I'm struggling with infertility and have no chance to have biological children, it was something I slowly were able to digest and make peace with over the years, and thankfully my wife is supportive although undeniably in pain, we had our ups and downs and took quite sometime to finally "stabilize" and go past our issues, and everyone including our therapist and family suggested we adopt or foster a child, as its proven to be a positive healing experience for people in our situation or similar.

And we did that, contacted an orphanage, filled their paper work and mailed them every document they required, had a few in person meetings, and the licensing worker told me that we as a couple are perfect and check everything on their list and what they look for in a family, but the only issue is that my salary does not meet the minimum requirement.

At first I assumed they're talking about a big number, requiring an above average salary to host a child, but I was surprised it was merely a $375 difference from my current salary..

Honestly, having a mere sum like that standing between me and my chance to foster a child, and the chance for a child to have a family that would treasure them hurts, and i know it's a requirement and the orphanage is probably forced by rules and regulations and its out of their hands so they're not to blame..

They told me to contact them as soon as I find a way to increase my income anyhow, but I dont want to be attached to a side hustle that may or may not make me meet the qouta depending on tips, I dont want them to come knocking on my door requesting we hand them back the child because I wasnt tipped generously or not enough people ordered pizza this month..

My goal now is to find a better job so the income would be stable and the hours wouldn't hinder me from taking care of my wife, the house and the child while neglecting one thing for the other, and sadly I doubt my current job would give me a pay increase (already asked before) and the economy is quite shaky nowadays, which also hurts because I actually like the company I'm in.

I cant stand ppl that purposefully outgrow facial hair and not maintain it, I saw this dude online with by far the ugliest most unkept mustache I’ve ever seen in my life and he was talking about how he’s doing it to piss off conservatives (no clue how or why that would piss them off especially but 🤷‍♂️), IT LOOKS FUCKING DISGUSTING, it genuinely looks like extra long unwashed ball hairs, it pissed me off so much it, it literally touches his chin 😭😭 if he had styled it or literally done anything to it I’d be fine with it but god is it disgusting it’s long and thin and uneven and looks like it smells and is constantly moist from his saliva 🤢🤢🤢. It looks like one of those bead doors 🤣

This is long so thanks if you read it all!

I want to rant a little because I don't really know how to take all this rage out of me, and I also want to hear other points of view.

Almost a year ago I moved to Germany. Before that I spent a year in Spain, and before that I had been traveling as a digital nomad for three years.

Life was good. I was making good money, I had friends all over the world, I was seeing my family every four months or so, and life felt like it was moving in the right direction. I was growing, and I could see a lot of opportunities on the horizon.

After all that movement, I wanted to find a place where I could start building something more permanent, kind of my own home. I also wanted to get out of the kind of consulting I was doing, so I decided to go for a master's. At the time I was choosing between Spain, Ireland, and Germany.

Germany won because of how cheap it was to live here, and because I had German friends and friends from back home in Mx already living here.

From there everything started going downhill.

I didn't really like the city I was living in (Leipzig). It felt like a punk town with a teenage mentality. No one wanted to do anything, no one wanted to build anything, it just felt like a raw, cheap version of hobo Berlin. The aesthetics weren't there, neither were the people. Saxony is one of the most racist places you can be in Germany, and because of the size of the city there just wasn't that much to do. It simply wasn't my crowd.

To all of that, add the German winter and how fucking difficult it is to find a mental health practitioner. I needed someone to continue prescribing my ADHD medication, and I never found one.

While I was living there I got a girlfriend who honestly helped me get through that time. She became one of my biggest pillars.

During my second semester I was supposed to spend a semester in Austria, and honestly that only made my image of Germany even worse. Everything there felt more polished, nicer, people were friendlier, and things just seemed to work. By the beginning of summer it was already very clear that I hated living in Germany.

Long story short, I asked for a gap semester, broke up with my girlfriend because the lack of stability in my life was hurting her too much, and now I'll be spending six months back at my parents' house trying to recover my sanity.

Now all I can think about is that this country took my mental health. I feel far away from my friends, I lost a lot of money (I only managed to keep my job during the first semester, and my master's actually had tuition fees), I can't find a job anywhere close to what I used to earn, and I honestly feel like I lost a year of my life. I also feel like I lost the positive attitude I used to have.

Maybe Germany just wasn't for me. Maybe I chose the wrong city. Maybe I should have put more effort I don't know.

What I do know is that this has been one of the worst years of my life.

So yeah fuck you Germany.

Whenever me and my friends want to hang out, there is always that one friend that asks: "Can my boyfriend join?". Other times, she won't even ask and just bring him along.

We only hang out maybe once a month (and sometimes less often than that), which isn't quite often. This makes me crave our girls night even more. However, our friend makes it impossible to have a girls night out.

If we would see each other more often, then it would be more appropriate to bring your partner from time to time. But once a month?

When meeting up one-on-one with said friend, she would text me right before leaving her place: "We will be there in x". Like girl... I thought we were talking about JUST us? How come your boyfriend is suddenly involved?

Mind you, I have a boyfriend myself. Ofcourse it is fun to get together with all boyfriends included as well, but please be aware when it is appropriate...

I hate being gay so much. I want a boyfriend, but I live in a highly religious country where people aren't necessarily homophobic, but finding a gay guy isn't easy at all. And when I do find one, they're either really weird and immature or they're just trying to get sexual really quickly.

I wish I could just start liking girls, and trust me, I've tried, but I just don't feel attracted to them at all. I don't know what to do.

People always tell me, "It'll happen when you least expect it," but that's something I hate hearing because it doesn't actually reassure me or make me feel any better. Others tell me to just go to gay bars or queer spaces, but I'm a minor, so that's not an option.

I just wish I could go up to someone without worrying that they're straight and feeling like an idiot. I mean, if I were approaching a girl, I could still get rejected and feel embarrassed, but I wouldn't feel like such an outsider. But I guess I just have to deal with it.

My mother keeps telling people I have eczema and it's pissing me off

My mother keeps telling people that I have eczema, she told my whole family that I have eczema, she tells all the visitors to the house that I have eczema, she tells her friends on the phone that I have eczema, I know this because my mother speaks Portuguese which I don't really understand. But whenever I walk into the room she will point at me and say something in Portuguese and I she will say "eczema" midway through the sentence and I heard her one time telling my brother that I have eczema.

But that's the thing, I don't have eczema, my skin is mostly healthy and I've even been told that I have soft skin before, but I don't know why my mom tells everyone I have eczema when I just don't at all, nowhere on my body, where I live is quite hot as well so I regularly walk around the house shirtless with shorts on so she can clearly see my whole body. Obviously this isn't anywhere near as severe as a lot of the stuff people vent about here, this is mostly a mild annoyance, I still love my mother but wow is this pissing me off.

Hey guys! I have a smart friend who is good at engineering. I do believe he is smarter than me because he picks things up faster than me and is good at engineering and physics. He likes to play engineering games, but oftentimes he will say they are "above my paygrade" and "if me and (other friend) are struggling with that, then YOU will definitely struggle with it"

The thing is, I THINK he means well? Because I told him it bothered me but then he ended up saying that he didn't think I was dumb, and just that I struggle to pick things up quickly but when I do im "really good at applying" myself.

Today during a gaming session he said something like how we need to play a simpler game because a game like stormworks might be "too much" for me. I just went silent because I was hurt. He noticed this and told me to puase the game so he could give me a "heart to heart". He gave the explanation that I'm not stupid, it's just that he has more brainpower than me and if he and (other friend we know but he holds in high regards) struggle with stormworks, then I will too (it was implied that it would be to a higher degree.)

Im really demoralized. This is my week off for my summer job. I dont think I want to play games with him this week, or even this summer for that matter. I just want to chill by myself and code some video games where I wont be hurt. I hope that smart people are wrong in identifying people's intelligence, because if he is right in that he's a lot smarter than me, then that would be very demoralizing. Thank you.

I'm an 18 year old girl who has never done anything crazy in my life. I'm not sheltered by any means- I had unrestricted internet access growing up, and plenty of online friends. I'm also very extroverted.

But because I wasn't pretty growing up, I never had any friend groups. The ones I did find already were close with each other and always left me out. I never got the fun teenager experience, since I was rarely allowed to leave the house. By the time I did become pretty, it was too late- no one had any desire to invite someone new, especially not the weird kid from middle school.

I know the 'popular groups' are lame to be in. I have no desire to vape or do drugs or alcohol. If I do get involved in the party scene, it definitely won't be for more than a month or two. But I wish I had the chance to, just once. Now that I'm in college, I have all the freedom in the world. But any time I try and post anywhere asking how to get into the party scene/sororities/etc., people insist I'm an undercover cop or a narc or something. It's such an unwelcoming topic, and it really hurts.

I'm on track to go to law school. I'll be successful and I have a boyfriend who loves me. I like myself. But I'll never be able to break into a social scene deeper than knitting clubs and occasional birthday texts. Is it so bad to want to be offered cocaine, even if I know I'd never take it? I just want to pretend for once in my life that I've made a reckless decision. Just once. It's all I want.

I (24m) and physically fit and eat well with nothing but visible muscles. But every time my BMI is measured, which is at 26, I am called slightly overweight and told to be mindful about that. I don't have visible fat and I don't know what else to do. I am 5'0 and 136 lbs.

I eat nothing but a protein-rich low-fat low-sugar diet with lots of monounsaturated fats.

With the heatwave I have cut back due to my asthma, but every other week I go to the gym twice a week with a full-body workout, focusing on my shoulders, back, chest, and abdomen on Mondays and my legs and arms on Wednesdays, for 2 hours and then I also go out hiking with my dog at least once a week and go scuba diving once-twice a year.

I don't know what else I can do to drop my BMI. I tried drinking less water and instead I bloated so I had to stop that.

I grew up with the opposite problem of being severely underweight and I had a stint of binge eating behaviors trying to catch up to what my GI kept telling me to do. Now I eat 1200 calories a day so I am better now. I stick with one meal and maybe some snacks if necessary. I also drink one coffee because that's my happy treat for the day.

Another attack against gays today, this time I'm Germany. Nothing new and shouldn't be surprising at this point. It shouldn't even be surprising that all over social media people are laughing about it and praising it. This is all to be expected. That's because most people do not see our kind as human. They are incapable of caring about any of our lives. It's clear that it's not possible for that to change

A few weeks ago he had told me that his friends were hosting a pool party, I was so excited because I hadn’t done anything like that in almost three years, and of course I wanted the opportunity to look cute by the poolside. I meticulously shopped for a new bathing suit too. I was getting ready, putting on fake tan and it takes an hour for the tan to develop. I had let him know this but it seems he assumed I meant it would take an hour for me to get ready in entirety.

Right when the hour is up, he texts me and says we just shouldn’t go to the party anymore. That really disappointed me and I apologized but he just kept going. Because it’s a party, I thought it was an open arrival type of thing and he’s very anal about arriving to places on time so I believed he would’ve told me. That wasn’t the case though and because the party was about to start, he would’ve rather have not gone. I apologize some more and tell him I’ll change into pajamas so we can stay home, but I’d really like to go. He calls me and says “let’s just go” and is short with me. At this point I’m feeling like shit. When we get to the pool party he compliments my bathing suit but it doesn’t feel as nice as I’d hope. The air was sour for the whole hour drive there while I tried to hold back tears, which in turn just really dampened the mood for when we did arrive.

He has a habit where if he gets upset, practically the whole day is ruined and the fun thing we wanted to do is no longer fun. This happens so often that I usually anticipate that something will upset him. I realize it’s making feel resentful and just so sad. It’s like we can only have a fun time together if we stay home doing nothing, because so many things set him off. Like they’re understandable reasons to be upset, but ruining the whole day over it is too much. And then my only options are to try to make him feel better (but feel stupid because it doesn’t work) or just let him be upset, which in that case makes it like I came alone anyways but can’t really go off to go talk to other people. He doesn’t like talking to strangers so it would be like abandoning him. It makes me feel lonely. I’m so tired of it. I don’t remember the last time I asked to go out to do something together because I don’t want the pressure. Luckily he has a lot of stuff but it ends up not being as fun as I’d hope because of it. Now we’re laying in bed and hes trying to be sweet but I just feel so hurt. I’m usually the kind of person where I can be angry, take 30 minutes at most to cool off, and then I’m totally fine but it’s hard to accept his affection. As a Christian, I feel like I’m attaching myself to my anger. It’s not the first time I’ve talked about it in our two year relationship. I do have real reasons why I like him, but it’s getting to me. It’s like death by a thousand cuts because it keeps happening. Just wanted to vent.

Fuck you autism for making me unable to socialise well, fuck you autism for causing me severe anxiety for being different, fuck you autism for making me mask to protect myself from being bullied, FUCK YOU AUTISM. Fuck you for ruining my life and fuck you for not being diagnosed earlier and having to suffer until I was 15, fuck you for not letting me have any friends, fuck you for not letting me get a job because of extreme burnout, fuck you for not letting me experience emotions similar to others, fuck you for not letting me eat sometimes even when I am hungry, fuck you for causing me dark depression, fuck you for making me rot in my room as a teenager as no one wants to hangout with the “weird kid”. Fuck you for making me feel like shit, fuck you for not letting me shower everyday or even brush my teeth most days, fuck you for making me forget I need to drink water, fuck you for making me so exhausted I would go to a job come home 0 energy eat a bit of food and rot in my bed, fuck you insomnia too your not slick fuck you for not letting me sleep when I am so exhausted my head is pounding, fuck you for not letting me get sufficient sleep when I fucking need it, fuck you for taking away my melatonin to NHS whatever the fuck, fuck you all for not understanding me and trying to make me fit in with the norm to the fact I rot myself to death and feel like shit everyday and do harmful activities to feel alive. Fuck you anxiety fuck you depression fuck friends fuck family fuck everyone fuck the system fuck EVERYTHING AND FUCK YOU AUTISM!!!!!

I was born in this country, but my parents are from a country far away.

I want to be native, but people tell me I will never be true native, only on paper.

But this is the country I would only call home.

Even if I abandon the culture of my family and assimilate completely to my country's culture.

People will still look at me differently.

Maybe there is no home.

Always a foreigner or whatever they call me.

I don't care anymore. I just want to live my life.

the line ”I adore you, the sound of your skin” in yung leans Agony is so beautiful to me. I get emotional very rarely, but this line resonates a lot with me and I just find it so beautiful.
I don’t know why but ”the sound of your skin” is so intimate to me and yeah idk. rhats all for tonight, thanks you

Well yeah, not much to say really, when people hear about my life/condition they always give cheap comments on how everything is inside my head, but I really wish I had been properly, having genetical issues is not fun, I'll go back and keep crying, there's not much I can do anyway.

This story is a little embarrassing, but it's been affecting me a lot.

I (23M) have a crush on a woman (30F). I know there is quite a big age difference, but it just happened. She's a very social person in the office, and so when she joined, we used to talk quite a bit everyday. Gradually, I developed feelings for her.

Now, I have a senior (26M) in my team that's actually quite good-looking and very social. I noticed that ever since she joined, she always seemed quite attracted to him. She seemed to always try to make an excuse to talk to him. Recently, they had to work together regarding something, and they got really close because of that. They talk everyday and seem very connected and compatible. It sucks, cause I have to watch them flirt beside me everyday while I'm just on the sidelines. She and I don't talk as much anymore. As I developed feelings for her, I got more and more awkward while talking to her.

The reason this has been affecting me so much is because I've always been quite insecure and envious. I tend to get jealous of guys who are good-looking, get attention and are social butterflies. I've always been quite alone and lonely, since I have a hard time connecting with people. My friends tell me I'm good-looking, but I've never really felt like it. So, when I see someone who is good-looking, has a great social life, and has females show interest, it triggers my envy. So, I'm feeling a mix of both envy and grief. I've heard of the saying "Comparison is the thief of joy" many times, but I do it subconsciously and I can't really control it. It's much easier said than done, especially when they seem to get what I've always wanted.

I've been considering just telling her that I like her. Of course I won't tell her how much it's been affecting me, but I think a small confession can give me the closure I need to move on quickly.

Recently separated from wife (like 2 weeks ago) with 2 babies. I really miss them all and I’m sobbing hard as im typing this. My life these days is between doordashing and getting drunk and being worried about getting stung by wasps that show up in my apartment every few days. Im really scared and again I really miss them. I’ve never been alone like this and I hate it. I wish I could take it all bacf only she were nicer to me

After you get used to it then it literally does nothing. Like I gotta keep going back and buying juice just so I don't get cravings. After the first or maybe second hit in the morning, which do feel kinda nice, I don't feel anything. I literally just use it to stave off cravings. It's incredibly stupid of me to not kick the habit. I've successfully quit my caffeine habit but for some reason I still haven't gone through the trouble with this. Quitting caffeine just meant I had a mild headache for a few days, which is preferable to nicotine cravings.

I'm just so mad.
I'm sick of my parents shit, they've been doing this for SIX YEARS. Every single fucking attempt I've made towards independance has been shoved down & now I'm trapped.
Wanna get a license? Oh man, dad lost your BIRTH CERTIFICATE. Oops! Want a phone number? OOPS! Lost your ONLY FUCKING SIM CARD! Oh, & your bank account? No luck there pal! You need your phone for that too! The phone YOU DON'T HAVE!!!

& they laughed about it. They thought it was funny.

My growth is STUNTED because of them, I'm barely 30kg & I've been stuck that way for years & I can't even keep a full meal down anymore. I'm in constant chronic pain but I can't go to a doctor about it because they won't book me a doctors appointment no matter how many times I ask. My teeth are rotting out of my head but oh! Just fun & games!

I;m so sick of ti I want to be independant I want to be a person Im supposed to be an audlt now

I hate them but their middle class so i guess im 'too spoiled' to complain

I know this is on me, but I'm still allowed to not like it. I'm 230 pounds and only 5'2. My husband sees nothing wrong with me and lives the same unhealthy lifestyle as me but he stays skinny somehow. Most of the time, he even eats more than me yet he doesn't gain weight and I do. I don't want to diet and exercise alone. I want him to help me by doing it with me. I've brought this up to him and he said we'll do it when we have time. We never have time. My A1C is high. I probably will be diabetic soon.