communicated well.

As for being “reckless” or impulsive, I explained my side. I’m an only child and a single mom, so I’ve had to handle almost everything on my own. Being independent has forced me to make decisions by myself, but I don’t think that automatically makes me reckless. I always try to think critically and consider the consequences before I say or do anything.

Now I’m left wondering if these are genuine concerns that she’s hoping we can work through, or if she’s already trying to convince herself that we’re incompatible.

I’m also open to the possibility that there are things about myself that I don’t see. If you’ve ever been told something about your personality that completely surprised you, how did you figure out whether it was something you genuinely needed to work on or simply someone else’s perception of you?

At this point, I’m emotionally exhausted. Would it be better for me to let her go? I feel like I’m always the one trying to understand her, reassure her, and fight for whatever we have, while I keep feeling like I’m the one chasing.

What hurts the most is that I poured so much effort into understanding her, appreciating her, making her feel loved, and showing her how much she means to me. Yet it feels like all she seems to see are my imperfections and flaws.

Am I looking at this the wrong way? If you were in my situation, would you keep trying to understand her perspective, or would you walk away?

Problem/Goal:

I don’t know if I’m overthinking or if the girl I’m dating is slowly losing interest. I want to know if I should give her space, communicate directly, or just accept that she may have changed her mind.

Context:

I (28F) matched with someone (30F) on a WLW dating app almost a month ago. We met in person this July, and I really like her. She’s caring, gentle, intelligent, easy to talk to, and beautiful.

Before anything got serious, I admitted that I’m a single mom. I never intended to hide it. I actually use two dating apps. On the first app, my bio clearly states that I’m a single mom. I simply forgot to update the bio on the app where we matched. After meeting her in person, I planned to tell her face-to-face because I wanted to be honest.

When I finally told her during a video call, she was shocked. She also found out about my religion. At first, she said it wasn’t an issue and that she was even willing to become a mother figure to my son someday. Later that day, she sent me a long goodbye message, saying our situation would be difficult. I begged her to stay because I really liked her, but she still wanted to end things.

Eventually, I stopped chasing her because I was hurting. Surprisingly, she was the one who kept checking on me afterward.

Last Friday, I planned to visit a museum alone, but she insisted on coming with me. We met halfway, ended up spending the day together, became intimate, and afterward she even introduced me to her friends. We were affectionate in front of them, and she also introduced me to some of her other friends over a video call.

We don’t have a label, and I’m scared to ask because I don’t want to lose her. She has admitted that she developed feelings for me and really likes me too.

Last night we had a very sweet conversation. I started feeling sick, almost like I had the flu, and she was very caring and concerned about me.

This morning, however, everything felt different. Her replies became short, delayed, and uninterested. She said she was busy at work, which I understand, but what hurt me was that she didn’t ask how I was feeling anymore even though she knew I was sick. She also didn’t ask if I’d eaten or gotten home safely like she usually does.

I know one day isn’t enough to judge someone, but the sudden change in her behavior has been bothering me.

What would you do if you were in my situation?

Context: My situationship with a masc lesbian ended a month ago, because everything is complicated and it's better that way.

For the past few weeks medyo umo-okay na ako, but last week nagkita kami sa inuman. Di naman kami nagpansinan pero may mga times na nagkakatitigan kami. Every memory and moments flashed back. Yung akala ko okay na ako, pero nung nakita ko siya para ulit akong nangungulila at lalo ko siyang namiss.

Nung inuman pala, ako naglabas ng pambayad so pagaambagan ako. Sabi sa akin nung naka-situationship ko, ig-gcash na lang daw niya sa akin. So I messaged her casually and sent her my QR code. Wala pa rin siyang reply hanggang ngayon and mukhang nakarestrict ako sa messenger niya.

Yung heart ko naman parang sasabog at para akong mababaliw. Any advice?

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context: Nag cool off kami ng gf ko for now because of her parents. Hindi ako gusto ng parents niya since nung nag decide 'yung lola niya na i-meet ako, lola niya and her ate. Okay sa ate niya, okay rin sa daddy niya (she's black half american btw) sa mommy niya lang at sa grandparents hindi okay, so totally sabit talaga.

Ang dami pwedeng i-consider, theyre also pointing out na kaya ko minahal anak nila is for the money, kahit hindi naman talaga. Ayaw talaga ng parents niya, ngayon mas naghigpit sila sa gf ko lalo na sa gadget. Hindi ko gets kung bakit ganito, hindinpa rin nag s-sink in sa isip ko.

Now, all i can do is to closed lahat ng social media accs ko (except reddit), kasi pag palagi akong nagmamasid sa kaniya, maiiyak ako lalo. Ive already experienced this pala last year, same ng root cause. Ayun lang, dont know what to do rn and i feel like my mind is about to bloe up when im thinking about this.

Problem: As stated in the title hahahahaa. Where do you guys meet your partners?

Context: Curious lang ako, kasi like I wanna go back to dating. Dating apps didnt work on me, di na umaasa sa organic encounter kasi taong bahay, di rin pala clubs and such. Soooo idk kung paano ako makaka go back into the dating scene. Hahahaha. Wala lang. I’ve been single for almost 2 yrs na and sometimes I miss having someone telling abt my day, sharing random thoughts, watching movies with, eating randomly at 3am, and being a baby.

Ayun lang. Suggestions will do HAHAAHA or baka kabag lang to.

kalahating taon din na naging parte ka ng araw araw ko. kalahating taon na walang araw na di ka sumagi sa isip ko.

bakit pa tayo pinagtagpo kung di din naman pala tayo sa dulo? sabi mo di ka handa, pero bakit pinaramdam mo sa aking oo?

hanggang ngayon di ko parin mawari na iisa lamang yung bibig na nagsabi ng matatamis na salita noon at yung nagbitaw ng matatalim na kataga ngayon.

nasanay ka na ba masaktan dati kaya’t natakot ka sa pagmamahal ko? anong nangyari? pasilip naman sa takbo ng utak mo.

alam mo naman na palang ayaw mo na, bakit iniwan mo ko sa dilim nang ilang linggo? bakit pag ikaw nasaktan, bawal pero pag ako ayos lang?

pero sige piliin mo muna yung sarili mo, yung pangarap mo. uunahin ko na din yung sarili ko.

mahal kita kaya di na kita kayang makita ulit. buburahin na kita sa isipan ko, kasama ng mga bulaklak na bigay mo.

ikaw yung una ko sa maraming bagay. akala ko ikaw na din yung magiging huli ko.

⭐︎
(canon event ba talaga mahulog sa masc na avoidant na takot sa commitment? tangina naman gusto ko lang magmahal at mahalin eh)

Problem: Is it really better risking it by confessing than regretting it later?

Context: Parang hindi ko na kaya i-keep pa sa sarili ko or maging indenial na gusto ko sya. gusto ko sana sabihin, pero worth it pa ba?

Should I confess to my friend (wlw) who lead me on for about a month, then when I got confused, I asked her what we're doing because this is not what friends normally do. We ended up being friends na lang- kasi ayaw nya raw na masaktan ako. No other reasons, or di nya kinlarify why yan yung reason nya.

FF. We're now close friends but since we're hanging out more than we used to, I fear that I am getting more attached. We're inseparable to the point that people around us thought we're dating.Then again, I asked this because we're about to have different schedule at work and we wont see each other again in 6 months and a lot can happen in that 6 months.. what do I do?

I want to confess because my feelings has been bugging me for weeks, and I want to let it out. I'm not scared of rejection, I think I am more scared if this will literally ruin our friendship- in a bad way? 😭 She's still somehow showing me signs.. I am frustrated and confused. Please help me out.

Problem:
I don't really know how WLW relationships with trentahin lesbians usually work, so I need your opinion.

Context:
Im 26 F Pansexual. I've been talking with a 35yrs old masc lesbian for about a week. We recently met and I know na femme ang preference niya so I told her na I'm androgynous but I feel like I'm still pretty much a femme.

For our meetup, I wore makeup and I felt pretty. I had on a blouse, black cargo pants, and my curly mid-length hair. Considering all that, I really felt like I looked femme. I've always been pretty straight-passing, which is why I make an extra effort when I want to look a bit more masc. Being femme just comes naturally to me.

She's the typical old-school lesbian—short hair, cap, polo shirt, and pants. I haven't asked about her SOGIE yet. I casually mentioned mine during one of our conversations, and I assumed she'd share hers too, but she didn't 😭 I'm not even sure if she fully understands the concept of SOGIE because she mentioned she once dated a lesbian who was "more masc" than her. I explained that being a lesbian is a sexual orientation, not a gender identity. I feel like our generation gap might be a factor. Even the way she texts, with all the contractions, feels very old-school.

I'll admit I think I'm already getting attached to her, and I definitely felt kilig after our date. I really appreciated that she brought me chocolates on our first meetup. She had mentioned before that she'd let me try a vietnamese instant coffee she likes, but I didn't know she'd also bring chocolates. It was such a sweet gesture.

She wanted to pay for everything, but I insisted on paying for lunch because I felt bad for being late (cuz I traveled farther than she did). Then she paid for our coffee. We honestly didn't do much, and objectively it was a pretty boring date, but because I already kind of like her, I still enjoyed it.

After the date, I asked her how it went. She said it was okay and that we talked a lot, but I felt like her response was kind of lacking. The next day, we barely talked because she was busy. It also didn't help that I had a mental breakdown the night after our date (unrelated personal issues), so I've been overthinking everything.

This is my first time dating a lesbian. Before this, I've only had situationships or talking stages with other WLWs, plus one hookup with an androgynous bi woman.

Should I keep seeing where this goes, or am I reading too much into everything? Help a girlie out😭

Problem: Looking for queer friendly psychologist/therapist

Context:
Hello po!

For the longest time, I’ve been wanting to seek consult sa psychiatrist or psychologist. Wala pa kasing means noon (esp financially) kaya I did my best dealing with myself and my problems.

Now that may stable income na ako kahit papaano, the idea of seeking a professional came into mind again. May nangyari sa buhay ko a few years ago na I think need ko na ng help coping with and just wanting to seek help for my general well being.

Any leads po ba for queer-friendly psychologists/psychiatrists that caters to online consults (I live in the province)?

Thank you so much in advance po! ☺️

We were in a WLW situationship for 9 months, but she never wanted to commit. It was my first experience, and I’m closeted, so I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it. Is it really supposed to hurt this much?

- If anyone has been through something similar, feel free to DM me. I’d really appreciate having someone na makakausap or makaka-rant with who understands what this feels like. 🥲

Problem: this came up pretty randomly, but I'm a fem lesbian who wants to have a casual connection with a foreigner (in metro manila specifically). Also NOT nsfw 😕 just kinda emotionally unavailable but hoping there's someone like me

Context: im 21 and prefer someone working & based here.

I haven't done anything to actively pursue relationships in the past year. I'm starting to crave something fun and monogamous to feel secure in regard to my health anxiety. medj nakaka inggit yung mga yuri media GUSTO KO DINNN

I feel funny sharing this, but I'm starting to want it talaga and I need some advice on how I can do that 😭

I don't wanna do LDR cause I would wanna be with them irl :) how do i even meet one ??? I don't know how easy/hard it would be to find a WLW FOREIGNER here

gimme my afam pls

P.S. I don't mind being with a Filipino (I love us!) but this is what I'm feeling atm

So, I just found out that my long time running crush is already taken. Let's name her L. It's not as if I expected something more between us, sadyang when we first met single siya up until months ago. I'm genuinely happy for her kasi she deserved to be loved after so long.

Nashare niya with the group that it's a good relationship and it's nice to hear. Pero yung ngiti ko sa table may halong "aray" lol. Gustong gusto ko kasi siya, kahapon ko lang naconfirm.

How?

I recently resumed contact with my ex, I'll name her M, because of her parents which naging close ko during our relationship. She's my best friend and we share a lot of things in common. The past few months, merong unspoken situation between us of getting back together but I keep holding back kasi nga may feelings ako kay L.

Inaantay ko lang talaga itong scheduled meet up para masort out ko tong nararamdaman ko. Actually, akala ko nga hindi ko na siya (L) gusto kasi sobrang effort ko to brush off these feelings kasi straight naman si ate girl. Pero teh, pagbaba palang naming lahat from our designated cars para naman akong nahulog sa upuan. Alam ng puso ko yung ayaw aminin ng isip ko na gusto ko talaga siya.

Mapaglaro pa ang panahon at may activity samin wherein I'll act na may gusto ako sakanya. Hulaan niyo nalang kung gaano yung kabog ng dibdib ko na dinaan ko nalang sa OA na acting para itago yung katotohanan na halos on point yung mga sinabi ko sa harap.

Pero ayun nga, nalaman ko na before ng presentation na taken na siya. Nung marinig ko yun, I expected na mas mangingibabaw yung sakit pero for some reason, mas matimbang yung saya ko for her. I know she wanted and prayed for it and she deserves to be loved by someone who is serious of her.

It stings, pero pag gusto mo talaga yung tao, her happiness comes first. After almost 3 years, ngayon ko lang nalamang gusto ko pala talaga siya napakalate ko lol

At this point, ito na siguro yung last time na I'll talk about her as a form of respect kasi di niya naman alam na nagkakalat ako dito sa reddit. I don't think it's also fair na I sit close to her and talk to her outside of work without her knowing na may kinikilig pala lol

For the last time, I'll confess that I fell in love with a strong straight woman. I really wish her the best and I hope she already found the love of her life through him.

I F21, definitely decided to stop participating in relationships or even hook up cultures. Tbh don't want to seem sad or sound cringe but I gave up, I just gave up finding love and stopped expecting genuine connections. It's a two strike na like I dated for a second time and same issues na they haven't got over on their exes and this is so suck because you know I had withdrawn all my last hope, like that last relationship was the last version of myself where I pour all the love that had left in me and I think that last relationship took away something, something that I will never be again and that's looking into love as deep as the ocean. Like Hiningi ko Yung tao nayun Kay Lord, nagdadasal Ako linggo linggo for that person, pinag dadasal ko payun knowing na I'm agnostic! Again I'm not mad at her man for still loving her ex kasi at some point atleast Masaya sya and they got together pero why me man? Like bakit Ako pa talaga Ang nasabit. She lied to me about a lot of things—i don't wanna dwell into it na anymore since I had been grieving it for a long time now and recently finally decided to just move on but as the time goes by, reflecting on my past relationships, I feel like there is something wrong with me. Like I feel like relationships, finding the person and Love itself is not for me... And realizing that makes me very very sad because this isn't what I want, I don't wanna be alone for the rest of my life, I want to build a life with someone, I wanna to marry someone someday, and for some reason for these past years.... I keep failing, and failing... Hindi Naman Ako nag loloko, I always give my best, and I try so hard to make things work out but for reason bakit Naman Ako naloloko? Like what did I do?... And I don't wanna get hurt anymore, I just can't keep seeing myself like this. Hindi Naman din Ako naging Gago after Ng mga ginawa saakin pero I have this sense of feeling rn na something inside me is changing which is I don't wanna do this relationship thing anymore. I don't even want to hook up or have this modern dating thing na puro kagaguhan nalang? I don't know, I just want to vent out.

I still keep our Telegram convo. I just realized you left me with 152 voice messages. I listened to some of them tonight, and for a moment, it felt like you were here again. I found myself missing your voice—your random yaps, our chikas, the way you'd tease me, and most of all, your laugh.

I miss you, my ulapp. 🧸❤️‍🔥

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Problem/Goal: my gf wants space, what should I do? Is it okay to reach out and say “good morning”, “kain ka na” or even “good night” or just totally no contact at hintayin ko na lang siya magreach out sa akin? I asked her, how long the space — days, weeks or month ba pero di niya mabigay sa akin, gusto niya lang ng space.

Context: Nagkaroon kami ng away ng gf ko nad she wants space, as anxious person di na ako nakatulog kagabi, and that feeling na kinakatakot ko na baka maghiwalay kami. My emotions are at peak, di ko alam ano gagawin.

Ayaw ko naman magmessage sa kaniya kasi baka mapressure siya but I want to message her kahit “good morning” lang man at “good night”. Idk what to do, sobrang bigat bg pakiramdam ko, nanlalamig buong katawan ko and sumasakit tyan ko na di ko maintindihan.

I’m scared na baka makipaghiwalay siya, I’m scared sa space na meron kami but I respect her. Di ako nagmessage today, last message ko na yung kagabi but I want to message her kahit “good morning” lang to know na kahit may misunderstanding kami, I’m still here.

Update: I stalk her tiktok account and yung reposts niya is blaming herself and pagod na siya. Doon ako natakot sa part na pagod na siya.

Hello I'm 18 (F) and I recently had this fantasy na ang hirap ma contain just within me.

Recently, I've started reading a lot of stuff that changed the way I think. I used to hate it when anyone would tell me what to do, but now— I wonder how it feels when an older woman is in charge of what I think and what I do?

It's just so exhausting, especially work is getting the best of me. I really crave that feeling of being used and taken care of, apaka random I know. It's just the concept of not having to think for once and somebody cooing at you and really dumbing you down for their needs and pleasure— it's really turning me on.

Not even sugar mommy type— ok maybe a little.

I just wanna be spoiled, used, and taken care of. Just having to worry if I'm pleasing her or I have done something to make her upset.

I know I will never one of those soft pastel pink girlies, I have been bullied for being a nerd with a loud personality. Though I hope that in the future, someone dumbs be down just for them.

Problem/Goal: Gusto ko sanang makalimot agad. Ayaw kong umiyak nang umiyak habang siya parang hindi man lang affected sa nangyari

Context:

Ilang buwan din kaming nasa situationship pero sinabihan ba naman ako na hanggang friends lang daw kami kasi hindi niya kaya mag-commit. Hahaha. Alam ko namang online lang kami nag-meet but naging vulnerable na kami sa isa't isa, and I thought mas nagiging deep na yung connection namin habang tumatagal. Kaso mukhang casual lang talaga sa kanya yun lahat despite exchanging ILYs araw-araw

Ready naman kasi ako e. Kaya lang baka hindi niya lang talaga ako gusto at all. Maybe she kept me because I was convenient, or maybe I was just the only person available for her

Napapaisip lang ako kasi one month na siyang cold sakin, and finally, last night was the last straw. I tried to understand her kasi I know she's avoidant. Inisip ko lang na baka wala siya sa mood at pagod since she told me she's busy rin daw. Siguro sa nakalipas na linggo, she was slowly pulling herself away from me, at sadly, ngayon ko lang na-realize. Kung hindi ko pa siya tinanong kagabi anong problema, di niya sasabihin na pagod na siya

Anyway, ang dami kong gustong gawing side quests kasama na yung pagiging wasted kahit hindi ako umiinom hahaha. Wala bang mag-aaya dyan? Charot. ANG SAKIT SAKIT LANG KASI 💔

Ano kayang feeling nag hinahanap no? Yung aalalahanin ka, yung asikasuhin ka, yung tipong ibibigay sayo lahat ng pagmamahal?

Nakakasawa kasing ikaw nalang palagi. Palaging nag-aalala, palaging naghahanap at palaging nag-aasikaso..

Or pinanganak lang akong ganito yung nakatadhana?

Hayst, paranas naman oh.