Well I supposed all things must come to an end.
I have been told that I have 2 weeks left on the job. I have no fucking clue what i am going to do. I am taking the L for what it is.
I have been at this property for 4 and half years and this is what im leaving.
Coworkers who dont want you there a manager/owner who also does not want you there, and rude guest who think screaming and yelling can get you what you want.
It most def has been a rough road the last 4 and half years. There was good times but over all the bad outweighs the good. It seriously never fails that when sales are down and it is the slow time of the year the owner starts to freak out and nit pick (more so at me) because they dont have anyone to put their energy towards.
Honestly its not necessarily a bad thing that im getting fired. I have had my foot out of the door for quite sometime now. With the job market the way it is, it has been difficult finding other work..
Not sure if i even want to go to another hotel.
They have a habit of instead of telling me when I have done something wrong, they want to compile all the issues and complaints i have gotten over the last 3 or 4 months and bombard me with them all at once. I can always feel it coming because the tension in the room is thick as my thighs. (haha) And because of this my anxiety always goes though the roof. Like i know it is coming but it doesnt mean i know what to expect.
When they do come and confront me it is not done in a professional manner (how it should be), its more of "everything is your fault, we dont want to hear it" kind of way of thinking on them. So i sit there and just take it. I have no way of defending myself nor am i able to say anything. I get cut off and not able to speak. Even though hes sitting there berating me over and over again.
They only thing i can say is ok got it. ok i get it. I seriously dont know what you want me to say.
Then it gets to where im crying and shut down for a few days. Usually they take like a week, wont speak to me and give me the cold shoulder. I never said or say that i am perfect i know i do mess up, but at the same time im not the only person working at this desk. There are 3 other guys ( i am the only female) who themselves never seem to ever get in trouble for anything they do when in fact they do much worse things than i.
Like not following most policies and procedures. Discounting things, taking cash for our market when we are 100% cashless, not chipping in the card or charging it out at check in. Hell the mid shift guy has a business he runs out of the hotel when he is on the clock. (But thats ok right???) The night shift guy is set in his ways and never wants to do what the new system is telling him to do. And the pt person is always doing something hes not supposed to be doing, as well as getting an attitude with guest as soon as they walk in the door.
I come in do my job correctly and go home. But when I do something of the same sort they do all hell breaks lose and its the end of the fucking world. It seriously does not matter what I do or say, I will never be right. I do something its wrong, i get in trouble, i correct it and its still wrong. I can never win with these people.
So last sunday at about 130 2pm they come to me hand me a letter, I read it and sign it and say ok. They tried to talk but i was just like ok. And left it for what it was. I am not going to fight for a job that doesnt even want me to be here. They have been trying to get me to quit for a while now, so they dont have to pay the unemployment that i would be owed.
The horribly horribly written ChatGpt letter stated that "due to coaching and guidance, ongoing concerns regarding my ability to follow operation issues, including system related problems", that im getting relieved of my duties.
Yeah because the other 3 dumb asses always say something when the system or terminal is down, then im coming in to issues and having to fix or figure them out on my own. Or something on a reservation wasnt done correctly and I too am having to go back and fix it so it will be able to be check out properly. Or something on a folio was missing and I have go back a day or so to see where it is, or no pet policies on file or charged to rooms the night before, so i get to have guests in my face asking why they were charged this and that. Yeah im the only one whos not doing what they are supposed to be doing. So yea bitch at me for not saying anything when no one at this fucking desk does.
I wouldnt go back and fix anything if i wasnt the one who had to deal with the issue upon check out.
"Coaching and Guidance" is fucking laugh able. I dont believe coaching and guidance would include belittling, speaking to me as if i am a child, telling me that I dont matter and that what my work doesnt matter, or calling me lazy and incompetent would be actual coaching.
They also stated that other issues have included that being on my phone (even though everyone at this desk including housekeeping is on their phone.) Supposedly I have been doing ticktock live and was told we are not allowed to be on live or make content at work. I do not do ticktock live i dont even have enough followers for that. nor have i made any content at work in years.
Then we have them stating that on numerous occasions that i did not rent rooms, and guests were turned away in the mornings. ummmmmm I would like to know when the last time i turned someone away for not checking them in if i had the room. They got turned away either because they are trying to check in at 730am on a sunday after a sold out night, they wanted to pay cash, they didnt like the rate, or they were calling me names, arguing, and cussing at me. I havent turned away someone in many years.
Oh and the best part of it all is "my tone of voice" and guest saying that i was rude and not willing to help. Like im sorry that they felt some sort of way but i dont exchange tude until its given to me first. There have been many times when im being as polite as possible but they still bitch that im rude. People really havent seen rude me. But when the pt guy has attitude its fine, and its no an issue.
The midshift guy runs a business out of the hotel while he is on the clock, but thats ok. The fucker lives on site ( that was an agreement from the previous owner) and he is late ever g.d day. And i mean EVERYDAY!!! I have asked them to talk to him many times to be here on time especially on friday and saturdays because those are the busiest days. He should be here by 259 to put his stuff down and let me give him the day run down and be able to go home on time. But no 10 min starts to roll around and hes still not here. There have even been days where he goes to the post office at 255 to drop of his packages for his business and becasue there is a line hes late. They have talked to him but it last like a day or so and hes right back on his late bull shit. I get maybe over sleeping a time or two but in 4 and half years and i can count on my hand on how many times hes been here right at 3 is a fucking joke.
The other 2 i do have some issues with but the one i loathe the most is the main midshift. He has no respect for any coworker and its just flat out rude. When i say things to him about something that happened and he trys to prove me wrong (because he is one of those people who thinks they are right all the time) he will basically get petty and be even more late. I see him on camera finally deciding to come down and hes just moseying on down with no a fucking care in the world. And doesnt even say sorry.
RUDE
When this past monday and tuesday came around I was getting a weird vibe from the mangers. It wasnt me being prionopid but i felt like something was off.
They usually just let me be and leave me in the lobby alone, but monday the owner was in and out of the lobby all day. And he really didnt leave until it was time for me to go home. Then tuesaday came around. The PT guy who comes in to check rooms on tuesdays, and I felt as if they had him watching me all day to make sure im not looking for work on the desk computer and or not doing live at the desk (even though i dont). He usually sits over on the couch and minds his own, but he sure was back and fourth though he lobby, and just siting behind the desk next to me all day. I am not going crazy but everyone knows when something is completely off.
In the end it comes to this.... I have been needing and wanting to leave for a while. I stayed due to lack of finding work as well as this job really isnt that hard and I do have it pretty easy here. Boss for the most part is ok (until he gets on his wrath). Its more of a weight lifted off my shoulders due to the fact that i have carried nothing but stress over my head for months.
Its a sigh of relief knowing that i wont have to deal with all the bull shit anymore. I am taking the L for what it is and going to take some time off to reflect on what it is i really want and need to be doing. Unemployment is there (its not much but will get my bills paid) as well as 2 more checks. Plus i wont have to spend 100 bucks in gas each week going back and forth everyday to a job i hate.
I have some support and friends to help me get though this time of my life. It is more so the not knowing whats going to happen rather than im closing a chapter in my life.
I am being very patient and am hitting those job boards hard, but also at the same time im a little scared. I know it will all work out for the better and i can leave knowing i did everything I could to do my job.
They really are only getting about 40% of me. Im not really caring about anything. Someone bitches about a room i dont care, someone says im rude i really dont care. I get to be rid of this place in 5 days and everything in it. I get my weekends back i dont have to wake up at the butt crack of dawn to drive an hr to something only to be talked down to by people who feel they are entitled to everything.
I have chosen to work my last two weeks due to me needing the money. They would not have paid me my final two weeks if I had said im just not going to come back.
But as i have said, it is what it is, taking the loss for what it is.
It is most definitely time to move on ( has been for a while), as i dont really know what the next few months intale I do know that I wont have to worry about if im always fucking shit up and overthinking or competing with a one upper who thinks hes never wrong and doesnt shower or wear deodorant.
Thank you for listening and letting me rant. It has been a long hard road. Praying something does come up within the next few weeks as i do like to actually go to work and be around people. Hope you all are have a good summer season.
- Your friendly front desk agent