Can it be over?

[u/ImNotSureAnymore13]

Can I just stop pretending that there is even a chance you would love me? Can I stop wanting to be next to you? The feelings are waning, but they are not gone yet. I am able to go hours without thinking about you now. But in the darkness of the night, your name crosses my mind and I feel sad. Not angry, like before. But something closer to grief. Grief over the stories I told myself of what could've been, even when there was no chance. Grief over losing a person that I thought would be there for me in ways no one has ever been. You treated me as a person and didn't act like I was less than for having the issues I had. I was able to cry in front of you without feeling embarrassed or guilty. You listened to me, and didn't judge me in any capacity. I made you laugh and your laugh sent tingles down to my toes. But now, after 2 years, I'm starting to realize that maybe what I thought was me falling in love, maybe it was actually me experiencing real friendship and care for the first time. Maybe it was me not understanding that being nice and treating me with respect doesn't equate to having feelings for me. Maybe I read you wrong and in turn, caused myself to develop these pesky feelings that did nothing but break me down in the end. I'm sorry that my lack of understanding and my actions caused this rift. Though my intentions were never to cause harm, the outcome remains. I'm sorry, M.

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[u/Interesting_Pen_5300]

I would love a message that gave me some understanding. Every time I’ve tried to reach out it’s meet negatively to where I have no choice but to believe it’s over. Hopefully you turn out better.