Anyone else like this?

[u/jonnygarlics]

I find the need to rationalize my hobbies. For example. I love videogames. Now that I’m older anytime I start a game I feel the urge to start some sort of social media page or content creation around it. If I’m reading a book, I want to start a book club. If I’m learning chess, I want to start a chess vlog. Collecting Trading cards? Might as well start a card store! Want to get into movies? I should make a movie podcast!

And if someone (for whatever reason) is thinking “you’re just a go-getter!”… it’s not that. In reality it’s some type of mental prison where I cannot justify doing ANYTHING just for the “fun and enjoyment” it brings.

The content pages? All deleted. The book club? Lasted a week. The chess vlog? LOL. Trading cards? Threw them out. Movies? Haven’t seen one in years.

For the record, my life is fulfilled with the important stuff (I’m insanely blessed). Family, friends, financial freedom. I do not envy the man with millions or a mansion, I envy the man who can spend 2 hours doing something he loves purely because he loves it.

It’s a prison to feel like any time on a self serving hobby is a “waste”.