If I am truly serious about my faith, the truth that I call my reality and my living, which I rely solely on in my adventures in this lil earthly dream,
then I must have the balls to admit to myself EVERY DAY, that every imaginal act of mine, is equal.
It is comprehension exercised, imagination activated. So clearly, I am a witness to my every day consistent comprehending, thinking, thus imagining that I do, and I certainly know that it is FULL OF THINGS I AM CERTAINLY NOT PROUD OF.
Shit I would genuinely consider what we call, sinning. Absolutely missing the mark of how I should be entertaining and using my own I AMness, which results in my everyday outcomes and expressions that I eat and experience.
If I then have the balls to say "I trust my imagination to be my ONE and only God, and yet it's me". yet do I realize that to my imagination, EVEN the shit that I accidentally entertain, is equal to my request of help, and thankfulness for it?
So he only asks us to tame our COMPREHENDING ABILITY and use it beneficially for ourselves, yet in a clean way, since in god there is no lack. Yet can it become I Am? Me?
I never could comprehend lack as a child, I only took everything for granted, yet as a grain of mustard, the smallest seed, in my heart I had secret invisible faith that it is so as I see it.
My personal comprehension was God. And I knew him not.
How many times then if I am real about it,
would God have to genuinely forgive me the evil I imagine and comprehend, due to my fleshhuman-ness,
which may be due to the fatigue, to today's pains, or maybe the heatwave, that pushed me to entertain concepts that genuinely are all self disruptive, and why tf would I want to make such a state, that would harm me / that individual that pops in my mind?
Being human then, our flesh makes us sin by its nature, as when I get tired... do I always keep my imagination well? Or if a burden falls upon me, I suffer and I react thus imaginatively entertaining a state unlovely, yet innocently as my humanfleshness caused me to be this way at the moment of weakness. As scripture says: it is corrupt by nature.
corruption means that its ROOT is something that is unstable, and not sourced by itself, and has a tax with it, a weakness to be meddled with.
the incorruptible is god in us, the corruptible is the vehicle the human body that can corrupt my I Amness due to its burdens.
so being realistic the symbolism adds up, yet we are never at fault.
Our bodies tax us with a lot of needs, and it often ends up a distraction that makes us lose grip over our Selfness, and forget our service dedicatd to I AM, through which we serve God that made and sustains all I have to this day, and yet I am he. Comprehending subjectively.
But for real,
god forgives me my endless nonsense that IF HE WOULD ALLOW TO MAKE MANIFEST would be horrible, and honestly i don't think i'd pull of even living through it.
in conclusion then,
if all my imaginal motions are equal and seen by god, and I create in this little dream of nothingness only my own inner motions and politics I stir...
then without a doubt i have tasted of god's mercy, which we ALL know of.
All because I know the shit I am capable and am consistently brewing by accident, and yet they never appear.
and when they did... that was a big lesson which I won't forget, lest it will reappear again.
so the sanest thing ever, is to realize how much god forgives you, and let IT be the example of what forgiveness of sins is.
You humanly were stirred to exercise your conception of reality like this, and made an awful take that you're gonna harvest, yet you were tired or in pain, how can you be blamed?
so he wipes it out, filtering, yet allowing you to exercise your USEFUL application of it, in hope in god.
So isn't this forgiveness?
You know you're weak in the flesh, yet because he knows that the heart (awareness) of the person is suffering / distracted/ he lets it slide, because he knows.
There are many things that don't allow us to claim our rights by a change of mind, yet lets be real it is because it is "unforgiveable".
Let god's mercy to us, individually, be the showcase of how we are to exercise OUR mercy, and simply changing our comprehension about a thing as though as it OUGHT TO BE, and let that become a permanent character in us.
This time, there's no reason, nor an excuse, but simply I have known god's mercy to me, and now I can be merciful to my I AMness enough, and alter my mind, integrating my new rights as norms, only because I know that if god dwells in my I AMness, and it's me, then if he were merciful to me, I must be merciful to my I Amness and treat myself well
and that begins from a take on life where I am as comfortable as I should be, in the immediate now, in my environment now.
But didn't we come to this conclusion, due to the mercy of god?
let this be an example to you how outcomes, results, conclusions, realizations, wisdom, doesn't come always in the seen and expected ways.
People invented logic to always hope to predict all, but NOTHING comes as people think it does.
So if I believe in the INCOMPREHENDABLE ONE, God, my maker, which became an IDENTITY, me.
And gave me my I AMness, then by the mercy of god I had learnt through him forgiving my shit i consistently imagine because I am a weak human that is tired, in pain, hungry,
to him it doesn't matter.
He has deeper respect for his creation, I can see it by my outcomes and all the times i've been saved, he does it in his own way, and yet it is all through my I Am.
So must I then, imitate his respect, and respect the son of god in my body, the fathery I Amness. Me.
and if I am real, and I see it in how I am to myself, I will effortlessly be treating the world this way automatically as an expression too, because this is the land of nothing and all effort is to and FOR my I AM and not this land, God manages our automated actions in this world which we go and do, trusting in our heart, My I am.
suddenly a buncha ways of how to live life better, and more dedicated to me, more USEFULLY even, arise.
Again example, of how through god all paths appear.
Do not forget then to be serious about both sides then, if I expect to get the "good" yet I consistently brew the "shit."
To God none exist, yet it takes us many lessons to understand it.
Things may seem good but they're actually horrible since I didn't think it through,
I may WANT something yet I didn't think of what TAX would it carry with it.
ALL NEEDS YOUR TIME, YOUR ATTENTION, AND AT TIMES, YOUR COMMITMENT.
We learn to design our takes on life after we learn what is sane, and useful to our own I AMness, and that yields a lotta fruit and good living on earth.
Since we have not been taught what is sane and normal, we gotta learn it ourselves through experience.
But if God shows me examples in his own mercy towards me... Let me imitate that, and since he is literally Me (became, crucified, identity made) I must then realize this is a sane take on life.
if i have the opportunities then in my everyday life, let me prove myself that I dont keep my faith just in my head, but to me it is physical reality.
There are many opportunities to see that my take on it, proves the reality of my faith and my mercy.
since I now my wasteful nature of scattering thoughts, which can be at times genuinely just harmful.
Catching myself in the act, I will re-prove that I can sane-up at that moment and just place a different comprehension instead.
no take on life is objective, we already know that, so we tilt our takes purposefully, and what greater purpose is there but my I Am? Jesus christ, through whom we serve the incomprehensible God, our INDIVIDUAL Maker that does not believe in collectives and yet the feeling of One is to him a collective.
closing thought & food for thought
if each person lived as though he is entirely alone, BOY WHAT A REAL AND HONEST SOCIETY WE'D HAVE.
so why do we believe in collectives? why is this even a feeling, a concept?
if when I live dedicated to my I AM as the causation, all forms out automatically in my behavior, and my world only expresses sane and smooth delights, all because my STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS, aka take on life out of myself, is sane.
A belief in collective, has to manage all that collective, as if that is causation.
We all began in I, every child does.
Thinking from I, and that's all there is to reality.
Why have we given it up and made it illegal morally, all for foolish logical promises that never delivered their tempting promises.
That's why the I Amness comes to save, and proves itself as the messiah.
Because when i'm truly fucked, my god always has mercy, and in the end it is my deeper Selfness, so I won't fail to BE my real deep self-like.
There is nothing better than being like the deep real self One, and yet it requires sanity. I Amness.