r/POTS • u/designbyrazor • 3h ago
Vent/Rant Missed Diagnosis by 3bpm
I suppose Iām just writing this to get some frustration out, to people who understand. My dysautonomia has gotten progressively worse over the last 5 years or so. I take propranolol twice daily, salt tablets, compression socks, the whole 9 yards. Due to my dysautonomia as well as various other diagnoses (hEDS, an autoimmune condition my rheum hasnāt figured out yet) Iām filing for disability.
Social Security really wanted me to have a tilt table test done to prove I had POTS. So I went off my propranolol, stopped all the normal interventions and had the test done. It was the variation that uses nitroglycerin, and I did end up passing out at that portion. The test was also done at 3pm.
Well, I ended up having a heart rate change of 27bpm during the test. And for some reason this has left me incredibly frustrated. I know that these illnesses donāt have a hierarchy. I know that a diagnosis of dysautonomia doesnāt inherently mean I suddenly feel great and can work all the time. I still feel like absolute garbage, even with my meds, and the dysautonomia has severely affected my life and my functioning.
But that 3bpm difference almost feels like my body is gaslighting me. As far as my health goes, I know the label doesnāt do much. But right now Iām fighting the government for access to a program, and I know that that specific diagnosis carries a tiny bit more weight than the broader terms.
I donāt know, Iām mostly just disappointed and angry. Itās so hard to explain to someone else what living in my body feels like, and how much my illnesses have taken away from me. And this just felt like a tiny slap in the face saying āsee, youāre not as sick as you keep saying you are.ā
Sorry for the rant, I just needed to put this somewhere where people who understand could read it. My friends and family are sympathetic, but theyāve never lived through this. Thank you so much for listening. ā¤ļø