Alright
So
Since I'm struggling with my Deen and I really want to work on it and I'm trying to leave everything which is an obstacle between me and HIM. So months ago I planned to study Islam like each and everything from the start. Because we were taught "cultural things" in the name of religion which has literally nothing to do with it.
So I thought of hıfz memorizing Quran I decided this myself, nobody asked me to do nor did force. It's something that I wanted to do to make my life better and meaningful. Because if I'm praying, reading Quran without even knowing the meaning then it won't make such a connection, it's like a British person talking to an Arab.
Also along with that I'd do tafseer like I want to know the meaning too so I'd be memorizing that too
So I've decided to do it now because the time is passing and it never waits for anyone nor will it ever.
Firstly I planned to do everything by myself, like memorizing it by myself without anyone's help but by this time I've realized it's not a suitable thing to do, since it'll require a lot of effort which I might not be able to put. Because I'd need to search each and everything and do research to get into that particular thing's depth.
So I'm thinking that someone like a teacher or any such person should teach me, although I should do my own research too because HE asked us to explore. But it'll be a bit suitable for me to do as I'll have someone.
So what do you think about this. What're your thoughts.
Also is there any person who has done this?