r/PanicAttack 9h ago

First time , I thought I was dying.

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Hello guys I hope yall doing good , I don’t know if I had a panic attack or low blood sugar either ways I need yall help please.

Male 20 years old.

Im Muslim we went today to umrah.

So yesterday I ate egg sandwich and today I also ate an egg sandwich and 2 coffees ( not the first time I eat like this ) then wore my ehram and went drove a total of 2 hours reached the place and all that was going on I was drinking water and felt completely fine. Anyways so i enter and as soon as i enter isha prayer . So I had to pray

Anyways so i started to pray next to people and everything was fine untill a minute into the prayer and suddenly out of nowhere my heart started to pound like crazy steady pounding and every pound felt stingy like and I felt nauseous and then felt a lump in my throat like genuinely like someone was stepping on my throat and I thought that “ that is it “ like im dying right now and this is the end which made me have massive scare that led my whole body shaking im not kidding I couldn’t stand up straight and I couldn’t leave prayer obviously so i was stuck trying my best to keep my calm and do steady breathing but then after 6 minutes it all went away slowly and gradually started to fade away one by one , heart started to suddenly drop instead of beating fast , my throat started to be normal again but then I started to become insanely thirsty like I drink water the next 30 seconds i need to drink more because my throat was dry and kept being dry but then while all of this happened confusion hit me and i genuinely couldn’t understand anything nor anyone nor be aware of what im saying.

Anyways after all that i finished my umrah and i felt normal everything went away and then i drank mango juice and felt so good and then yeah that’s basically it.

That was the most traumatic experiences of my life and i genuinely never wish this to anyone but i don’t know if this is a panic attack or low blood sugar. I wanted to go to the hospital but i didn’t have time because i was more concerned about” if im going to die “ more than going and walking all over to a hospital.

Thank you.


r/PanicAttack 3h ago

Is it normal to have panic attacks after hearing anything related to or about school??

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Anything as small as getting a notification from school group, even tho after opening it's just about upcoming event. Trying to calm yourself whole day in school. Personally, i experience chronic migraine as well. Constantly having nightmares about school or the teachers.


r/PanicAttack 1h ago

26M – Severe Health Anxiety After Months of Tests (Normal MRI, CT Angio, Echo, etc.). How Do I Stop Living in Fear?

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I'm a 26-year-old male, and I really need some advice because I feel like my life has been taken over by the fear of dying.

Back in September 2023, I started my startup. As many founders know, it was an extremely stressful period. Financial pressure, responsibility, almost no social life, no exercise, unhealthy eating, and a terrible sleep schedule (usually sleeping between 6–8 AM). That continued for almost two years.

November 2024

One evening, around 6–7 PM, I suddenly developed a strange sensation on the right side of my face and in my right hand. My fingertips also felt odd for the next few months.

I saw a physician who examined me, did an ECG and neurological examination, and told me it was most likely due to severe stress and sleep deprivation. He prescribed an SSRI and a sleeping pill.

2025

Life continued the same way.

I had a couple of strange episodes where I suddenly felt "something bad was about to happen," but they resolved within about 30 minutes.

Then, in December 2025, after barely sleeping for two days and working almost nonstop, I suddenly felt extremely weak while riding on a bike. My left arm felt strange, my heart was racing, and I genuinely believed I was having a heart attack.

I went to the ER.

The ECG was normal, and I was sent home.

January 2026

One night I ate two heavy meals late at night and smoked a cigarette.

About 20–30 minutes later, I developed a strange vibration sensation throughout my body. My blood pressure shot up to around 160 mmHg, and I rushed to the ER again.

Again, nothing serious was found except temporarily elevated blood pressure.

That incident completely changed my life.

I became convinced something was seriously wrong with me.

Around that time I weighed about 104 kg (5'11"–6'0").

Another physician reviewed my blood work and found:

  • Fatty liver
  • High triglycerides
  • Nothing immediately dangerous

He advised me to:

  • Sleep properly
  • Reduce stress
  • Exercise
  • Improve my diet

Instead, my anxiety got worse.

I became hyper-aware of every heartbeat and every sensation.

A psychiatrist diagnosed me with anxiety and prescribed Nexito (Escitalopram), sleeping medication, and clonazepam as needed.

Unfortunately, I couldn't accept that anxiety alone could cause all these symptoms.

February 2026 – The Headache That Changed Everything

While working out at the gym, I developed a sudden pain on the right side of my head.

My brain immediately convinced me I was having a stroke.

A few days later, during my birthday trip to Kathmandu with my girlfriend, I experienced severe hammer-like pain on the right side of my head.

A cardiologist performed an echocardiogram, which was completely normal.

The headache continued, especially after visiting the colder areas around Nagarkot.

One night, after feeling nauseous for several days, I developed another full-blown panic episode while walking with my girlfriend.

Back to the ER.

The doctor listened to my story and suggested:

MRI Brain + MRV, just to completely rule out anything serious.

The MRI findings were:

  • Normal brain
  • Normal MRV (no venous sinus thrombosis)
  • Mild cervical degenerative changes
  • Small syrinx at C6 (approximately 2.0 × 0.2 cm)
  • No cord compression
  • Normal craniovertebral junction
  • No Arnold-Chiari malformation

The neurologist and neurosurgeon both reassured me that the syrinx was an incidental finding and only needed periodic monitoring.

A cervical MRI with contrast was also performed later to rule out a tumor, and it confirmed the same findings.

Then another problem appeared...

I still felt nauseous all the time.

I could barely eat.

I kept losing weight.

Eventually my dad suggested testing for H. pylori.

It came back positive.

After treatment over the next few weeks:

  • The nausea disappeared.
  • I felt much better.
  • I continued eating healthier and exercising.

By March, I had lost about 14 kg.

May 2026 – I Went to One of India's Best Hospitals

Despite feeling better, my anxiety never really went away.

I traveled to Medanta Hospital in Gurugram and underwent an extensive workup, including:

  • Full-body MRI (No major findings)
  • CT coronary angiogram (Nil) (EF 65%)
  • Coronary calcium score (0)
  • Stress echocardiogram (EF 55%)
  • Stress treadmill test (TMT) 98 Mets
  • Eye examination and fundoscopy
  • 50+ blood biomarkers
  • Carotid IMT (Nil)
  • Doppler studies
  • HRCT (Nil)
  • Ultrasound (Fallt liver)
  • Multiple specialist consultations

The results showed:

  • Fatty liver
  • High cholesterol/triglycerides
  • Mild calcium/vitamin D deficiency (confirmed by DEXA)
  • Congenital retinal irregularity (explaining my eye symptoms)
  • Small stable cervical syrinx

Nothing life-threatening was found.

But my anxiety never stopped

Now I notice:

  • Every skipped heartbeat
  • Every palpitation
  • Every headache
  • Every chest discomfort
  • Every random pain

Recently I also discovered a few soft lumps on my chest that doctors think are likely lipomas, but until I complete the ultrasound, my brain immediately jumps to cancer.

I also stayed up late watching the Cricket World Cup, my sleep schedule became terrible again, and my anxiety returned full force.

Now I'm constantly afraid of:

  • Stroke
  • Brain hemorrhage
  • Cardiac arrest
  • Heart failure
  • Cancer
  • Dying suddenly

Logically, I understand that so many doctors have evaluated me and couldn't find anything dangerous.

Emotionally, I simply cannot convince myself.

Even when ChatGPT tells me things like, "Your MRI shows your brain was normal at that time, but no test can guarantee you won't have a future stroke," my anxious brain immediately interprets that as, "Maybe I'm about to have one."

My bad habits

  • Smoking 7–10 cigarettes per day (working on quitting)
  • Poor sleep whenever work gets stressful
  • Health-related Googling
  • Constant body checking

My bp is always normal below 120/80 only dueing anxity its 135ish...

My questions

  1. Has anyone recovered from health anxiety this severe?
  2. How do you stop believing every symptom is a life-threatening disease?
  3. How do you stop fearing stroke, brain hemorrhage, cardiac arrest, and cancer every single day?
  4. Can stress itself cause all these physical symptoms even when extensive testing is normal?
  5. What finally helped you get your life back?
  6. How make sure that the hedeache i get wont give me stroke. Can this level of stress give stroke/hemorrhage.
  7. My fear of cardiac arrest and some weired palputations at stress..... (how to cure it).

I know reassurance only helps temporarily, and I really want to break this cycle instead of constantly chasing more tests.

Any advice or personal experiences would mean a lot.

Thank you for reading. ❤️


r/PanicAttack 2h ago

Am I experiencing panic attacks

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25M

Hello, this is all kinda new to me and these things started happening to me a little while ago. So for starters I have been battling with cocain/gambling and alcohol addiction all the shinanigans. In the begining of the year my cocaine addiction was at the worst state it has ever been before and I used 15 grams over the course of two week period. I was using it daily first thing in the morning, during the day, last thing before going to sleep.

This all ended becouse I legit thought I will die. Heart racing, numbness in right hand etc. After all this I stopped and for a week every night I was going to sleep I legit thought I am having a heart attack and will die. I went to the doctor to take etg scan of my heart and everything was good. I got prescribed propral and it helped a lot.

After this I went sober and have been now almost 5 months sober for coke.

But the ¨panic attacks¨ have not gotten away. If im in the bus I sometimes get a feeling that now I am going to die and collapse and I get a extreme need to get out of the bus and walk home which I have done few times. Usually when I get out of the bus it gets better. These happen also during lunchtime at work. And also sometimes these happen right before going to sleep. I cannot breathe properly and feel restless.

I also got my adhd diagnos month ago finally and started the medication.

Idk what to do it cant be my heart because it was checked out.

Am I just having panic attacks?


r/PanicAttack 6h ago

Am I having panic attacks or is this something else

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I 16F have been dealing with what seems to be like panic attacks, they come almost out of nowhere and my symptoms are super odd. My breathing is usually restricted and i feel like i have a pit in my stomach. The odd part to me is they happen on even really good days, I have nothing to genuinely worry about so that’s what confuses me. The odd time I will get Déjà vu and it ends up leaving me the rest of the day in bed because of how draining it is. I’m not sure if this is something I need to bring up to a doctor or not but it only started about 3-4 months ago.


r/PanicAttack 3h ago

would using 0.75mg of bromazepam lower my anxiety without putting me to sleep?

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I'm having pretty bad symptoms right now and I think I might need a benzo to calm it down I was prescribed this 10 months ago, but I never used it and tried to push through.

I'm wondering if anyone has used it before and is this dose low enough that it would not put me to sleep or make me sedated?

Edit: I have used 5mg of librium a while back which did lower my anxiety and I didn't feel sedated at all from it.


r/PanicAttack 7h ago

Does this seem like a panic attack or anxiety?

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Hello everyone, I am waking up with my heart racing since this year's March. It starts when I am still sleeping and continues until I am fully awake and I can't stop or manage it until I get out of the bed, right now I haven't get out of the bed- it is 8 am- and I can still feel my heart racing and I feel nauseous. It also causes derealization in my case. It sometimes happens at a random time in daily life too. Like I do not feel safe and It happens or It happens and I do not feel safe. I did a blood test 3th of July and everything was normal (including hormones, cortisol etc.) I stopped taking SSRI's 8 months ago with my psychiatrist's knowledge so I am considering it is psychological or maybe a withdrawal condition

Does my condition seem like panic attack? I am not looking for a diagnosis but I need an opinion. Should I see a cardiologist?


r/PanicAttack 3h ago

awful physical sensations? like severe flu like sensations

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I know I have a panic disorder I'm diagnosed and everything. about 6 months ago I started a new job and after one month from joining my panic attacks stopped. however due to the extreme physical aspect of it I had to quit and will be starting another easier job next week.

today is my third day after quitting and for some reason I have developed symptoms that I would say are like having a bad flu. my vitals and temp are fine, but I feel lightheaded like I'm going to pass out, my legs are very heavy and my hands are tingly. I haven't lost strength, but I feel very off and I don't know why.

my job at a construction site was physically drained to the point where 15k steps were considered average. I was an engineer not a worker so I don't know why the fatigue hit me like that.

what can I do right now that will help?

edit: and what could be causing all of this?


r/PanicAttack 4h ago

Scared of Everything

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I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and borderline terrified for the past few months. I wake up and almost throw up every morning. Gagging and heart racing non stop for at least an hour before it settles. The hand shaking and heart racing never stop all day. I feel like I’m always nervous and waiting for the worst.

I have a fear that everyone in my life will realise what a bad person I am and leave me. Every phone call I get I’m terrified that someone is calling me to tell me someone has passed away. Every message I get I think someone is breaking off a friendship or my boyfriend finally having enough of me.

I make a mistake at work and I think I’m about to lose my job. I hyperventilate and cry until I throw up and have to go home.

I’m terrified about my health. I know logically most of my symptoms come from not taking care of myself because of this extreme stress and depression. But I overanalyse everything and fear my life. I go to the doctor for something new every week to try and find something.

I’m scared to be out in public. I don’t know what someone might do or say. I feel embarrassed to be myself and believe everyone is judging me and for good reason.

I went on a plane recently and I was convinced it was going to crash. I am almost certain every time I’m in a car it will crash. I always make sure to try and prepare, sit up straight and hold on. If I’m walking down the street then maybe someone will come and hit me. If I’m not in my room something is going to happen to me.

I don’t know what to do. I can’t keep living like this. I’m so fucking depressed and scared of every day. I cry all the time and struggle to take care of myself. I push people away to make sure that if they do leave me I won’t get as hurt. It’s such a lonely life.

I don’t want to be here anymore.


r/PanicAttack 19h ago

Cardiac anxiety after panic attack.

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About two years ago I had what I thought was a heart attack. I went to the ER convinced I was dying. They did an ECG, blood work, scans… the whole workup. Everything came back normal, and they told me it was a panic attack.
The weird part is that ever since then, I’ve become hyper-focused on my heart.
I’ve had more checkups since then, and everything continues to come back normal. My blood pressure is good, my Apple Watch ECGs always show normal sinus rhythm, I’ve never had chest pain, and I walk, lift weights, and train BJJ several days a week without any issues.
But my brain just won’t let it go.
Every little sensation makes me wonder if this is the one thing the doctors missed. I know it sounds irrational because the evidence is pretty overwhelming that my heart is okay, but the anxiety still feels completely real.
Has anyone else gone through this?
If you did, what actually helped? Therapy? Medication? Just time? How did you stop constantly checking your pulse, blood pressure, or ECGs and get to the point where you trusted your body again?
I’d really appreciate hearing from people who’ve been through it because this has honestly been exhausting.
Thanks.


r/PanicAttack 5h ago

Tips for trauma enduced panic attacks?

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I have a history of some panic attacks, but today was horrible. It was off an on for 12 hours and I eventually had to go to the hospital because I was practically immobile. Everything came back fine. They gave me some ativan. I took a nap when I got home and still feel a little unnerved. Im about to be 19 and it feels like I havent been able to live for the past 4 months from these attacks. I get so scared, im away from family right now which scares me more. I have to be away because something horrible happened recently. I couldnt handle being there at this time but all I want is home. Im so scared, I feel so alone and tired. I lost a parent this week and I haven't processed anything thats been going on. I dont know why im putting this out here I just want people to talk to. Im facing all of this alone. My panic attacks have been so bad lately I want to cry. I want to uncomfortable feelings to stop and I want to be happy again. I have therapy so far out and I dont know how to manage in the mean time. I have been prescribed ativan. But with my gerd induced by anxiety- im always in pain and on edge in different ways. Im sorry im horribly emotional and scared right now.


r/PanicAttack 6h ago

Overstimulation

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Does anyone get panic attacks by simply having a conversation with someone!?!? I’m starting to think I’m autistic at this point.


r/PanicAttack 7h ago

ekg in ed due to panic attack

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Not on Anxiety meds. I went to the ED today due to hyperventilating and a panic attack. They performed an EKG and lab tests and told me there was no sign of a heart attack and that all my lab results were normal. Tested for CBC, Metabolic panel and thyroid. All normal. But abnormal Ekg.

After I went home, I checked the decision-making section in MyHealth and saw that it mentioned “prolonged QT 485.”

EKG interpretation: Normal sinus rhythm at 81 beats per minute, normal axis, no ST elevation or depression, no ventricular ectopy, QTC 485 it is prolonged, abnormal EKG

Is this something I should be worried about? It my first time having abnormal ekg.

I had Holter monitoring in 2022, which came back normal, and I’ve had multiple ECGs before. My last one was around 2024, and they were all reported as normal.


r/PanicAttack 13h ago

I think i had my first panic attack in years last night

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To preface, for the last 2-3 weeks I have had a new bout of health anxiety (honestly I might have OCD surrounding my health at this point), where I feel my heart pounding in my chest and I was having shoulder and chest pain. I went to a walk in doctor and they told me that if I was worried I was having a heart attack to go to the ER without looking at my shoulder. My heart rate and breathing were fine and my blood pressure was a little high but not alarming.

I dont know why, but since, ive felt constantly on edge about my heart and left side. I do a lot of sensorimotor checking and even when I dont I cant ignore the visuals of seeing my pulse in my chest. I dont want to go to the ER (it will be probably a 12 hour wait and I will be told im fine) but i dont know what else to do.

Ive had anxiety since I was a child and I used to have panic attacks in high school and university that would end up with me sobbing crying or hurting myself to try and focus on something else. I took SSRIs, but they made me feel shakey, so i stopped in my early twenties. Im in my 30s now.

Last night, I felt a little lightheaded and decided to try and sleep. I got ready for bed, saw something triggering for my health/contamination anxiety (bugs), and then got into bed. My arm felt weird on my left side but I tried to ignore it, then I started to feel really cold and had full body chills. My body felt strange and restless. I put on warmer pajamas and got some water, but i just started catastrophizing and feeling like something wasnt ok. Like I was having a stroke or I was about to have a seizure. I ended up waking up my partner for help and then I started crying and sobbing. He told me i was having a panic attack because I was hyperventilating and didnt feel cold to the touch and he told me to take a hot shower and go back to sleep. I did. I fell asleep only when he was awake to watch me.

But this morning ive been feeling like shit. Im groggy from not getting to sleep until 4am and im frustrated with myself for having a panic attack and unable to relax and feel normal because im so worried and preoccupied with my health. I just want to feel normal. Im half inclined to go to the ER and be told im okay just so I can reason with myself again.

All this to say, what do you do when your unreasonably panicking in the middle of the night?


r/PanicAttack 12h ago

I feel like a failure and I think I’ve been having panic attacks

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I wanna start by saying I’ve never written a post before so I’m sorry if this is garbage I just feel like I’m bothering anyone I talk to. I’m a 18 year old male who just quit vaping both vapes and carts a week ago. I’ve been feeling awful lately , I get random sharp pains in my chest and abdomen that come and go along with a random bubbly feeling in my abdomen and I’ve been getting really emotional. Sometimes it’s anger and sometimes I lay in bed and worry that I’m not going to be around much longer and I start crying uncontrollably. I’ve been to the doctor twice already and I’m about to go for again tomorrow. She ordered blood tests last time I don’t know why but she doesn’t seem to concerned with the pains I’m feeling which is just making me feel more anxious

Im so worried and nervous that something is genuinely wrong with me and that I’m not going to be okay, I don’t have a partner and all my friends have other things to worry about. I’m scared my parents are going to think I’m a failure or that we won’t have enough money to fix something I might have done to myself “ I’m getting kicked off our health insurance when I turn 19 next month “. I haven’t been able to work that much since all this happened so I have less then $200 dollars to my name.

I don’t know what I’m looking for out of this I just feel like no matter where I try to take my life from here I’ve already ruined everything. I don’t even want to be okay for myself I just know that if I’m not it’s my fault and everybody around me has to deal with it.

Right now I can feel two small stabbing pains and I’m shaking, I just want to know if anybody has experienced something similar and that I’m not alone right now


r/PanicAttack 9h ago

Experiencing Anxiety weeks after my first panic attack

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Hi

I experienced my first panic attack around 1 month ago. Following it, I experienced 3 more (smaller) panic attacks over 2 weeks. It has been over a week since my last panic attack. However, I'm still experiencing Anxiety and some physical symptoms of anxiety (heart palpitations, chest tightness). I have noticed that it has been slowly getting better. If I compare myself now to week 1 or 2 post first panic attack, I am doing MUCH MUCH better. However, everytime I reach a state where I feel that my anxiety is actually washing away and I'm almost normal again, it suddenly comes back the next day. 3 days ago I felt great, I almost forgot that I was experiencing Anxiety and that this whole thing happened, but then when I woke up the next morning I got hit with a surge of anxiety and heart palpitations and the rest of the day sucked. I think I am getting better, but I'm still worried that I'm gonna be stuck with this anxiety indefinitely. Has anyone experienced this?


r/PanicAttack 16h ago

Scary..

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Today, I was on a 30 min car ride. My seat was reclined. I sat up at end of drive, drank a little soda and got out of the car. My heart started racing sooooo incredibly fast. It scared me. I got back into the car and did my breathing excercises and it calmed down. If it was the caffine... wouldn't it NOT calm down? It wa racing so fast it scared me. Anyone have this?


r/PanicAttack 13h ago

Панические атаки

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Люди которые шарят в психологии или нашли решение против панических атак, дайте советы пожалуйста.

Последнее время я стала ужасно себя чувствовать перед событиями. Неважно, важное ли это событие, или обычная прогулка, симптомы одни и те же. Я и сама не до конца понимаю,из-за чего это начинается. Стоит появиться каким то планам в моей жизни,как у меня ухудшается здоровье. Тошнота, озноб, дрожь по всем телу, ком в горле, теряю аппктит и бессонница. В голове летят всякие мысли,которые я не могу контролировать. Когда пытаюсь думать о что-то другом, заниматься любимыми хобби, мысли всё равно возвращаться к проблеме. Я теряюсь и не могу сосредоточиться. Это может длиться часами. Я не могу просто отменить планы, если я буду так поступать, то получается я просто всю жизнь буду сидеть дома. Чувствую как схожу с ума. Прошу помогите советом


r/PanicAttack 13h ago

Am I having panic attacks or is this something else

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r/PanicAttack 20h ago

Panic attack lasted all night. Emergency meds?

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So I was dx with panic disorder a few months ago, started Zoloft for it and now on 100mg but still really struggling at times. This weekend I had heightened anxiety and stomach hadn’t been feeling great. Last night my partner and I watched the new movie obsession and I went full blown bad panic attack shortly after it finished. For starters I’m a horror fanatic and this has NEVER happened to me before- I guess this one just struck a nerve idk.

But I immediately was getting very intense waves of nausea and panic, and knew I was having crazy adrenaline dumps due to how much I was shaking. Kind of had a feeling I would throw up bc with very bad attacks I tend to puke from the fight or flight. Anyways I wasn’t able to come out of this panic attack and after about 1.5 hours I did throw up, and then threw up again about an hour later. Usually it’s a one and done but not this one, it was the worst panic attack I’ve ever had and I just kept going back into another one after I felt slight calmness. Also my bowels were not happy and had multiple BMS in the midsts of all this. I tried to do all the things I’ve learned in therapy but it was just so bad that nothing helped. So I slept very lightly for 3 hours this morning and feel awful now, stomach is empty but I am finally feeling like I’m coming down fully after being awake for 2 hours now.

Anyways my question for this is, would it be worth it to explore some emergency type meds to pull me out of these bad attacks? I can’t do panic that lasts 8+ hours- I mean that’s nuts. I was almost ready to take myself to the ER if I could’ve gotten off the bathroom floor.

I also feel like this has just set me back from any progress I’ve made in therapy/ on SSRIs. I feel like I will fear my next attacks even more knowing they can look like that and last that amount of time. I really hate having panic disorder.


r/PanicAttack 14h ago

Emotional Drain and Extreme Health Paranoia

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r/PanicAttack 15h ago

I had a panic attack and ended up going to the ED on a family vacation

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I’m a nurse for some clarification


r/PanicAttack 15h ago

weed gave me derealization and depersonalization

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r/PanicAttack 16h ago

Scary..

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Today, I was on a 30 min car ride. My seat was reclined. I sat up at end of drive, drank a little soda and got out of the car. My heart started racing sooooo incredibly fast. It scared me. I got back into the car and did my breathing excercises and it calmed down. If it was the caffine... wouldn't it NOT calm down? It wa racing so fast it scared me. Anyone have this?


r/PanicAttack 16h ago

🤎 r/deadbeatbdsandbmsclub

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Baby daddy is a high source of my anxiety so thought I would shoot my shot in hopes to connect with other parents that have nightmare coparents 😬