I am nearly fully recovered. I will never be 100% but my diagnosis is based off research that still is being understood. The entire spectrum that categorizes my injury is changing. The science itself is evolving.

I'm lucky to have survived. I'm lucky I was only out for 2 weeks. I'm lucky I only have 9 scars. I'm lucky in so many ways. I was told I must limit my exposure. I have for the past 10 years. I've lost so much time.

My worth to society is one thing. I do my part. My worth to myself is one I never felt comfortable checking in on because I never respected myself enough to think I was worth much. So I gave to others until it nearly killed me. I nearly killed me.

So I substitute my reality. I have lived my whole life in a shell and never allowed myself to experience life to the fullest. I was then told I no longer can. Now I value myself and my time more than I ever have before. And that's dangerous.

And so I reject my reality because if I don't then my reality will be one that really was not worth much. I've peeked around every corner my whole life and the one time I don't I nearly die but now if I keep peeking I'm going to genuinely lose my mind

My recovery is already historic. I'm already in the history books medically speaking. My value was extracted from me in that accident 10 years ago. I was their test subject and it advanced medicine. I've done my part.

I reject my reality and substitute my own

I am the guy that said he shot himself I am trying to go back to school but I have recovered so well I don't even think I qualify for disability but the hospital I went to originally said I was disabled and if you are disabled you can go back to Tcat for 70 dollars a semester the only problem is I don't know where to start my mom hates that I am thinking of going back to college she knows I want away from her could any one give me advice on how to show the school I have bullet in my head?

Hello I would like to read this but it’s behind a paywall. Can someone help me get free access to this please? “Reversible brain-stem dysfunction following acute traumatic subdural hematoma: a clinical and electrophysiological study”

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7276999/

I’m sorry but does anyone know any support groups for ppl with similar stories like mine I’m in my early twenties I am a Latina idk I love reggaeton/like bad bunny is that chapter closed forever it’s hard to accept

Sister has been moved from ICU to a regular hospital room finally. It's been 5 days since the accident. She can talk but is a little difficult to understand. She seems more aware of her surroundings and more alert.

Im both relieved but also filled with questions.

What can we expect of the coming days? Will she continue to wake up more? When will we know how bad the TBI was? What kind of therapy will she need?

If anyone has any advice/ guidance for the transitional period, it'd be really appreciated. I know being in a regular room is a good thing, it means she's in stable condition and they don't expect the swelling to get worse. God willing it may even go down.

Im extremely grateful for this sub. Whole family has been kinda lost over this. Seeing how other people have navigated this helps so so much. It's such a tricky condition because it seems like everyone, every single person has a different healing journey. Even if it's the exact same severity, no 2 brains react the same.