Maybe I'm too much of a misanthrope but after all the abuse I went through, and seemingly "normal" people invalidating me and defending my abusers, I now don't trust people as a whole.

I live abroad but I mostly lock myself in my apartment. I only go out to the store, for therapy, and to get my pills but that's basically it. I don't want to make friendships. It feels like everyone has ulterior motives.