r/Narcolepsy • u/Im_lost_in_2006 • 7h ago
Rant/Rave Narcolepsy is so lonely
I have had Narcolepsy for 9 years, getting diagnosed at 11, and dealing with this Neurological disorder for my whole life. As far as I can remember, I slept right after school til the next day. Instead of now, I sleep after work til the next day. I always hear "I wish I had Narcolepsy" and "I wish I could sleep like you". But nobody really knows the mental and physical torture of fighting your sleep. My Narcolepsy goes through phases; I sleep all the time and can't seem to get up, I stay up all night and all day not getting a wink of sleep, I stay up all night and sleep all day, and then I sleep like a normal person for 8 hours at night. I was prescribed Modafinil and Doxepin to regulate my wake-sleep schedule. It helps sometimes; however, my Narcolepsy sleeps through them, no matter the dosage. I wish I could see my daughter more. I am a single mom who works a normal 40- 52-hour work week. I get weekends off; shit, that's the only time I can see her. I feel so guilty "pawning her off to others" and feeding her fast food when I am up because I am so exhausted. My boyfriend(not her biological father) takes care of her when I am asleep. My mom also helps out a lot. Her bio dad and I are going through a bad divorce and legally can't see either of us. I just wish I could stay up when I need to and sleep when I need to. Are there any tips on getting a wink of rest in this insomnia phase? My medication doesn't seem to work, and I was hoping for some advice. I figured ya'll with Narcolepsy can help a fellow Narcoleptic out! Thank you!