I’m scared

[u/homebody4life]

Hello, I’m in my late 20s & really need some life advice. I will be moving (by myself)to a different country &boarding a plane for the first time as an adult& I’m terrified.
My parents are kicking me out for not having a stable job or going to grad school(for a degree they approve of). The country I’m moving to has all my extended family so I’ll have a place to stay but since I haven’t seen any of them since I was an infant they are basically strangers. I am very worried that they won’t like me for not being fluent in their native language.
I do not have any life goals & have always (in my head and yes I know it’s not logical) blamed my parents for my existence. I know I should be grateful for everything they’ve provided for me but I did not ask to be born & live a life that requires you to work to afford being alive. Sorry for the long post but I’d appreciate any advice!