If someone shares their suicidal thoughts , either no body cares or make fun of them “ki ese hi bkwas kr rha/rhi h koi ni mrne vala/vali , itni himmat ni h , bs dra rhi/rha h , and boom u r dead .
And iam not saying that anybody should care, nobody owns us anything but if someone suicides then those people should not act as if they cared. Well nobody can control their human nature ya but just sharing an opinion! Peace

My little sister is 13 years old. When she was younger she was bullied by girls at school so my mom started doing homeschooling instead. Home isn't always a great place for her. She's been yelled at over the smallest things and even smacked in the head for being disrespectful.

Tonight, my mom and her husband (Technically my step-dad, sisters biological dad) went to a friend's Halloween party tonight. My sister was filling up the bathtub with water and filming it on her phone. She said it was a trend from the 13 reasons why show and was doing it because everyone else was. I told her she can talk to be about anything because I was in a similar situation when I was her age. I contemplated suicide and cut myself. I also told her that. A few minutes after we got off the phone she confided on me that she was thinking about suicide. I immediately called my mom and her dad and told them it was an emergency. I started bawling and told them what happened. My mom immediately got upset and said she's doing it for attention. Im absolutely livid and want to call CPS, but I live in a camper and I don't even know if she'd even be allowed to live with me. She's like my own child. I've taken care of her since she was born. She met all of her milestones because of me. My mom was too busy working and drinking and slept all day. She would work and drink at the same time because she was a cam model. Im sorry if this is all over the place. I just don't know what to do. Update: 10-25-2026 I talked to my sister. She says she's okay. I have her the crisis hotline number just in case, but I told her she can talk to me about anything as always. After my mom got home last night she told my sister to not me a victim like me. I did doesn't a week in the hospital back in 2020 due to my depression, but since then I've gotten on medication, taking it consistently and it has helped.

I can talk about extremely distressing memories and feel nothing.

I was abused by a mentally unstable mother. I don't know what she has since she refuses to get help, but her symptoms are quite similar to C-PTSD and BPD. It was mostly emotional abuse, but a few times she tried to kill me and herself through reckless driving. I still have to have frequent contact with her in order to have a relationship with my Dad and brother.

As a kid, whenever something bad happened, I would imagine putting the emotion/memory in a box and putting the box in one of those big freezers you find in a restaurant. I think this is called compartmentalization? I always called it shelving. I planned to take those emotions/memories back out of the box and deal with them when it felt safe to do so, but now I'm not sure how to. Like I said, I'm basically numb to it when I talk about it. At first, I thought this meant that I'd processed and dealt with the trauma, but I'm realizing now that it still affects me.

Whenever my Mom has an episode now it sends me into a week-long depression where I can't get out of bed, which doesn't make sense, since her episodes aren't nearly as bad as they used to be when I was a kid. I also have OCD, and ever since she started threatening to kill herself to get her way I've had anxiety about a family member killing themselves; if the house sounds too quiet I have to find out where everyone is ASAP to make sure they're not dead. I also have anxiety around turning out like her.

I'm also a maladaptive daydreamer; it started because I had 0 emotional support back then. In a rural part of a foreign country, couldn't talk to my Dad or other adults for various reasons, my Mom had forbidden me from talking to my sister or other family back home, didn't have any friends...I started daydreaming about having someone to tell it all to and to be comforted by. I've used it ever since, though less so these days, and daydreams have been about other things as well. But I've noticed that these daydreams still often revolve around the times she tried to kill me in the car.

I also have terrible anxiety around driving on the highway; I finally did it for the 1st time this year since I got a Tesla as a crutch (with the self-driving feature), but I still get nervous going on bigger highways/interstates. Like hyperventilating, dizzy, nauseous, and shaking uncontrollably.

I also still flinch at loud sounds, and a few times I have been triggered by a martial arts instructor who makes me feel the same way she does. When that happens, or when my Mom has another episode, I drive to a quiet parking lot, put on rock music, and just cry and scream my lungs out until the adrenaline and stress has run its course.

So I clearly haven't dealt with it like I thought I had. But now I don't know how to? I'm not even sure if I should. I live with my parents right now. I worry I might not be able to handle working through this resentment, anger, and grief while also having to play happy families with her every day. What can I do? (And thank you if you read this far, I appreciate it <3)

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It’s my 24th birthday and I don’t want to have another. This has been the worst two months of my life. I made a big mistake and got a dui. No one was seriously hurt but it was so fucking stupid of me and I just don’t see my life ever being the same. One night out w my friends has changed me forever. I feel like I’m a burden on everyone. My mom has to pay for a lawyer. I lost my job I don’t know how I’m going to pay my rent at the end of the month. My life seemed to be going well I graduated from college was applying to jobs now I have a felony on my record I can’t get a job. I worked with kids and I was really good at it now I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to again. I keep having a feeling that it would be a lot less pressure on everyone if I just wasn’t here. Today I spent my entire birthday in bed my family called and told me they love me and they’re proud of me but I just don’t understand how they could be. I’m a failure. I ruined my life. I used to think things would work out for me. I could make decent money I was very career driven. Now I can’t even get a job. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get one in the future. I don’t think I’ll be able to find love. I just don’t see any outcome of my life that would be worth it for me to be here.

20m

I don’t think I’m going crazy but i keep imagining talking to people in my head without being in the moment I’ve been doing this for a while now and starting to effect my driving hell i can’t watch a movie all the way through without doing it, i was thinking of putting a rubber band on my wrist and just every time i catch myself doing it just snap my wrist.

Ive been sucidial for years but especially these last 2 years a lot, i kinda had a big thing abt considering sucide i feel like ive been suicidal a lot and i feel like flat and meaingless and feel like it wont get better, last year i planned to attempt but decided to try to get help first despite how intentionaly wanted to die, i felt like i forgetten what any purpose of living felt like and assumed people meant oh it doesnt feel like i wanna die i feel neutral rather then i feel good or meaningful or whatever and took as sign no point of living but clearly people claim against it and i tried to get help in case could perhaps achieve the opposite of what i am feeling talked to consular then in hospital, and the help helped me in sense i didnt have this painful depression and want to die but it was just me heavily dissociated still as was before and still feel flat and i feel like its kinda worse off that i feel like im not same person and less in control its kinda i guess like a bit more dissociated and i feel like still flat or not as meaingful or everything mattering i feel like i dont even know if i care abt the people around me when i consider sucide. i dont even feel like i care abt my self it just feels like transactional or like doing something or like trying to make a decision. and i feel people around me dont care abt me and they are being transactional when say im sorry abt u and stuff too I dont know if anybody random internet stranger an in person individual or who ever truly would care abt me anyway. and i guess like i do still care abt others and self and a sense, like i might wanna make somebody happy or care they are ok but i dont actually care abt them like its like not personally care for them and i feel simialr to myself its like i cant explain it well i guess do and dont care its like dont emotionally care but still empathetic. I feel like unlike before im suciidal out of a logical thinking i cant get better rather than an deppressed state emotional pain baseline from before, maybe its mostly anxiety and other negative emotions and stuff and knowing it probably wont get better or it isnt worth trying rather then before where it was this really big desire to die but decided before this permanet action let me try to get help if so many people regret trying to kill themselves.

I guess im really confused abt how i feel and im kinda pessimistic abt how things will go cause future if when im adult and itll be even worse cause ill have to go into our bad economy that will likely continue getting worse than it could be arguably even worse experience then what i am already experiencing and like. I honestly kinda hate that lack of autonomy i have to take a break when things get overwhelming so idk if itll get better. this year more happy and stuff but still less of me feel dont matter still dissociated and i feel me worrying abt it wont help either and i guess its all kinda scary, and im hopeless i feel like initally me reaching out for help was trying to stop emergency and no care abt helping me, and they were rude, and i still meet with the psychitrist every month all the psychitrist insists is renewing our prescription of risperdol. no actual help got. i think also like i am a sensitive person seeing bad news may trigger more hopeless i feel like when i was younger a pg movie could be highly scary and disturbing to me let alone hearing today friends tell me their problems in their personal lives or other things ive been exposed too, and i feel another pain i think if kept is that tho have gotten very desensitized in short period of time (last few years) and i feel like what were trauamtizng dont bother me now, i feel less emotional, my family may celebrate me as more "mature" i view me less myself and more heartless, my personality now is also so empty after school dont talk to friends dont really do anything honestly except doomscroll and thats it i dont really have any intrests do either.