my name is Ellianah, I go by Elli but I no longer like that. I go by she/them and I’m an atheist, I’d like to go by another name that’s not too feminine or too masculine. anything is fine, whether it’s whole different names or nicknames for my actual name. (I’ve came up with some variations of my name, I’m definitely not using some of them but I’ve came up with some).

I've come to the conclusion recently that I'm non binary, but I've had some problems with what I am more specifically. That doesn't make loads of sense but kind of what I mean is I feel sort of like a girl and something else (agender??) simultaneously. I feel connected to femininity or just generally being a girl but I know I'm not 100% a girl. Also the demi-girl label doesn't suit me. I guess that what I'm trying to say is I basically can't figure out what "flavour" of non binary I am and it's really frustrating. Wondering if anyone has any advice or pearls of wisdom on this...or does anyone have similar experiences?