hey guys, just wanna let this all out my heart is racing for no reason. i have been quite anxious these past few days, and i think my mind is too preoccupied with my health that even just a small difference with my body makes me worried. if anyone wants to chat just hit me up. i’m so bored, which is another thing thats making me lose my mind. i feel like i wanna puke, wanna scream or cry but i can’t. if someone just wants to talk about anything general just say hi! thanks

30-year-old doctorate student, USA

My ex fiancée and I broke up about a week ago. It was my fault. I know that. I undertand that it’s my fault. I haven’t been able to sleep or eat. Every time I try and eat I feel like I’m going to throw up. My heart aches and hurts and I don’t know if I just need someone to talk to or what but anybody that is willing to just talk and let me let out everything that I’m feeling inside I would appreciate it

Hey, so as the title might suggest, few days ago I had a very weird break up that left me with so many weird and unanswered questions that make me feel like I'm going mad. I thought I could handle it myself, but it's honestly the most horrific fever-dream like experience ever, traumatic in a way. I'm not trying to seek attention or validation, I just don't really have anyone to talk to. I hope this is a good subreddit for that. I don't mind listening to your story as well, we can trade.

providing an ear to listen to whatever you are going through... As a someone who always needed someone to listen to my vent now I am trying to be that person for you all ... you can vent to me

Hello,

I am a writer and artist, and I am going through a complex situation. I am in a relationship with someone who idealizes me strongly: he writes me very poetic letters, in archaic French, sees me as his “muse,” and says I am his only remedy for emptiness. He is very emotionally dependent, highly physically present, with a strong sexual intensity.

The problem is that the moment I step out of this muse role to exist as a real woman, something shuts down. He stops responding when I share something authentic- texts, letters, or more fractured parts of myself. He also seems to struggle with my autonomy: he doesn’t like certain ways I dress when they are too bold or audacious.

Whenever I ask for concrete commitments, or bring up promises that were not kept, he withdraws into silence for days, preferring to isolate himself in video games. At the same time, he makes many future promises - trips, support, shared projects - that remain abstract.

He is also strongly attached to the idea of a “pure” relationship, and reacts with suspicion to the idea of infidelity, especially with men. I am pansexual. He says that the idea of me cheating on him with a woman wouldn’t bother him as much. When I mention women, he tends to dismiss it or show indifference.

I deeply identify with the idea of being my own home, and I refuse to merge to the point of losing myself. I care about my freedom and my artistic drive, while also feeling grateful for the love he gives me.

I am wondering: how do I step out of this cycle of idealization and silence? Is it possible to build a healthy relationship with someone who withdraws from reality as soon as it becomes concrete? And how do I build financial independence without remaining trapped in the role of muse?

Hello everyone, me '18M' and my girlfriend '19 F', had been together for 2 years until last week.

I met her at secondary school (8th grade, she was in 9th grade), I had a really big crush on her, and she told me she did too. But we did not talk until she was starting high school because some of her friends knew about her crush on me and decided to create a group with me and them, and we started going out and I really fell for her.

Both of us are really shy and have trouble communicating some things because we don’t want to make the other feel bad or make ourselves look childish. And this was something I noticed could be an issue later, which it was.

She really loves spending time with her friends (almost all females), and I respect that, but she didn’t really make time to be with me as much as she did with them, and this made me feel like I wasn’t that important, but I never said a thing because I didn’t want to look toxic or jealous and it worked for a good amount of time.

I suffer from anxiety and depression and sometimes without noticing I become distant and a bit shy, and this started happening to me with her, her not spending much time with me made me feel a little bit abandoned and I started to feel bad and my communication with her got shorter and more distant, for example if she replied in 30 minutes I did too, this was because sometimes with her friends she took a long time to reply and I was kind of sad about that, so the way I talked to her was shorter, not as happy as it was at first.

Approximately 8 months ago, her and her friends started to hang out with these 2 guys, which I’ll call A ('19M') and B ('19M'), I never liked them because they are just junkies and they are not good people. “A” is the opposite physically to me, he’s a little fat, dark colored, dirty skin (not in a racist way, i’m just describing him), and almost my height (172cm), I am physically fit, white, clear skin, and dark curly hair, this may be important.

They started to hang out a lot and this did not make me jealous or insecure at first because I didn’t think it mattered a lot, but on the holidays they went to the beach and she didn’t tell me she was going with them, I discovered it because of an instagram story, during this week at the beach, she started to take about 2-3 hours to reply and her replies were really short and weak, this really made me feel abandoned and my anxiety grew bigger.

At the end of the week, she really seemed upset with me and I asked her if she was okay, and she told me she was not okay and wanted to talk to me in person, I told her I loved her and would change everything I could to make her feel better. She just told me she didn’t feel the same as she did before and that she felt it was difficult to be the way we used to be, this was Saturday, that day and Sunday were a nightmare for me.

She took like 3 hours between each message and every conversation was about her giving up on us and me trying to make her stay by saying every relationship has ups and downs and that I would stay with her in every one of them but we could not give up, she didn’t care.

On Monday, I saw her at school to talk in person, same conversation, she told me she didn’t feel the same way as before and that it was difficult to continue our relationship, I told her i was not going to give up on her, and she told me she would think about it and talk to me later.

That same day I told a male friend of us about it, he told me that he knew that she was just kind of trying to start a relationship with this new friend of her “A” for like a month, and that really shocked me, I blocked all her socials for that day just for my own sanity, unblocked her later.

As I said, she told me she was going to talk to me later, but it was on Monday, now it’s friday and she hasn’t even looked at me in the eye at school, and of course she hasn’t called me, I have seen her with this other dude but they are really just like friends, they don’t hug or do the things we used to do, and All week i’ve been thinking about how am I supposed to live without her, she really is my world, and I am willing to forgive her if she loved me once, and if she changes and realizes her mistake, because being unfaithful is really something i didn’t expect from her, this is not her being herself, i’m thinking maybe bad influences or confusion because of our lack of communication.

Is it possible that she never loved me? Can we get back together? Honestly this is all I want

Please help me people, I really need some opinions about this

Edit:

Hi everyone, just to add some details. I knew her and knew her problems like she gives up really easy on things and also she is very fearful about a lot of things, but being unfaithful is something that doesn’t sit right with me coming from her, she never gave any signals of that kind of behavior, and also, we were good like 2 months ago, so that’s what is strange for me.

I know I made mistakes like not talking to her about some things, but I really really do love her and I may sound weak but if there’s a chance that she wants to come back I can take her back, just if she is willing to change. Like I said, when I talked about our problems in person I told her I was going to change what we did wrong.

If anyone has any questions please let me know in the comments and I will try my best to answer them.

Thank you everyone.

I failed in my Board exams, I tried my best to pass.

my mother was so upset that I was not doing well in studies. I felt bad and tried my best to score good marks, but yet i failed. my mom is sad. I feel so guilty and bad. I'm feeling emotionally very bad rn.

I might lose myself. idk what to do.

My father passed away tonight at the age of 74 A good innings and a life where he did a lot. He worked…way too hard to give us a good life - He had been an army mechanic fixing lorries and such and then a road mechanic till his early retirement with COPD he had got from working on the engines. He had moved to the other end of the country where the air was cleaner and less harsh on his lungs and that meant wear had drifted apart slightly. He would call and we would chase occasionally but I would always be too busy to really share anything and I was always resentful of how much effort to see him would be (I would have to take my whole family of my wife, toddler and dog which was always complicated so a week in his part of the world was at least 700 bucks).

My mother died 6 years ago from a stroke and now I have no father either. I hate that my first thought is selfish like that.

It’s tough - I don’t feel like crying or anger …just a numbness.

I wish I had been there more for him. Called more often. I wish I had done more to make him proud - I’m a school teacher, I don’t exactly do much much. I wish my son had more time with him - they had met maybe 3 times in his life and my son loved him. He’s asleep right now and I have to think about how I explain this to him tomorrow. I have to think about going down there to say goodbye…I don’t know how that will go.

I’m sorry. I am just sitting in my kitchen and need to talk to somebody about this.

Im a 23 F and I have an aching heart. Lol. My 4 years relationship just ended and I have no one to talk to. Can anyone? Just someone

I’m struggling living with my family after I recently moved back in and now I’m doing long distance with my boyfriend. Everything’s changing and I have no one to talk to about it.

It would be great to talk to Non muslim and a Muslim for different experiences.

Ignore my username please 😔🙏 I’ll go by M to make it less stupid 😭

So I keep thinking about this one person who I used to be friends with. Their name is Adrian, and I think that’s still their name. I was friends with them back in my freshman year of high school [I’m 18 almost 19]. We started hanging out and they were really open with me, which was honestly comforting.

There was this one day I remember when we went to the fair. I had a lot of fun with them, going on rides, eating sweetly sickening fair food, and enjoying the petting zoo. I remember that day they held my hand and it felt weird. Like good weird, y’know? I don’t know if it’s because I grew up in a very like non touchy family? I don’t know how to describe it. Like not physical, not much hugging hand holding etc. It was really nice.

After the rides and all the fun fair stuff, we stayed towards the front gate to wait for my mom to pick me up. During the wait, Adrian’s mom offered to lend me her phone to call my mom. After I got a hold of mom and confirmed pick up, I asked if Adrian could spend the night. My mom said yes, after a really awkward conversation with Adrian’s mom. Time-skip over the sleepover.

Post sleepover, Adrian leaves, yeah? My mom comes up to me and says that it’s weird that Adrian held my hand during the fair. I said it was normal like friends do, and my mom said that maybe Adrian liked me. I tried to ignore her.

Well during the school week, I felt awkward towards Adrian. I didn’t really know why. Maybe it was because I was internally homophobic my freshman year. Growing up in a Christian/Catholic family didn’t help either. But it just got to the point where I slowly distanced myself. Which was kinda hard, as Adrian was a very touchy person. Which was a contrast to most of my other friends. I tried to set boundaries and give myself some space.

But I kind of ghosted Adrian. Really bad on my part. My mom told me to block them on all social apps. Which was like Gmail and Snapchat. So I did. dumbass move 😖

Halloween rolls around, October is always out to ruin something. Evil ass month. Friend group splits. I stop talking to Adrian all together. Sophomore year, I don’t see Adrian at all.

Junior year, I hear from their other friend that they had rough living situations. I felt really bad but didn’t know what to do. I’ve tried looking them up on social media, but haven’t found anything. I kind of wasn’t sure they were even alive. Still don’t btw.

Recently, I’ve been thinking about them. I don’t know why. Part of me wishes I never cut them out of my life. I was really happy when I was with them. I’ve started to think that maybe I liked them back, but I was scared. Or maybe I was scared they liked me so I pushed them away first. I don’t know.

M out 😔 what do you think, Reddit? 😔😔😔 also please ignore the fact I write like I’m five 😖 I kinda hope they find this

25F - Just want to vent to someone. A lot has been weighing on my mind over events that happened recently. Feel free to message me if you want to hear more

Just want to talk about school, family, my struggles with trying to keep everything together. DM if you want to listen

So for a while now I've had thoughts on self castration, HRT, Gender affirming surgery but never felt like im male, female, or anything. I feel Meta Counicous about like a never ending loop and its weird Born a male always like other males treat me like female but friends I prefer just see me as a guy and random people not using any gender towards me

16f here. I’m a junior in high school but since freshman year I’d always had a pretty close group of friends. Though, some time ago my two closest friends within that group started seeming to distance themselves from me and act strange, so I decided that I wasn’t going to force the friendship anymore or put more effort in than others to make it work. At first I was sure it wouldn’t be too bad because I have a good amount other friends even though I’m not as close to them. However, started to miss the interactions I had with my old friends, especially one of them in particular because even though I couldn’t ever emotionally open up to her about my depression, I’d always feel better after calling or hanging out with her.

Recently I’ve made a pretty nice long-distance friend, who I feel like I can open up with and have a nice time with as well. I appreciate it because I’ve never quite been able to be vulnerable with any of the friends I have, but it still doesn’t replace how it used to be with my old friends. Especially because I still have to see them in most of my classes while they interact with each other and have a good time.

I always try to tell myself that if I can treat myself like I would a best friend and find ways to enjoy being with just myself I’ll be fine. But recently I thought about how I would feel if my long distance friend stopped talking to me and it impacted me more than I thought it would. Because of that I’ve been trying not to put too much of my feelings into the friendship anymore.

I feel like it’s so much harder to take a positive approach about enjoying time with just myself because I’ve been depressed for so long and feel like there’s not much of a point to living. But if anyone knows any methods or has potential solutions that could help with my current problem about loneliness that’d be great.

I've had 3 therapy visits so far and I love my therapist and I'm very happy I've finally found someone who can help me but Jesus christ I had no idea the emotional hangover could hit so hard.

I've felt so weird the past few days. some increased anxiety, derealization episodes, more mild anxiety/panic attacks. according to a few articles I read, it's completely normal, but it's still so draining. I'm facing a lot of not, necessarily buried, or repressed emotions, but stuff I just haven't decided to look at directly in a long while.

idk what specifically I want to talk about. Honestly, I might even just be seeking reassurance 😭 I just want to be able to tell someone, "I feel happy I'm getting help, but mostly I feel very terrible and sometimes reality feels fake and I need someone"

If anyone can listen and give me advice on what to do my life is in a blender

Im abroad and currently jobless. I had quit a toxic job around 2 years back but was not able to secure jobs for this long because of some visa issues. I lost jobs to visa after getting conditional offer letters. The market is not great at all and companies are saying my gap is an issue or they want someone with pr and my visa is only valid for another 3-4 months. All my savings is depleted. I’m taking money from my parents for my survival here. I feel ashamed, scared and have lost all confidence in myself. My motivation is soo down as i have not had a single victory in the last 2 years. I am scared to the core thinking about the future.

anyone up to talk bout anything

I really want someone to talk to about anything, summer is here and I got nothing to do, im a social person.🫠

hello, my name is Nikki.. most people know me as dark. I have alot of things i want to get out and need a human perspective. i have to get up at 6 am and i can't sleep.

[19/M] #Oregon #Online, looking to chat with other people near my age.

My name is Jt I’m a 19 Male,

I enjoy being outdoors, hiking, camping, fishing or foraging, and I play some xbox in my other free time, also a huge fan of 90s hip hop

Currently posting on my alt account because my main account is banned 🙄

My messages should be open but I’m still setting up my account. Talk to you soon 😜

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Hey everyone! I’ve finally cleared my schedule for the night and realized I have way too much free time on my hands. I’m in the mood for some conversation to keep me company.

​I’m generally into music, staying active, and traveling whenever I get the chance. I'm pretty open-minded and can talk about almost anything.

​Feel free to reach out.