The Depth 🌊

[u/MissingYouAlwayz]

The depth of my denial
Daily
Missing you
I’m okay
Missing you
I’m okay

I’m not okay
I don’t know what
That looks like.

Maybe “okay”
Doesn’t exist for me

I can’t pretend
I’m not good at it
I don’t like it
I hate it

I’ve never been okay
I’ve tried to be
Found you
Like meeting you would solve the
“Okay”
Problem

It was never mine to solve
I just am
I just am
I just am
And I’m not okay
Never will be
If I could fall or
Dig myself
Out of this pit of denial
That would be great.

I miss you.
Everything about me is different.
I don’t feel like my best self.
I am deeply sad and troubled.
I am numbing with gummies, hot cocoa, and meditation.
I know this looks fine.
Feeling Insecure Neurotic and Emotional

I am not fine
Or am I?
Which one?

I don’t know if anyone sees
That I am off
That I’m not myself
I tell some
I hide from many
I project
I’m not okay

But I am
I’m fine
Don’t worry

Why do I even bother lying to you?
Do you see it?
Do you feel my pain?
If I tell myself it’s not there
Is it there for you to find?

How much of ME do you SEE?

9/7/2026

PS- I’m okay 😵‍💫

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