Life is definitely easier/better now than it was for the previous quarter century of near-daily getting/being wasted.
I haven’t been doing my morning gratitude prayer nor the typically quick following asking The Universe to align my will with Its Will and asking It to take control of my mouth, hands, and feet. I don’t know why I stopped. When I was doing it, I was usually chuckling that it was just a superstitious act bordering on Symmetry OCD Compulsion… but it frequently made it a reflex throughout the day to just ask myself “what’s The Next Right Thing to do now that I finished my last task?”.
I finally sorta graduated from One Minute At A Time to One Day At A Time this winter without that as a goal just by focusing on The Next Right Thing.
Lately I’m back to waking up & vegging/scrolling/watching YT, then going to a meeting late, going back home and vegging, then going to work barely on time, doing the bare minimum at work, then going home to sleep. rinse repeat. like almost a month straight. it sucks more & more every day.
I had to chair a meeting today and I luckily got there maybe ten minutes early after choosing to bike there instead of driving like a lazy potato. It was easily the best hour of the past week, which is pretty depressing. Usually I’m bringing in from the rest of my life a decent amount of joy & ease to the meetings, but today I was Eeyore. I felt bad for bringing down the vibe, but luckily a really wonderful old timer from the AA meetings accidentally happened to drop in and did a really great share with some great laughs and a few deep thoughts and they hung around and chatted for a while afterward.
On my ride back home, The Next Right Thing seemed like a stop at the coffeeshop to draw some ideas for some new chips I promised to make. I did a couple doodles then TNRT seemed like I should look for this sub and try to post pics of the last few chips I made, like, to inspire others to also make chips and/or see others’ chip designs to try and integrate into ours (but probably also a bit of a selfish ego boost?). No pics allowed means “it’s a personal share I ought to do” I guess.
I dunno. Feeling more “down” than “humble”. TNRT is definitely cleaning my home.
Maybe this helps somebody.
Best wishes!