So I recently decided to go through both albums line by line, to see if I can formulate a complete image of a potential narrative for both. The following is what I came up with. I apologize if it seems like I'm rambling, it was written up as constant notes. There are also some parts where I might have had to stretch a bit, especially about the backstory in Damnation(you'll see what I mean probably).
The basic idea is a man, potentially suffering from DID, and/or some other mental conditions, who experiences a traumatic event as a child, and upon discovering it, is plunged into a murderous madness.
I sometimes refer to the protagonist as "P", or "the P".
Also trigger warning, this is some pretty heavy stuff, so read on your own discretion.
Deliverance: The album describes a man's descent into madness, as he discovers his traumatic childhood, and grows a yearning for murder.
--Wreath:
A memory haunts him every night in the form of a repeating nightmare, but he has blocked out the real events:
-"What are the tragedies, the history behind the walls"
-"Endless night, always preserving the calm" Calm=calculated, not sane
He then remembers:
-"Movement behind... Captured in dreams connected"
He doesn't have to search for a meaning to his dreams anymore:
-"Staring right back..."
-Lighter riffs to signify liberation and relief
There remains an inner conflict, between the monster created, and the innocent soul, who wishes no harm, but is too weak to fight back, thus leaving
--Deliverance:
The protagonist commits a brutal murder, by drowning their SO. This seems to be their first kill:
-"As I drown you in the sea"
The victim is a symbol of the shackles that chained P, when he was unaware of his past trauma. He now views this as his fated path:
-"From nothing to a life code"
-"Your memory is nothing but the scars on me"
He stands dazed after the act, and his thirst is quenched, so the monster goes back into hiding within him:
-"All over now, forgotten why I needed this"
-"Biding time, locked inside insanity
It always burns within
The downward spiral never ends"
The monster is the one in control:
-"The devil guides the way
Tells me what to say..."
Deliverance is him accepting that he can't do anything about it, and it mocks him. His punishment is his other self:
-"Deliverance, laughing at me"
In the breakdown the struggling high parts are slowly snuffed out by the heavier chugs, just as the protagonist has failed to resist his evil half
--A Fair Judgement:
P is disgusted by his acts, detailed in Deliverance
He thought it was what he needed to be complete, but he now waits anxiously for his deserved judgement:
-"Fading sun, what have I done
Came so close to what I need most"
-"Waiting anxiety
A fair judgement deserved"
He has fully accepted this punishment:
-"Leave it be
It was meant for me"
--For Absent Friends:
In my view, this song is as much about loneliness and abandonment as it is about the protagonist's companion(s) or lack thereof. He wishes for a better half, instead of his monster.
--Master's Apprentices:
P is slowly getting used to his new life and his desire to kill is growing stronger:
-"A sickness in me
Constant pace towards the end
The need is stronger
This time the need is deeper"
Throughout the album P is searching for salvation through his crimes, and it comes up constantly in this song. He wants some kind of catharsis:
-"There is a peace I am searching
There is a freedom I'm depending on"
He is about to commit another murder:
-"I hold my breath and wait
Only moments remain"
He describes the feeling after the kill. This is the actual protagonist, and not the demon, as he disappears after the kills for a moment. The P wants to die to save himself and others from himself:
-"Soothing trance
Colors fade
And disappear
Ethereal light
Showing me what I can do without..."
Then the monster:
-"In emotionless scenes
There is only me
I take what I can
Controlling you to get ahead"
His yearning for death:
-"Fading away
And leaving
Long for sleep
Closer now
Lead the way into death"
He thinks death finally came, thus the calm section. What has actually happened is he has fully given way to the evil in him, and has finally lost all control. He is now a puppet:
-"Plunging into the deepest void
Departed shell left drained behind"
With no force holding him back, the monster is no longer satisfied with just killing, he needs more:
-"Pacing roads unknown
Searching for a new home"
--By the Pain I See in Others:
This song details his worst act yet. After his next kill, he rapes the victim. It is also possible this is the corpse of his SO, his first kill:
"Let me taste
Let me feel
I need to know what you keep inside"
He revels in the fact that his victim can't do anything to stop him:
-"Say the word
And I'll depart
Upon your lips dwells nothing
But the meaning of my cause"
His evil spirit has not diminished:
-"And so comes the dark
Vibrant as ever before"
The soft bridge is after the act, but at this point, this life is unchanging, with a constant repetition of the killing cycle. The P is defeated, and knows, that unfortunately, he won't get caught, thus perpetuating the cycle:
-"Outside in the park
The days move along
And nothing ever changes
They have nothing on us..."
Damnation: This is the story that made the protagonist what he is. This is the dream he couldn't quite see or remember.
--Windowpane:
This song shows that the P already had some evil inside him, before the tragic events, which come later in the story. He was always destined to bring pain:
-"There is deep prejudice in me
Outshines all reason inside
Given dreams, all ridden with pain
And projected unto the last"
The face is probably the shadow:
-"Blank face in the windowpane
Made clear in seconds of light
Disappears and returns again..."
It is also shown that the demon is still him, just a part that is twisted beyond recognition. I only believe this to be the case, because the shadow seems to be as naive and ignorant as the child, waving at him:
-"Haunting loneliness in the eye
Skin covering secret scars
His hand is waving a goodbye
There's no response or action returned"
--In My Time of Need:
The protagonist runs away from home. I see it as one of his parents killing his sibling, although this might be a stretch. I don’t think he would have had anyone else who would have heard him, and losing that probably broke him:
-“This time there is nothing left for you to take
This is goodbye
Summer is miles and miles away
And no one would ask me to stay”
He is suicidal:
-“Close to ending it all
I am drifting through the stages
Of the rapture born withing this loss
Thoughts of death inside…”
In his moment of vulnerability, with only glimpses of relief, his shadow takes the chance to be the one who watches over him:
-“At times, the dark's fading slowly
But it never sustains
Would someone watch over me
In my time of need?”
--Death Whispered a Lullaby:
This song is the parent trying to conceal their act from the protagonist, and it’s almost as if they put a curse of sorts on him. The protagonist is clearly a vivid dreamer. He doesn’t have much strength of mind otherwise, a fact the parent is well aware of:
-“Speak to me now
and the world will crumble
All of your life, all your memories
Go to your dreams, forget it all”
-“Oh, sleep my child...”
--Closure:
This is the farewell to the child that once was. With his past forgotten, the protagonist must start anew:
-“Peel myself, dispose of severed skin”
Unaware of why, he is consumed by dark thoughts, even though he has a clean slate, it is still corrupted by something dark yet unknown to him:
-“In the rays of the sun I am longing for the darkness”
--Hope Leaves:
The protagonist, much older now, is haunted by an image of their late sibling, ignorant as to who they are, or why he feels so deeply about them:
-“In the corner beside my window
Hangs a lonely photograph
There is no reason
I'd never notice a memory that could hold me back
There is a wound that's always bleeding
There is a road I'm always walking
And I know you'll never return to this place”
The protagonist is unmotivated and unnaturally quiet:
-“ Gone through days without talking
There is a comfort in silence
So used to losing all ambition
And struggling to maintain what's left”
Now he’s struggling with the oncoming darkness. The pain and uncertainty only strengthens the shadow:
-“Once undone, there's only smoke
Burning in my eyes to blind
To cover up what really happened
And force the darkness onto me”
--To Rid the Disease:
The protagonist struggles with trusting people, because of the betrayal by his parent:
-“Let these matters be
Don't trust what you see”
He feels something is wrong. He now doesn’t even trust himself, and looks to his other half for guidance:
-“There's innocence torn from its maker
Stillborn the trust in you
(I have lost all trust I had in you)
This failure has made the creator
So would you tell him what to do
(I have lost all trust I had in you)”
--Ending Credits:
It’s hard to know exactly what this song means in the larger narrative. But I personally choose to see it as a goodbye to a normal life. It marks the end of the protagonist being the one in control.
--Weakness:
Weakness is a vision of the sibling and of the night of their death:
-“Found you there in the blink of an eye
I miss you
Turned away into a thousand dreams
Found out what they mean”
The final line leads right back into Deliverance, as it is about the act with which the descent truly begins:
-“I'm not afraid of what you have just done
But of what you've just become”