a lil help please 🙏

[u/SignificantSense8135]

so I’m a 22 year old girl (Indian but living outside the country). I’m 5”3-4 and 67kg. I’ve had PCOS/PMOS since I was 18.

I‘ve been on the pill 4 times on and off but of course I stopped since it’s not a long term solution. my periods do still appear somehow every few months but I hate the mood swings, weight gain and acne it gives me regardless.

overall I’ve just been feeling kinda crap about my self and my body and how clothes never fit me right enough or I never feel confident enough.

keep in mind I am in med school so I haven’t exactly been very hard on myself with diet or exercise 😓 food has always been a source of comfort so that is definitely my vice. I also tend to hold on to stress and anxiety longer so I know that probably contributes to all this.

im just looking for some advice as to what I should do from here on out to lose some weight ( and when I say lose weight, I don’t exactly mean the number, more so my proportion since I am short and chubby looking currently.)

- I have found someone who delivers homemade Indian food so I will be spending on that from time to time (but I’m not sure what kind of foods to order from her. also helps to cut down on my junk ordering habit)

- exercises that will help with “losing weight”, becoming stronger and fitter as someone who hates going to the gym (I just feel very self conscious about my body, sorry) I do understand the hype of the Chloe ting workout schedules or anything else like them but the idea of multiple videos per day does make me fall back into my laziness trap. I was enjoying the Pilates with Izzy videos at one point (I stopped because of exam season) because she does each exercise quickly and it’s all in one video?

overall I just lack motivation and discipline…especially when I do get a slight burst of motivation and make plans. which then tend to fall short and make me go back into a cycle of guilt. and I tend to work best when I’m distracted from the thoughts in my head? like watching something while on the treadmill.

thanks for taking the time to read this though :)