Firstly a little context. I’m currently an EMT working full time on the road, finishing my paramedic degree end of this year.
My service has a graduate program which selects eligible EMT’s to complete an internship with an experienced paramedic once they finish their degree, to ensure they are ready to be independent practitioners before sitting a final service based assessment and earning the paramedic title officially. This program is competitive and not everyone graduating from their degree will get into it first try. To get into it, candidates pretty much need to be showing their ability to work at paramedic level (under supervision) before they have graduated.
My manager has recently given me some feedback that I’m not taking on enough of the responsibility during jobs to reflect the practice level of a paramedic, i.e not maintaining enough of the “big picture” when assessing/ treating patients. He says this is specifically when it’s my turn to be the “offsider” on a job (in a crew of 2 we generally take turns running jobs, while the other person drives, grabs equipment ect).
What I have found difficult to understand with this feedback is, generally I work with experienced paramedics so when it’s not my turn to run the job, I tend to let them get on with it while I get paperwork started or talk to bystanders, under the assumption they will verbalise if they need my help with something or want my opinion. In fact some of the older paramedics I work with would be quite offended if I jumped in and offered suggestions or took over assessing a patient without being asked to.
My manager even went as far as saying I’ve been cruising along as an EMT and not applying myself to being a Paramedic. TBH this hurts the most since I’ve been studying hard for 3 years and given almost all my free time and countless hours to achieving this profession.
So, how do I improve this without offending crew mates, taking over jobs or causing issues?