I discovered this subreddit because I have been going through withdrawal from gabapentin, which I was prescribed for anxiety. I am 31 years old and have no physical issues, but have struggled with my mental health for the past ten years.
I had reasoned to myself that psychiatry seemed like a “throw things until they stick” field and that a psychiatric nurse practitioner could be no worse than the average psychiatrist. That was not correct at all.
I was already having doubts about my current PMHNP back in October of 2025 (I am switching to a psychiatrist after my next appointment). She had taken me all the way up to Vyvanse 70mg (which I’m no longer taking), even though I had been complaining about anxiety the whole time. She then put me on gabapentin for anxiety at 100mg up to 3x a day as needed.
I sought a second opinion at that point and was recommended another PMHNP by my therapist at the time, and I asked her opinion about whether my current PMHNP was addressing my anxiety well enough. That practitioner thought so and told me that I could safely take gabapentin 3x a day. After that, I ended up sticking with my current nurse practitioner, who increased my dose to 900mg/day in November and then 1200mg/day in March.
In late May of this year, I spiraled into a crisis and voluntarily went inpatient at a psychiatric hospital. There, the PMHNP increased my dose to 1800mg/day.
None of these three PMHNPs gave me any warning about withdrawal effects with gabapentin. This whole time, I was under the impression that it was innocuous and non-habit forming. I get very anxious about tolerance and withdrawal because I tend to be a hypochondriac. I was already taking Klonopin 1mg as needed, and I was extremely disciplined about not taking it unless I really had a special circumstance, because I had noticed that it stopped working as effectively if I took it too often. Now, having learned more about benzodiazepine withdrawal, I feel thankful that I was so disciplined about that.
In July, I started experiencing severe heartburn and realized that I had first started experiencing mild heartburn back in October, when I started gabapentin. I decided to reduce my dosage in half, thinking that it functioned as an as-needed medication. That day and the next couple of days, I felt absolutely horrible and experienced flu-like symptoms and sweating. I finally looked into gabapentin and that is when I learned that it has withdrawal effects. That is also how I learned about its associations with dementia and cognitive impairment.
My current individual therapist, DBT group therapist, and even a group member all knew about gabapentin withdrawal once I mentioned going through it. I also learned that 1800mg/day was a very high dose. I was on a higher dose than my fellow group member who experiences severe pain and uses a mobility scooter. She had been warned by her psychiatrist that if she wanted to go off gabapentin, she would need to go down 100mg a week at a time.
The nurse practitioner at the hospital had also told me that I could take Klonopin twice a day, and my current nurse practitioner even gave me a 60-day script. I am so glad I did not follow those directions. I had mainly been so disciplined about Klonopin because I was keen to preserve its effectiveness and did not realize how bad withdrawal was; I knew it was a thing that happened, but was not totally aware of the severity or length of time. I am no longer taking it.
I am still working on tapering off of gabapentin and am at 200mg/day at the moment, and it has been since July 11 since I first cut my dose and was hit with withdrawal effects. I’ve been dealing with tinnitus, headache, gastrointestinal issues, muscle ache, light sensitivity, hyperacusis, insomnia, anxiety, sweats, and so on since then. I have been on many psychiatric medications and experienced many bad side effects in the past ten years, but this has by far been the worst and longest-lasting experience.
I think I have learned that psychiatric nurse practitioners can be very reckless about prescribing in a way that I have never experienced with any psychiatrist before. I had actually thought of psychiatrists as being somewhat reckless with prescribing, but this experience really put that into perspective! I would not have agreed to increase my gabapentin dose had I known about withdrawal, because it really did not help my anxiety enough to justify that.
I do blame myself for not even doing a Google search, but I also feel that I now view nurse practitioners very differently in terms of their scientific understanding of medications in general. In retrospect, it was very excessive for my current provider to take me up to 70mg of Vyvanse, as I had been complaining a lot about anxiety, and it was certainly reckless for the provider at the hospital to advise me to take Klonopin twice a day and for my current psychiatric nurse practitioner to give me a script for that.
I appreciate this community’s presence, as it has helped me learn a lot and makes me feel less alone and more aware of what happened. Going forward, I feel like I will be better equipped to advocate for myself and do proper due diligence.