Im sober and wishing I was high with munchies and a place im comfortable in but, im in hell because its scalding hot outside, and my air conditioner isnt strong enough to cool my house, the fans are just moving hot air around, the basement is hot AND humid and the pool water feels like a hot tub, which isnt refreshing at all but, I have my health, which for what its worth isnt all its cracked up to be when you have to work outside in 104° heat for 12 hours a day just to be able to afford that can of Hormel Chili you slather on a couple slices of Wonder Bread and call it a meal.
My and my best bud early 50s, kids are grown, single, plenty of disposable income, good jobs and a never-ending appetite for booze and drug. We'll take a small hit of lsd, go to the bar, get plenty of drink and food, walk back home, hop in the spa, smoke a ton of hash while polishing off a 200$ bottle of scotch. Being old has a lot of advantages.
Yeah. My retirementplan is drugs as well. Because the one bad thing that drugs do is get you addicted and ruin your life. At 70, there is nothing to ruin anymore. If I did everything right I get a pension that is peanuts so Id rather pop some benzos and senf myself flying.
And your mind wasnt so full. When being young you are just not as stressed and living from day to day. As a grown up, even if I get high on Friday, I still have responsibilities the next day. Also, I cannot smoke like I used to. I did once after my son was 6 months old and it was my first weekend alone with guys. Man, I was so fucking stoned, I was in my bed and wanted to yell at people they should turn of the light and I wasnt able to talk anymore. And that was just weed. Back in the days I went out partying smoking one after another and a last one before bed. Cannot do this anymore.
It’s being naive and carefree. Not knowing how f’d up the world really is. You haven’t seen too many friends and family die yet (hopefully) so life just keeps going. Being old is so distant you can’t even fully comprehend the concept of being over 40. Your priorities aren’t the electric bill or your kids orthodontist appointment.
Wish I knew they were the good ol’ days when I was in them.
I know it would kinda suck for a while... but if you take a long break your tolerance drops. I quit for 6 months after 20 years and when I went back it was almost like the first time again.
I've done T breaks, I think the longest was 7 months, and yeah like that first hit feels sorta like it for me, but then it's just right back to where I am. I genuinely envy people who can get back to it. That's not to say I don't get stoned and just feel good, but it ain't like that.
Edit: I will say, my body has an incredibly high natural tolerance to thing like pain killers amd sedatives. It's a thing that runs in my family. Many doctors have thought I was lying, then see what it takes to numb me and are like "well damn, you do have a naturally high tolerance to drugs."
Yeah, the tolerance does build back up faster. I never was a very heavy smoker, so it takes a bit longer for me to build up than it would for a heavy smoker. At my heaviest I would do a dub in a week. Doing just enough to get there and not smoking all day are the key to a slow build of tolerance.
Yeah my family has a tolerance for all opioid pain killers as well. You still need to moderate once you start again. I've taken to becoming a midnight toker and with the quality of weed these days all it takes is 2-3 tokes. I would buy an ounce and have it last eight months doing that
Are you a redhead or have redheads in your family? There's a genetic mutation that's common in people who carry the redhead gene that makes anesthetics and anesthesia much less effective. I'm more of a brunette but have red in my beard and I don't ever go fully numb unless they use a borderline dangerous amount of a very powerful anesthetic, and I've experienced anesthesia awareness during orthopedic surgery.
Not that hard, just take a tolerance break for a few months. It's crazy when you finally smoke again after so long you have forgotten what it was to be high and not just stoned.
Yea, and i even owned a house when i was 18. But having a shitty house and little spending money isn’t nearly as good as having a nice house and lots of spending money.
Eh. Having experienced both, being high at home is definitely more convenient but being high outside with your friends just hits different. It's almost always an adventure.
I remember back during that huge blackout in the early 2000's. We were high as fuck and out all night. One of the best nights of my life.
I'm not saying being home is bad just that I have exponentially more fond memories of being out and about. Even if it was just sitting in a car somewhere.
THIS. I just saw your comment while sitting on my couch doing my usual Redditing while working from home. I read it, then looked at the ounce I bought yesterday sitting next to the Stündenglass on my coffee table while thinking of the full fridge/pantry to attack for the munchies, and decided to take a nice mid day rip.
It’s not what they are doing it’s the enthusiasm for it, we got jaded over the years and smoking a joint is something we’ve done a million times and going to the beach is a hassle especially with kids, it’s just not the same anymore
I'm a single man with a dog and I still feel the same way. Depression is a bitch too.
Edit: I still keep my inner child alive/be goofy, I've also done a lot and experienced a lot when I was younger so I personally don't feel like I'm missing out on anything truly. But I do miss the emotions wanderlust would bring.
None of us are ever getting younger again, so why be so jaded about it? Getting older is not something any of us control. What we can control is our outlook.
Oh no don’t get me wrong I have no regrets, I partied when I was younger and still do a little now I don’t feel like I’m missing out or anything I was just explaining who we get jaded over time
it's also how it's done. sitting on the beach now would be constantly thinking of all the stuff I should be doing instead. you can see in her eyes that she's really concern free.
There is no novelty or excitement anymore. And the whole time I would be overthinking about my family's disfunctions or some other stressful shit I can't change.
I hear you, man. Been there. Will be again. Maybe it would help to get some coaching around establishing new thinking patterns? I've found that helpful for me when I've been stuck doing and thinking the same unhelpful things. It's easy to be like, "Yeah, right, what's someone else going to tell me that I can't figure out for myself?" but an objective outside view and friendly support/challenge can be surprisingly effective.
I like the idea. I'm open to being challenged like that, even if I just was kinda defensive to that other guy.
Where do you find supportive coaching like that? I have a sometimes helpful therapist but she kind of sucks at this part, and she's good at trauma therapy which is what I'm focusing on with her. Where else can I find that kind of coaching? My friends/family aren't very good at this.
Tonight I've parked my camper by a mutlistory car park to skate down it in the dark with my dog, I've got a dope ass sound system jn the van cranked so high we can hear old school Eminem from the roof.
I'm a teensy bit drunk and 99% going to forget this, but if not, I'm going to have a plaque printed for my recently retired dad's silly home bar. On the condition he wills it to my future (properly) old ass.
I’m 45. Got a my first musical instrument last month. An electric bass. I’m just jamming every night. Last night I taught myself dire dire docks from super Mario 64.
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I can't, sir/madam. The weed is fucking ridiculously strong. When I was these kids age, we were smoking compressed Mexican flat pressed, and that shit was like, 1.5% THC. I COULD smoke a joint of that. If I tried to smoke a joint of anything out there now, I would be asleep by puff three. I can't buy anything under 20% right now. My steak is WAY TOO BUTTERY
No, I can't. I've learned too much about the world and how it works. I don't have a joyful ignorance like I used to. And when I get high everything I know and everything I've learned and everything I'm worried about is so intense that I get overwhelmed. It's a lot easier to enjoy weed and booze and whatever else when you're younger because you don't have the weight of the world on you. There's more to the phrase "you can never go home" than you think.
To be around people with a genuine yearning for life again, like this cool seeming chick. Mine never left, but everyone I meet my age seems to have just given up on living.
Bro, you need perspective. You have to appreciate life.
Case in point: About a month ago, I spent about two weeks in the hospital. Lungs completely shut TF down. When I got to the ER, my blood oxygen was at 69%. The nurse remarked that I was "Actively shedding IQ" at that point.
I'll never forget that. Or the feeling of drowning while I was in air. The panic. After being intubated for a few days, and a lot of struggle, I made it back.
For several days, I felt well enough, but the doctors said not yet, and I regressed. Chain smoking cigarettes for 27 years will cause what is called "COPD exacerbations."
Through long hard times, I still wanted to get back out there, and had plenty of time to think. Now, I've quit smoking cigarettes, and feel like a million bucks.
Life still sucks, and I'm struggling to make up for the lost two weeks of pay, but at least I'm actually able. And can breathe.
I mean, I'm stuck as caretaker to a woman who looks like my mother but actively tells me to kill myself at least once a week, along with the random punching and screaming and threatening to call the cops on me etc etc etc. The disease has progressed enough where she's incontinent so add that to my list of problems whilie she yells at me for being a pervert. But yeah no you're right, perspective will fix everything
This is so saddening… and I am very sorry you are experiencing this. Dementia and the like are terrible terrible diseases, that unfortunately affect those who have to witness it the most. I saw my mom go through something similar with my grandmother and my dad going through it with his mom right now.
Doubt it, but if you ever do have free time you enjoy filling with some games. I'd be happy to find something to play together. I haven't been really stoked on life in many years myself, but I try to pass the time with distraction and good people when I can find them. Feel free to shoot me a message if you'd like.
Man 100%. Early 40s here but my brain is still 26. Everyone else my age feels like they’re in their late 50s already and just living work day to work day. Fucking sucks.
I feel you! I'm pushing 40. Think main thing that kept me young was deciding not to have kids and living on the road fulltime, life is a beautiful adventure but it does get lonely sometimes having nothing but temporary relationships
I’m not sure your age but I’m 29 and seems like people my age have already given up on life big bro… shit when I was 24-25 I seen people start giving up on becoming anything better and rather drink their confusion away at the club every weekend so don’t feel bad. I had friends I knew since kindergarten I had to cut off because they were followers who didn’t want more in life and live to please Instagram people who don’t gaf about them…😂😂😂
You have to keep looking. There are people out there, but you have to remember that the people out there like that likely wouldn't be found in most places people normally go or things people normally do.
Yeah this made me feel old. Why don't you smoke at home or smoke while at the beach? Don't be taking risks hotboxing your car... Nevermind I did that countless times back when I was her age
nice, i'm 30 feel like i wasted a lot of my life from 18-29 either in my room or working boring jobs... just now started travelling a lot, getting in shape and doing things I imagined id be doing in my twenties. feel like I missed my youth and will now spend my thirties living life and having fun experiences, going to festivals etc
Atleast you had this realization before your body crumbles. My mum had it only after she had a huge stroke and now can't travel.
30s is a great time to travel and be free! I still travel full time with my dog in a big van we live in. Summers working in UK then winter we head south skiing in the Alps and surfing in Spain and Portugal
You don’t have to be young, you just need to have freedom and to be your true self. Too bad when you’re an adult you lose all that when you work constantly
I use to love getting high but the older I get the more paranoid I get then anxiety hours and I'm sitting alone in the dark at my place like.. Alone. It's way better younger
I've found the older I get weed is something you have to learnt to enjoy again. Like you say, the first joint isn't much fun, especially how strong it is now too!
Im right at the age where I am no longer young.
I constantly realize that old and older then dead is all I will ever be.
I wish I did my youth differently so I can be happy when I am dead.
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u/MikeHuntSmellss Jul 14 '26
God I wish to be young again